I’m falling to pieces. I’m breaking. Finding out you have cancer…worst news..
You don’t know what to do..your lost..you feel alone..
You feel sick…you feel empty…
I’m breaking down..
Breakdown..after breakdown..
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Cancer
Does anyone ever wish they were terminally ill for that garuntee you will die sometime soon. Would it make me want to live ?
Lately I wish I could just disappear and be erased from everyone’s’ memories. I hate how everything is going, but I don’t even dare to try to attempt something. It would hurt people a lot, especially my mother who has been in a battle with cancer for almost two years. I try to be optimistic, start the day and keep in my mind that things will get better… I’m 25, and I haven’t done anything with my life. I’m tired of trying and not making anything happen, just one failure after another.
hello, well as you all know my life is a complete down buzz. if you dont well heres y… i have leukemia (cancer)
i get seriously bullied and no one cares about me. i have not told a living sole but i am planning my death and i need help…
i am seriously ugly now i have no hair and im always purpley blueish like a giant bruise. do you think if i was to dink half a bottle or more of bleech will it kill me i might even add in the meds i take. i wanna give up but then again i want help, what […]
These two girls started trying to have a conversation with me today. They were asking me why I was always so depressed and what they could do to help. They were being very nice. I guess they figured I wasn’t a bad guy? Who knows. Anyway…
One of the girls started talking about how she was depressed about 3 or 4Â years ago (which meant she was about 13) because she had moved from her home town to where she is now. She was talking about how she missed her friends and now she could only talk on the phone with them or communicate through the internet. […]
i’ve been cutting again, my mum found out and guess what she said! i have no reason to do it im just calling out for attention… that’s what she said to me. how the hell do i not have a reason to do it! i’m dieing litterally heres y i do it…
im in pain
i have cancer!
no one cares about me
my lifes stuffed up
i get bullied
and im worthless
maybe i should end it right now, maybe i should stop fighting for my life. why should i have to suffer while no one cares about me.. am i left here to rott in this stupid hospital with a […]
I’m ugly I’m really ugly. 3rd time of chemo and I’m already really sick, ive lost over half my hair and its terrifying i’m scared I’m really scared. this is causing even more pain. should i kill myself now or carry on suffering in pain? cancer is to hard its awful and i dont see how im going to survive! ive been getting messages that im worthless, ugly, useless, good for nothing and that i should go kill myself. the hurtful things people have said to me its to hard to cope,…. how much longer can i last??? i feel really weak and helpless last night […]
I have only ever wanted one thing. It’s the only thing that I will never have.
In grade school, I was maybe seven years old, my teacher asked us to draw what we wanted to be when we grew up. I drew myself with a bunch of babies and kids running around and wrote “stay at home mom.” Now, I’d say my goals have changed considerably, I’d rather work than stay home, but I still have dreams about little green-eyed babies.
My freshman year of college I found out that I’ll never get those babies. I also found out that I will never be in love, I’ll […]
In all my life, I’ve been strong, my father died, my mom left me, I had eating disorders. And I got over everything, but now I just can’t anymore! My grandma doen’t talks to me because Iof his brother, he almos raped me! And she doen’t even know, and if I told her, she wouldn’t believe me cause she loves him more than she loves me she trusts him, he told her I was rude, liar, and that I was on drugs, and she believed, now looks like I’ve been kicked from my own famil. So, I had to move (I left my soulmate in […]
HeartCore, Wordy, Ratkity, those of you who gave a shit, I hope you look here, and I apologize for you having to see this.
SP became my home very quickly, and it became a place that I wasn’t safe to be at any longer even faster.
This will probably be my last day here on SP. I am done, and I cannot take it anymore. Those of you on chat acted like I was saying shit like “oh at least you don’t have fucked up hips” or “at least you aren’t dying” or “at least you don’t have cancer” when all I fucking said was “at least […]
Listen to me.
I know what it’s like having to go to school, and dreading it, just to get bullied every day. I have ADD and slight dyslexia (but you would never know it unless I told you), so I went to “special” classes because I learned differently. I got picked on, constantly, until I finally beat the shit out of the kid for doing it (but I don’t recommend this), and after that, nobody fucked with me. I know what it’s like. I was afraid to go to school. I used to beg my mum to let me stay home, and my grandfather told me […]
Not many people know what it’s like to lose their hair.
As you age, you lose hair. When you get a haircut, you lose hair. I’m talking about a different kind.
It depresses me every time I move my head, wake up, shower… there are clumps of hair… everywhere. Falling out. My hair is dying to help keep me living. My hair could be dying, while I too, began to die.
If you put it into actuality, I’ve been dying for almost 3 years now, only now has it began to really come through.
I am dying, and I have accepted my fate. I have not accepted the fate […]
Ive lost/about to lose everything that is important to me. I let some outside factors take over and rule my life. Making my relationship suffer and eventually costing me the only person who really matters. It all started when my dad was tricked into accepting stolen property. My dad is an old sick gentle man who has survived cancer. He still needs a lot of medical attention but now he has two felony accounts on him. During the same time my band i have been with for 5+years breaks up and one of best friends goes to jail for something he didnt even do. So […]
Hello everyone,
I guess I’ll just start with the basics. My name is Jamie, I’m 20 years old and I live in Ireland. I study Computer Science and I’m just starting my last year. I have suffered from depression for close to 7 years now. I guess I had a rough life. I was abused by my father, sister and my relatives. My mum died from cancer when I was 14. She was also abused by my father (which is the worst part). I’ve been through foster care. I hate myself. I cut, I do drugs and I don’t eat enough. I’m ready to die but […]
I heard it again today.
He has cancer.
He has six months to live.
XFirst was my dad when he was one years old my dad is not suppose to be alive according to all doctors. second was my grandmas two dogs died of cancer. third was my grandma had skin cancer. then my mom told us on vacation she might have it thank god she was in the clear.then i didnt he the word tell 3 months later when my like granpa close friend died of brain ccancer. today. A close guy in my life has six months to live he is dying of […]
I’ve no idea when this started, but I’ve been getting this dominant voice in my head. I’ve thought over it while it was gone, and I’ve realized that I’ve named it. Her name is Belle. Belle is someone who wants to ‘drive me out’ and take over my body for herself. I thought about this long and hard about how long ‘Belle’ has been around. If I really think about it, she’s been around since I was in about third grade. Third grade was when I was really treated as an outcast. So I’m guessing that Belle is an imaginary friend… that never went away […]
My aunt died after having cancer for four years. It was six days before my twelfth birthday. I was in sixth grade.
I felt nothing.
Jump forward a year and three months: Christmas 2010. During my seventh grade year.
My grandparents were crying while we were opening presents. It had something to do with a photo album, sent by my uncle, which had pictures of my aunt in it or something.
My depression started then. It’s lasted for almost two years now, getting progressively worse. It started out as grief, and from then until the first few months of eighth grade, whenever I’d hear about cancer or suicide I’d […]
I lost my best friend to cancer. I first met her when we were 9, we played basketball on the same team. We had clicked instantly. Best friends right away. She lived two blocks away and we always would meet at the park to hang out. She was a year older then me and she was like a big sister. She always had my back and looked out for me. When she was 12 she got cancer. She had it for three months and then the doctors said it went away. But then four months later, just before she turned 13, the doctors said that […]
I had a nervous breakdown when my husband didnt want the son I was carrying, I had a nervous breakdown when my son was diagnosed with cancer, I had a nervous breakdown when I went bankrupt, I had a nervous breakdown when my whole family abandoned me, I had a nervous breakdown when my husband didnt want the daughter I was carrying, I had a nervous breakdown when my mom died, I had a nervous breakdown when my gran and primary caregiver died, I had a nervous breakdown when the rest of my family abandoned me, and now again when going bankrupt again. How […]
I am only 13. And I think about suicide often. Im so young, and ive had it so hard. Things just confuse me so much. When I was 10 I made a “reasoning book” Every time something kills me a little more inside, and makes me think of suicide I write it down in my reasoning book. My plan is when I get to my 100th reason, I will finally try to seek help. I will ask for help. I will put all my trust on a line, and ask for help. And if finding help fails, It will be my last day to breathe. […]