I hate pretending like I’m okay when every little thing reminds me of you.
I feel like a horrible person because I’ve tried finding someone new.
I cry myself to sleep at night and I’m afraid to turn off the light…
I’m afraid that I’ll see you, I usually do…
I miss everything about you…
I miss your eyes so blue…
I miss your smile and the light in your eyes,
I miss the way we talked all night…
I miss how our hands, mine so small compared to yours, still fit perfectly together…
I miss how you seemed so excited, when you found out […]
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Cheek
Been a while since I vented to my fellow suicidies. Thankfully, I haven’t been feeling so suicidal lately– but I still feel mentally unstable. I guess most of the reason for my mental stability has been my comfort in solitude and repetition. As much as the repetitive drag of everyday seems to weigh me down, I’ve felt quite anchored in it.
A few days ago I received the ominous “hey” text from an ex boyfriend. My repetitive reality has been temporarily shattered. It’s been almost a year since I last spoke to this ex boyfriend. I’ve been through a couple stages: When is he going to […]
You were so broken,
Words never spoken:
They haunted you in your sleep
You didn’t speak,
Maybe you could cry the pain away.
Your life was good
He treated you well,
You would always smile,
He could never tell
That you were hurting,
Your soul burning.
You tucked me in,
You kissed my cheek
You sang a lullaby and watched me sleep
He kissed you goodnight,
With a sleepy “I love you”
“See you in the morning”
There were no warnings
When I woke up, I saw daddy cry,
“Everything’s fine,” He choked on his lies
And then I saw you, and lost all hope
Around your neck was a fastened rope
From that day on, it was all broken.
This Girl That I Love That Is MY Girlfriend cares about another guy and not me i love her so much im so bliend But i still love her she hurts me cuz she kisses the cheek of another guy and kisses him i love S and it hurts me knowing she just playing with me
An emotion so strong, yet so visible, yet to those who choose to see only what they want to, see only the flash of fire in your eyes, feel only a burn in the deepest depths of your soul, hear only the drop of one tear as it passes past your cheek, thesesigns catch those who care and they look into your eyes with the power of ice, calm your soul with just one touch and dry the tear with just one word.
January 5,2011 The day my daddy passed away, The day my 2 year boyfriend broke up with me, Â The day my mom and dad got married through church , The day I tried killing my self …
My dad died from cancer my boyfriend left me for my bestfriend….My bestfriend told all my secrets. That night it was a school night thursday to be exact. I punched a whole in my wall my nuckles turned purple I wanted to hurt myself I thought “I dont desrve to live im just a waste of space nobody cares for me!” I punched the mirror now my nuckles […]
I roll to my other side to be greeted by an empty bed once more. The imprint of your body still engrave in the mattress. The smell of your cologne and stale cigarette smoke, from long sleepless nights, still lingers in the air. A bottle of cheap liqueur solitarily stands on that old mahogany dresser. Clothes strewn across the room from lust filled endeavours, fueled by the cheap elixir of love. The shattered remains of our love lays in pieces on the floor, alongside the broken china. I lay here an wonder what it was all for?
I somehow manage to drag myself from our un-matriomonial […]
Are you okay with this part?
Are you okay with my heart?
Are you okay with the scars?
The once perfect ghost studded with stars
Open skies ripped the night apart
So if I kissed you on the cheek
Would you push me into you?
If I held you close to me
Would you push me to choose?
I don’t wanna mess this up
If this exists at all
I don’t want to move too fast
But I don’t want to be alone
So if I tried would they talk?
Would you break me?
Don’t you wanna break me?
They all wanted to hurt me
Steal what I […]
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It’s a song about the last 3 months. First time I really
actually felt suicidal, a bit of what led up to it and how
someone was there to help me get through. I dunno…
I guess you guys understand the need to express
ourselves right? It’s important. So here I am… telling it
like it is.
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(Never) Been Better. <—–YOUTUBE (if you wanna hear it)
and the man on the street
he ain’t worth the word he can’t keep
but that don’t stop his tongue
from dancing in his cheek
and he says…
“loser”, I mean you no harm
you’re not going anywhere
won’t be better than me
my eyes are glued
on […]
There was a chill in the wind that night, one like no other.
The darkness made it hard for sight, but I knew it was my  brother.
The strength of his grip, the frame of his stature;
As he grabbed my hips, before IÂ knew it I was captured.
My throat went dry, I couldn’t scream.
I tried and tried, but the harder it seemed.
Next thing I knew, an unfamiliar place; unsure of what to do, clothes were disappearing at fast pace.
My face turned white, I couldn’t shift.
Frozen in fright, thinking did IÂ deserve this?
Down my cheek, the first tear rolls.
As he proceeds, my mouth he holds.
“Our little secret” he whispered […]
That night…tall grass bathed in moonlight. The stars sparkle brightly as the North Pole’s breath travels down to where we are and dances across your cheek. Tall grass and white flowers..in that place  next to the brook and that wise old tree. We would stretch out between the roots under the spot where you carved our initials when we were young. The place where we fell in love, where you first tried to kiss me and I pulled away and ran as you chased me until i tripped over a secret root and you fell on top of me. Dear God we were only 13 and 14 […]
Over the last 3 or 4 years, I have been sinking further into despair. I am now at a point where I am ready to exit. The times I have been most at peace over the last few years have generally been when I have been sleeping; I figure that a sleep where I never wake up would be a good thing. I know this might sound like a First World Problem, but my descent began when I got made redundant during the GFC. Since then, I have had to take jobs that have paid less, and also had to use up all of my savings during […]
i honestly don’t care whether or not i die. if a car drives towards me. sure, i’ll jump to safety. its natural. and wayyy to messy. i heard that girls end their cycle through pills n shit.. boys do it the messy way, shotguns or roadkill. i don’t care much though. its ok.
i just wished nobody cared. it would have been easier to be me. so. my gran found out im smoking. she started off like god was against me. i ended the conversation with saying: why would god care if i provoke cancer when children starve to death somewhere else.
my life might not seem […]
Ten years ago
We were both fifteen. Teenagers. Too old to be called children, and barely old enough to be called teens. Too old to be taken care of, but too young to get many freedoms. Lost, reckless and confused, much like the majority of our age group. Except for one tiny difference: we were being held in a school for emotionally unstable teens.
Neither of us thought there was anything wrong with ourselves, but apparently the rest of the world disagreed. We were both there for the same reason, which was cutting and repeated suicide attempts. Nothing some special school could fix; just a bit of […]
Bieng Bi-Polar is hard for my young friend Gwen not many people understand her like I do.Its hard to have your over at my house and currently were dating which is also complicated. One day in the morning she said that she was going to die today being bi-polar I thought it would blow over but I never thought I would be in for such a big treat Room 224 2nd hour Mrs.**** she hated us that teacher did she would pick on me cause I was the jokester and Gwen hated it she stood up for me and got in trouble I always thanked […]
and here we are again. Back to old self-defeating habits. Hope?
What is hope? Is it believing that there could POSSIBLY be something better? Is it waking up and looking forward to the following day?
Happiness?… We use this word as if it’s nothing. As if in a split second everything could go from complete shit, to being honky dory and you could be happy for the rest of your life. When someone asks me why I can’t “Put on a smile! Get out of the house!” I honestly don’t even know what to say. Yes, I know how to smile. But I don’t know how to mean it. All […]
I sit here in the darkness. The only comfort is the light in my bathroom. I hear soft footsteps. I see a shadow of a creature on four legs. It’s creeping walk slowly limbers towards me. In its jaw is a bone, it crunches in its mouth as some strange liquid drips from its snout. It walks as I reach for the covers and I hide under. A dog howls outside. A very large dog, possibly a wolf.
The creature tugs lightly at the sides of the bed. It lightly gets on the bed as it creeps under the cover.Â
The boy jumps out of bed and […]
I heard my phone. I picked it up and said hello, it was my aunt. She said that my mom and dad died in a car accident. I was lost, I ran to my bedroom and ruind everything, I trashed the place. After that I went to the bath. My tears ran down my cheek. It was a scissor on the sink, so I took it and cut it slowly over my arm. I screamd, I did it over, and over again. Sudently my brother came home.  He went in, in to the bathroom. He saw me. I was just laying there tears in my eyes, […]
I wrote this just sitting here, singing with my nieces and thinking of my girlfriend 🙂
When you smile at me
My heart skips a beat
Could this be
I’m actually happy?
Your eyes are a light green
Prettiest eyes I’ve ever seen!
With skin the color of cream
I could mistake you for a queen.
With lips a soft pink
Oh, is that a blush on your cheek?
The days are so meak
Without you here to keep.
But I’ll see you again
Kiss every inch of your cream skin
And lose myself in those eyes of light green.
Signed: RunningInTheDark
Tobias Curry
I’m 15. I’m a female. And here’s a story that really changed me.
It was a sunny day. Me and my friend were excited so we went riding with our bikes around the block. Lame, I know. But we were only 10. Anyway, some of our classmates lived on that block. We were talking and riding when one of our classmates, Daisy, sees us and yells, “Come! Karina is here!” Karina is another one of our classmates and a close friend.
We went in and we saw that she was there with 4 guys. Let’s name them Tom, Bobby, Chris and Daisy’s brother, Matt. We thought […]
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