So I’m startinq to let the real me out.I miss sayinq bi power on my status on Myspace lol.(Like three years aqo)I don’t know If I am bisexual.I’ve refused to answer that question In the past year and a half.Am I still attracted to boys???I don’t know,I just don’t know but I love qays tho!Yall judqe to much tho.It started when I was In eiqhth qrade.I started to qo boy huntinq with my old bestfriend causse I didn’t want her and my ex to do It and I quess I qrowed a feelinq for them.I only told three close friends,One was my old bestfriend.Couple days later two […]
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All my lyfe ive been compared, contrasted, and told i never tried my best. Im a sophomore in high school and this year especially, ive been having many thought about suicide. I have strict asian parents who dont take anything but a’s. I have a lot of pressure on my shoulders and when i told my parents ive wanted to something else besides a doctor or do another major than pre-med, they would get mad or tell me im stupid. Ive wanted to chase after my dreams as a musician and an artist. My parents never accepts the idea no matter how many time […]
I have felt that life is pretty pointless for a long while now. Although things get better for a little while, it’s all temporary. I’m lying to my friends that things aren’t bothering me, I’m lying to my really close friends and telling them that I am not considering suicide as an option anymore.
It has stopped worrying me that I am considering it as an option, and I suppose that fact should be worrying me itself but it doesn’t. I’ve stopped myself from making solid plans, but I have a big life altering event ahead of me, and I am thinking that if that […]
it all started in 6th grade. i was bullied, my grandpa died, and other stupid stuff. im now in 8th grade, and i have strongly considered suicide around 11 times. couldnt God give me a break?!!?!?!? im only 14!!!!!!!!!! when your heart just feels so overwhelmed that you cant bare it any longer. i put a smile on my face everyday at school. thats just not something you want people to go around knowing. i got two really close friends. i just always felt guilty, them thinking they knew me, but they didn’t at all. they thought i was always happy and bubbly. guilt built up inside […]
How do you cope?
when your…
…friend who you thought was your best friend left you?
…mother decides not to believe in you and wants to disown you?
…brother and sister decides to not stand up for you and stay with your mother instead, even though you truly believe you are right?
…only friends are the good friends, but no close friends?
…love life is in shit-hole?
…university academic is being affected by your drastic (depression) behavior?
…thoughts of suicide is re-surfacing, stronger than ever?
I am sleeping alone now in a hotel. My mother just left me to sleep in our new apartment. My brother […]
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I’ll explain the tite in a minute. I’ve researched about suicide, understood all the facts. Yet I’m a hypocryte. I apoligise for that but here’s how I am: I’ll use as much logic and try to keep polite to get my point across if I’m trying to make or keep someone reletivy happy. But when it comes to myself. I can’t help but be as pesstimistic as possible.
Now about the title- One thing I heard that helps is getting your problems out. But I don’t trust some people and others I don’t want to worry. So I post it […]
I’m not suicidal, but I used to be. I wish I knew five years ago what I know now, and I feel like I have to share it– So I’m sorry if this sounds preachy, because I really don’t mean for it to be.
When I was five my sister, Jen, killed herself with an intentional drug overdose. A decade later I was thinking about doing the same. I’d sit on the floor of my room every day after school and try to think of reasons not to end my life, with no luck. A couple of times I held a knife to my wrist, even […]
hi there im lily. im the age of under 18. if your on here just cuz your bored or you actually wanna know, w/e i dont really care if your willing to listen then great! cuz id like you to know my story…
my life was and still slightly is wrapped up in lies. it was taking everything over. it was making me into something i wasnt and getting me into alot of trouble. it was getting me down that everything i talked about wasnt real. i was getting sick of it.
then theres alan. hes now my ex but was my SPD (sadistic personality disorder) boyfriend. […]
I guess ill start by stating the facts… Im currently 17, I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes when i was 4, fell into a deep depression in the 6th grade, and am still feeling depressed. although i manage to have an outward appearance of being fine, im not. I was also recently diagnosed with severe POTS… some shitty thing where my blood pools in my legs, so i have a high heart rate but low blood pressure. If i compare my life to others, i know its damn fine. I have a loving mother and three loving sisters. My dad loves me in his […]
  Hi, I’m Daniel and I’m new here…and well I’ve been thinking about killing myself as of today. And it’s not like I just decided to kill myself because of a sudden mood swing, I’ve really thought about this long and hard for several years. I’m not asking for you to sympathize with me, I just want people to lsiten for once.
   Well to sum it up, I was bullied on my first day of high school which ended up lasting for several years untill all of the verbal, physical and sexual harrassement stopped during the second semester of grade 11. I was laughed at, teased about my looks and […]
im not a bad person why does nobody treat me with respect, the only thing i ever do is try and help people and i get hurt for it im failing in college and i cant catch up im realy not in the mood for living right now maybe the next lifetime
people dont seem to like me all i get is grief and insults people prejudging me thinking you wont like this its not your thing, how would you know are you inside my head and if you are howcome your not as confused as i am all i wanted was to be a policeman […]
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