I can’t do this, anymore. I’m done. I don’t even care about the mess or scarring my family, anymore. Here’s hoping I don’t see everyone on the other side too soon. Cheers! *drinks my fizzy chocolate milk*
I wanna be a fairy Miranda style
I wanna be a unicorn Kaylee style
I wanna be a sportsfan Nut style
I wanna be something new the Universe’s style
I wanna be SUCH FUN Penny style
I wanna be amaze balls Tilly style
I wanna be wearing baby gap Stevie style
I wanna be a savory muffin Gary style…a savory muffin? No life has enough madness.
I think, I wanna just be, something other than me.
Can I be a doughnut? Jelly filled pls.
Could be the bolly talking. Cheers all! Have a fun weekend!
Gettin drunk off my ass.!!
Cheers.!!
Im surfing at internet (sure) looking for any kind of help, but i’m not sure why.. maybe i want help but to tell the truth, i think it’s more about killing time because i really dont believe that i can get helped, theres no words or medication that can change who iam or worse what ive lost.
Cheers
I suck. Everybody hates me. I hate myself. I have no family, no friends, my coworkers hate me. I don’t even know why. I seem to bring out a visceral hate in everybody I encounter. If not for my dog, I’d be dead already. Ironically, I have a big heart and am usually attempting to be nice and helpful. But, it inevitably backfires. Cheers.
I think overdosing will be the best method. A bunch of sleep pills and a shit ton of vodka, I have a high tolerance for lq I know I’ll throw most of it up but hey here’s to hopping.. Cheers
When I woke up this morning the trees didn’t work
Birdsong had turned to gunfire,
and the stars were in the dirt
Snow feels like a heatwave,
sunshine feels like rain
If a feather touches my skin it causes me pain
Come back!
Come back, and make the world work again
Come back, and put an end to all this mess
Come back, and prove the world’s not heartless
Come back, and prove the world’s not … heartless
The air is thick as tar,
and my skin is bruised and stung
I try to talk but no one understands my tongue
With every passing second I age […]
Hey, was just talking in another thread about what girls look for in men, noonoo said ‘looks and money’ .. I said I was fairly good looking and quite handsome if you catch me in the right light! .. So, thought I’d put some pictures up..
Hello sp,
Two days ago I did something horrible, something awful, terrible if you will. I got drunk. Now, that might not seem that bad in and off itself, so let me elaborate: it wasn’t at a bar. It wasn’t with friends. It wasn’t even on my own like I often do. No, it was in a restaurant. With my family. The drunkest I have ever been. Blackout drunk. Throwing up drunk. Unable to walk drunk. All off the wine they bought for themselves. My mum had to help me walk home, that much I remember. I don’t remember what happened after we got home, […]
What is life? What is death?
Such words countlessly repeated.
What is after? What was before?
A bird in a cage has no use for such answers.
Brocken wings, muted songs,
For life will exhaust them before long.
What is this wonderful world you speak of?
I look, I search,
I desperatly yearn for a revelation.
But I see grey, I see ugliness,
I see the bars in hoplessness.
When all smiles could faked and all cheers could be fabricated,
Even love will be twisted.
What is remaining? What should I be searching?
Only the self satifaction of daydreaming.
Let me sleep, let me dream, let me wander away from my cage.
I don’t want this heart anymore
My husband has left me. I cant take it. Why is God letting me suffer? Why is he letting my husband hurt me like this? Our marriage hasnt been the best the past year and now its officially over. I dont want this. We have a newborn and I think im pregnant again. My husband says im nothing to him and he hopes i kill myself. He practically cheers me on to do it. Ive cried and begged God to help me. But i dont get anything. I know i shouldnt want to die cause of my kids. But my husband says they are better […]
Oh . my. fucking. god.
Long story short, I had a father who abused my mother, i would protect her causing me to get beat instead of her which was totally fine with me, as long as she wasnt hurt. one day he went too far, and she FINALLY -thank god- divorced the beast. that was around 3 years ago, and we haven’t kept in contact, (me and my father) . But my birthday, was around a month ago, and he sent presents for the very first time, whoopee. a fucking month late. cheers dad. not only that, but he sent me clothes, all in […]
I’m not sure how this works but I feel like venting. I’m 25 years old. People say I’m pretty but most of the time I can’t stand who I see in the mirror. I’ve been reading posts on this website over the last few days and I was surprised to see my thoughts and feelings expressed so accurately by random people all over. You know when people say oh everyone’s felt like  that, like that’s suppose to help but this actually is kind of comforting. Anyway back to venting. I had a car accident this mornin and physically I’m fine but in every other way I’m […]
How do you guys cope with feeling bad? Cry? Cut? Distract yourself? Get Angry?
Have any of you ever tried fainting?
Whenever I feel bad, I usually cry, but every once in a while, I’ll faint to feel better.
It feels good.
Really good.
For 3 seconds I forget about the world
For 3 seconds I forget about everything
It feels like
A 3 second suicide
What feels better is, when I wake up, for a few seconds, I get really light-headed
Almost as if I’m high
It feels like floating
You guys should try it
It might put some of you out of misery for a while
Just don’t over-do it, I’m pretty sure it’s not that safe
Anyways, […]
I was chatting with my doctor today about depression
He recommended taking St Johns Wort.You can but it in Wal Mart or any health food store, It has been used for years in Europe, with some very positive results. Im starting today, I will let you know how it goes.
Below is a link to a great website, and it has an extensive forum with testimonials and other information.
Have a Look
Cheers
http://www.sjwinfo.org/
hi all.
someone (me) took my username, so I used my username as my password. anywho.
some idiot told me to call the suicide hotline about a month ago, and I’ve called it before, and from many different states in the USA. this was about a month or year ago. I really do forget.
I tried to kill myself for about 5 years maybe ten. I stopped trying to kill myself about 4 years or maybe 3 years ago now. Now I bounce in between states, jail and doctors offices. it’s great don’t get me wrong, if I had a gun I would shoot hella stuff, but I […]
I’ve always been told I have a way with words, but I’ve never felt able to communicate unless it was through music. I can say things I never thought I’d be able to get out any other way with my music. Music is what keeps me alive. Words cannot express how I feel right now, so I wrote a song about it. It was originally meant for a friend, but it turned out to be a lot more about me than I thought. Anyway, here it is. I know it’s not great, but I feel like I got out what i was trying to say.