Ok lets get this started (warning mumbling) ok so im a guy and theres this other guy. So when his soppositly girlfriend told me and another boy her bohfriend is gay then she said no hes bisexual. My heart started raseing.. I was so happy but then felt sad becuz i Think she just said that for messing around. So ever since that i just cant stand the earg to just ask him. Aghhh i new him since 4th grade im in 8th grAde. Im bi too so what should i do
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So this feeling is so, not painfull, not happy, no wanting 2 die, yet cant live…iv gotten on my feet the best i could only to get knocked down multiple times id like 2 drink, or do some h. Smoke myself to bliss. Its not drugs that is doin this 2 me thats just how i cope. Searching for a god who speaks through a book i try very hard 2 understand. Cant give up, but cant go passed this. Was i born like this? Did u do this to me?…….tried so hard but did i try the right way. Nah i couldnt have. Is […]
i never knew my father, (my mother told him i wasnt his….i learned this thru my uncle at 13) my mother had a Phd in apathy, with a minor in witholding…..it wasnt really her fault though, she was 16, i was a mistake, and treated thusly…. she only carried to term in part to spite her mother, which she freely admitted, and since the moment of my conception, untill i left 4 days after turning 15, i was the blight of her existence, a heavy burden she had to bear, a punishment, if you will, for her spitefulnes….i’m making this sound so heartbreaking, and dramatic…it […]
I’m still trying to hang on to my life. I’m exhausted by bad ptsd symptoms. I want to move away from my abuser and feel trapped on disability. My brain is so tired and I hear voices at night. My internet and phone on the same day went out and it was hell. By the grace of God thank you Jesus the internet is bad on, and I still have to find another phone carrier b/c Verizon was not helpful in getting me an upgrade. Stupid story. I am terrified of the new neighbor coming in and I am missing my priest who left and […]
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Please comment your username if you would like to be my friend! 🙂
And why cant i upload any photos? (Im on my phone) i keep getting error!
I never thought I would be posting here but I finally am no longer able to handle everything that is going on in my life. I have just turned 22 and can no longer take the abuse from my father. Every day I am screamed at and it seems that like clock work every 5-6 months he beats me. I just cant take it anymore. I have been through many jobs and cant make enough to move out. Today he humiliated me and screamed at me in front of all the neighbors. Embarrassing. He leaves me feeling like there’s no longer a point in living. […]
Ok, so. My google search failed obviously to find me a suicide pact. But while I found this I guess I’ll share my story~
I might kill myself. I have all the reason to, and not like most. Herp derp, I know people have troubles but most people that look at middle schoolers or high schoolers and listen to their “reasons” for suicide and generally agree that they have no reason to and they should live.
I /actually/ have little reason to live.
I /actually/ have reasons.
I most likely /actually/ cant find happiness in this life.
For about three years now (I’m 16) I’ve been getting these weird intense horrible physical/mental feelings that occur at random and last for about 10 minutes. I’m not sure exactly but I think it could be a panic/anxiety attack. My mum said she used to get them too but she never really understands me and i asked to see a doctor and she said no. So I thought I’d go to the school nurse about it and she didn’t really tell me anything either. I’ve explained to my friend the feelings before and she was just like no you cant call it a panic attack […]
So, it seems like if one wants to lay it all out there this is the place.
Ok, I hate life. I don’t enjoy things like most people seem to. I am a SWM, 42, and I can’t dance because I feel like a fool, and really feeling like a fool is essentially my basic state of mind most of the time. I also have trouble eating, which has a very long childhood story to it. I have a very hard time trying new foods, cant just eat it anyway to be polite, and often cant even eat foods I normally like if they are prepared […]
why is death the only answer? what happen if i succeed only to find that it hurts on the other side? where does this anguish come from and why cant i beat it? why cant i be a normal person? why do so many of us suffer from this? why cant life be simple and easy? why do people prevent me from having work, a place to live and food to eat? why cant i abide by the rules? so many questions, too few answers
best ways to utilize a body you cant use anymore? preferably for other’s sake.
i just cant
When that one feeling comes back, where you feel like your too worthless to be cared about but there has to be someone out there that can help cant there and there must be hope somewhere i just cant help but think that i am some useless amd worthless hore that needs to be killed or should of done suicide when i had the chance just sitting in my room crying and replaying in my head how shit my life has been no one round no one to look after me. How am i supposed to carry on when i feel like shit in the […]
I stoped 2 friends too not suicide…. But no 1 will help me…. Everything i do is wrong…. Everything I touch is wrong…..everything I choose is wrong….. God wont help….. Men that likes men will burn in hell so even if i commit this act i still will go to hell burning forever
oh well my friend will no y i did it
becuase of him ???? oh well hope your problems are fixed not like mine
-brian mejia r.
Why does no one go into a dangerous situation like climbing mt everest or one of those, just bring everything you’d need as far as food and water to get you as far as you could go and just start walking? Eventually you might reach the area of lower atmosphere whete you are happy and cant think straight, this would certainly be where you die, if you hadnt given up before then. What am i not seeing? Isnt this a viable suicidal venture? Please suggest and respond
I m In Love With Him 1 year ago. now in between we are in love deeply love but today suddenly i see that one girl in he’s whatsapp profile i dont know whos she, i ask to him whos she??. but he says i dont knw what u say i knw see that pic in my phone i don’t know any girl also say that he check friends phone but that picture is see only in ur phone . i don’t believe in that . I love him very Much i cant live without him please help me what can i do in this […]
I just dont understand, its not that i dont want to, or dont have the will, but, i just want to stay and its so hard… I’m sorry of this is how you guys feel, i really am. I can’t help myself, i can’t save you, i just, well, i cant do anything. I can’t imagine going on like this, not without Makaila, she was my best friend, she was my anchor, she was my everything, but she had to leave us, not on her own choice, she had gotten in a car accident, a little over a month ago, and was dead on […]
In my time of deepest despair and anger, when everything was falling apart, I got an unexpected phone call from a friend I met on here. I mean unexpected, I just gave my number in the offchance they might text me if everything went bad. But they read my post on here and gave me a call, and it made such a difference. I dont feel so alone anymore. I have people around me, and my doctor and councillor but if I told them truthfully what I was really thinking and feeling and planning it would be hospital time, and that means cant truly share myself. Until […]
I thought about it again. Taking all my pills at once. About cutting, Mum is slamming me again and my sister cant stop finding out my flaws. The kids at school just can’t stop after they saw me flirting with Mary. I want it all to end. I don’t want to let Her down but I feel hopeless. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. I feel like something isn’t right with me. Maybe I’m just paranoid though. My grades are slipping and I’m trying to keep them up. I have to get all A’s. Otherwise homelife is more like life in Hell. I […]
i’ve wanted to be an artist since i was 14. make animations, draw comics, create illustrations, whatever, my mind has been set on that goal from the moment i realized that that’s what i wanted to do for the rest of my life.
the problem is, my art sucks.
at first that didn’t bother me much. i mean, i just started, of course i suck. i’m still young, i’ll get better, i just have to keep practicing.
and for 2 or 3 years, that’s what i did. i looked for resources online, asked my parents to put me in an art course, started keeping a sketchbook. really wanted to get […]