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Commit Suicide
I’m 17 Â years old and i really want to die right now. As a child i was sexually abused by my uncle. My dad is a jerk. My mom is a control freak. She wants me to do things that I don’t love. I even cried in front of her for like 10x already. I begged her many times that I really want to do what I love. They are all the same my grandma, uncles, aunts. My friends they just love me for my money. I was bullied in school for being ugly. I have low self esteem. I really want to make some […]
I went through a lot since I last posted here. My parents found out I skipped a lot of school and when they asked me why I tried to tell them that I’m depressed, I even showed my mom this site. But she said that I’m making this up because I don’t want to tell her the real reason, which is not true. She even asked me if I even know what depression is. It’s been a while since then now and I actually felt better. I changed my school this year and I made a lot of friends in my new class. I actually […]
This is suppose to be over 30 days, but I’ll probably forget about it if I do that, so I’ll do it all now. To be honest, I don’t cut anymore, but I still thought it would be useful to do.
1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
On and off for around three years. The first time I started when my brother tried to commit suicide and all the stress from that.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
Legs, breasts, back, you know, all the places that are easy to hide the scars
3. What […]
i am a year 12 student, whom for background knowldeg did have depression for most of my highschool years, had constant thoughts throught daily life of killing myself. I have also been through 4 different situations where someone has told me they are going to commit suicide and they have basically thrown it all on me and i was fighting each time hysteric tears, because a couple were before i even thought of such horrid things and then the other couple were after i had gone through with massive grieveing of my bestfriend who commited suicide. i didnt even have the chance to save him. […]
When i was a teenager,i tried to commit suicide i went to the bathroom cabinet right before i went to bed and took every single pill that my parents had there,my heart started beating super fast (i thought my chest was going to explode) then i just went to bed and slipped away into the night i really thought that was going to be it,but then i woke up the next morning 🙁
You tell me we have a purpose in life.
You tell me I shouldn’t kill myself because I won’t fulfill my purpose.
My purpose, though, is to commit suicide.
I know. I am certain.
I need to, to show you…
that death isn’t anything tragic.
A poem/song that I wrote 3 days before being admitted into a hospital for a suicide attempt.
I can’t even function
I mean there’s no reason
Why try for no cause?
Fuck everything, fuck it all
I give up
I can’t keep up
No motivation
To keep me going
I’ve tried so hard
Only to be let down
My heart’s broken into shards
I guess this is punishment
For having hopes high
While my feet were on the ground
My lips can’t crack a smile
My throat can’t muster a laugh
It’s been a long while
Since I’ve been put down this bad
I guess I had […]
Its not something I want to feel though. Because I know damn well I have so much ahead of me in life and I can’t just give up just like that. But the shit I’ve been through just barely pushes me over the edge sometimes. I often find myself thinking about how normal other peoples lives are and how I wish I was in their position. I think I’m too much of a ***** to commit suicide anyways, Â I dunno. I just feel like God has so much in life to offer for me. I have plenty of people to talk to but when it […]
The word itself makes people stop and see what it says. It’s so eye grabbing and it captures most everyone’s attention. Saying you’ll commit suicide is easy. Setting up suicide is easy. But actually doing it? Actually jumping off of a building? Actually pulling the trigger? Actually slitting your wrists? It’s fucking hard. To know that your life is there; So vulnerable in your hands. It’s all in front of you. And it’s all up to you in that very moment. Whether you live, or you die.
What’s it like falling? Just free falling and all of a sudden, nothing. Or to pull the trigger […]
In the past ten months the following has happened:
Sept: My grandpa was missing for three days. He was found alright. However I had to face the fact that both him and I would tell each other we were ok, while we were both falling apart. And my ‘boyfriend’ came home from a summer away and went back to being emotionally abusive.
Oct: My friend/boyfriend continued to be abusive, and also was struggling with depression. At the end of the month I had to call his mom because he was suicidal. He hated me for it.
November: My little brother had a seizure and was […]
I started chatting with a man on the internet about 1 1/2 year ago. Long story short, I have lost all of my retirement and had to quit work in order to have access to it. I have lost around $250,000.00 to this man. I have about $50.00 to my name. I am 57 years old and not in good health. My family knows I have been talking to this man; but they don’t know I have given him so much money. I would be too ashamed and embarrassed to tell them. My only out is to commit suicide. I have already written my note.Â
You say suicide is selfish , but your the one who caused me mental and physical pain. You say you want me to be happy… but then you call me a whore and a worthless piece of shit.. and you expect me to just forget about that. You say your not calling me names your just saying how it is, saying i’m an immature freshman, and that killing myself is ridiculous and i shouldn’t joke about it and you feel bad for me. But you think i’m joking , i’m not the immature one you are , i’m not saying i want to commit suicide […]
Starting off im a male, 21 years old, names not important. Basically my story is my life isnt as bad as others im sure of that but yet I feel this tremendous pain inside me. Im currently in college to become an architect best in my class and have already had job offers. All this but I come from a not so nice family wanted to get away from them ive had problems with this in the past I’ve been to therapy for this whole wanting to commit suicide since I was young about 13. Its a little funny cause my parents used to […]
Hello, I need a sincere advice. I want to commit suicide and I have planned how to do it. I will take cyanide to end my life. However, I am not able to figure out should I commit suicide at home and leave my parents to find my body (I am from India and stay with my parents) or should I commit suicide in a hotel room and leave it to the hotel staff/police to find my body and inform my parents?
The thought of my parents finding me lifeless is very disturbing for me. At the same time I don’t want to give them […]
Even if you decided to take you own life and end your days here on earth does the guilt of telling someone big so that person get a golden chance to help you
so was the title for the song decided… “golden chance”
But the fight has only just begun to me; it is a long way to go because suicide is growing in Sweden and worst is that it is the
age 12-18 that commit suicide most of the year today
in Seweden is the number of suicide 1500 by year and it is 4-5 times
more that think about doing it
thats why i […]
Within the next few weeks, I am going to commit suicide. I have wanted this for so long but as the day draws closer and closer I am noticing things that are going to be hard to say goodbye to and people who’s lives are going to be changed forever when I am gone.
Mom and Dad,
I have always had a horrible relationship with my parents. They suffer from depression and bipolar as well so they are not exactly the best parents. But I walk by their room and see them sitting peacefully, watching tv or reading, and I feel so horribly guilty because I know […]
im not shure and i honestly don’t care if anyone has written anything even remotely similar. my life doesn’t suck. yeah it has its moments. but no. i like my life.
but. im tired. thats all there is to it. there is nothing left for me here. i just feel like i am done here. i need to move on.
i got help for these suicide thoughs. but honestly. nothing worked. in the end of the therapy i pretended to be healthy. but… you cant fix someone when they are already dead inside.
some things are beyond therapy i guess.
im not old. im 18. and appear like everyone […]
I’m not suicidal, even though I have been in the past, but I want every one reading this to know they matter and that there are people around you who care and love you.
I lost one of my best friends just a week ago to suicide. He was depressed and under extreme pressure in his academic and social life. He didn’t believe that the girl he had been in love with for four years had any interest in him and that he was too dependent on her. She didn’t tell him while he was alive, but she loves him and thought that he deserved more […]
For the past 2 years, I’m 14 by the way, I’ve been dealing with depression. Major depression. I remember even when I was 12, when everything started- there would be voices in my head that called me so many things that it would be impossible to get them out. Even with counseling, no matter what I poured out it was never enough. There was this big empty gap in my soul and every second, every minute, and every hour of my life it would just keep getting bigger. Last year, I found myself completely gone. I went hysteric and I tried to commit suicide. The […]