Less than a year ago, I have done so many horrible things and the worst is, I tried to commit suicide. I have put to shame my very own name and the names of many others. I was 18 and I was at the lowest of lows, I have experienced a wide assortment of emotions. I have felt a way no one should ever be allowed to feel.
Up to now, I still can’t tell exactly why I did it. I was just so mixed up inside and I do not know what triggered me to do such thing. I never thought I could do […]
Last year, i tried to commit suicide. After I’ve gone out of the hospital, I didn’t have a therapy because i refused to. And now, my mom is still pushing me to do so because my temper got worse after what had happened.
I attempted to commit suicide last night by suffocation. Did not work. I also tried hanging myself: no success there. Think I might try a drug overdose next time.
okay guys sorry for the bad spelling/typing. . . but im in a relationship and ive been going out with him for like 3 weeks now but ive always been suicidal and i dont know if i should brake up with him before i commit suicide or kinda leave it. im very happy with him but i just dont like the idea that i am alive, i know that is the probably the most stupid reason to die but there is a whole back story of why i am depressed and suicidal. i dont want to hurt him yet i still want to die because […]
I want to die but…
this is the truth for all
God of this Universe is the one that is Accountable for the ENTIRE HUMAN RACE ON THIS GOD”S EARTH
we are NOT GUILTY OF NOTHING… MANKIND RACE IS SO NOT GUILTY … GODS ENERGY IS THE ONE THAT DID IT TO ALL OF US HERE. so if you commit sucide do not worry about nothing. One day I will be their also and I know for a fact that this Energy God knows who did what!!! ENERGY GOD DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if NOT for this Energy God NONE of us would Never have such a Evil Negative Life on this earth […]
Sometimes I wonder about this. If I were to commit suicide. Is that all people would remember about me? I mean, do you think people would remember me for who I was? Or would all the good things I’ve ever done or ever accomplished be overshadowed by it. Would I just be remembers as that sad and weak person who killed himself?
I don’t know what to do with my life. My life is so monotone. I go to university everyday, I don’t even know what would I do with all stuff I learn in university. I go to university everyday, I attend the class then go home straight away. I go to university everyday, but I don’t have any friend. I go to university everyday, but I don’t know what will I do after I graduate.
I love looking above the sky, seeing the clouds moving and changing shapes. I love looking above the sky, seeing the sun shines brightly. I love looking above the sky, thinking […]
I’ve never really had any sense of direction with my life. I think about the future quite often, but I don’t see myself in it. I never have. I don’t see myself doing any job or having children or getting married or living anywhere. I just don’t see it. I’m 23 and that’s still young, but most people have an idea of what they want to do with their life… I just don’t. I think I am destined to commit suicide. I feel like that’s my purpose in life. Does anyone else feel this way or think this could be my purpose ?
I have done a lot of thinking lately and I just realized that no one in this god damn world cares and loves me. I mean all I do is bring agony and pain to my family and friends. I keep on making them sad and disappointed because of me. Which has led me to the conclusion that I will commit suicide soon as in really soon. I might use a gun, or jump from a certain height, or even drink poison or something like that. Because right now I give up. I don’t care about my life anymore. Peoples lives would be better without […]
I hate how if you don’t go to college, society deems you an “idiot” or a “failure” in life. I tried college, but it just hasn’t worked for me. It’s too fucking depressing. Everyone that I knew in high school seems to be in college, all giddy with their friends and entertaining lives. I have nowhere to go but into the limited career world that I’ve been bred into, and I’m not expecting much. I can’t do anything for long, because I become bored and just want to sleep and never wake up. Therapy is going pretty poorly. My last meeting with my therapist was […]
I came across this site while looking up suicide rates in 2014. I read through some of the posts, and decided I’d post my story. Although I’ve never attempted suicide, the thought is all to familiar to me. The thought of committing suicide has crossed my mind numerous times. I don’t know how intentional the thought was to actually commit, more of a lingering what if? Death is inevitable, inevitable for everyone. I’ve endured many losses in my 28 years. Some family, most of them friends. Some to accidents, and others at their own will. I never really thought too much about what happens to a persons soul after they take their own life. […]
Im about to turn 17 on Dec 11, which is next week. My goal is to commit suicide before my Birthday. It’ll be the best present, I can give myself.
I’m so scared right now… I’m starting to get enough balls to actually commit suicide. 2 years ago I would never think I would cut myself, but I have. For the past two days I’ve been using a cord and putting it around my neck and choking myself. I take medication for depression but nothing seems to be working at all. I just want to die SOO bad. I feel like that’s what I am looking forward to. I feel like my boyfriend doesn’t want to talk to me anymore about this. I know I’m pushing him away… I just want to go.
Well. I’m afraid I’m going to lose a friend to suicide, no matter how hard I tried to make him see otherwise. It’s ultimately his choice. And I’m not gonna force him to change. But the more I think about why I’m still here myself, is I just don’t have the damn luxury to commit suicide like some of the lucky people do. I just don’t have the luxury. I have too many people to take care of. And if I didn’t have one scrap of love for them, then I’d say fuck off and then hang myself like I always think about. But I […]
Hi everyone! Soo for starters, I’m not really sad or depressed, tho i’ve struggled with that a lot in the past. I’m not mentally ill or delusional, at least i don’t think lol? I’m 19, considered really pretty, i have friends, plenty if guys to date, and a wonderful amazing family i love to bits.
But I really want to die. My reasons are complicated and really personal and paaartially to with unchangeable stuff in my life but basically i’m just…done. I don’t think there’s much more i can gain from living this life anymore and i figure whatever comes next even if its complete oblivion […]
Since Labor Day weekend, I’ve been walking a track circle; on one end is glorious hope and love, on the other is despair, hopelessness, heartbreak. I’ve been researching suicide methods over the weeks, not often, but when I slide down the rabbit hole. Today I began a more in depth search into methods; I have several on my mind. Thinking I will commit to a plan once Thanksgiving is over. Always, once this, once that….I’m so tired. I wish I could just end it once and for all. Life is too overwhelming, too heartbreaking, too tiring. Hope is tiring.
i have researched for numerous ways to commit, today i begin my journey to end this pain through self starvation. Ill post periodically to inform about the process. its been a long fight, and the fight to live is finally over.
Once upon a time, not too long ago. I reconnected with an old friend. With whom I have not spoken to in at least 5-7 years. Come to find out his wife, a woman that I loved and cared for. Had passed. About a year ago. We talked about his grief. Pain. Suffering. His addiction to drugs. We talked about mine. We got really close because of our late night discussions. It was raw. It was real. I let someone in. And then they commit suicide. Did it to me. Before I could do it to you. I don’t blame him for what he did. […]
Along with the overwhelming fear of failing an attempt (again), I have always been afraid of succeeding and finding some place worse than life on this Earth. Do people who commit suicide go to some type of “Hell”? Is there a Hell? Is there an afterlife? Will I be welcome to it if I force myself into it? Or is death like a dreamless sleep from which one never awakes? This notion terrifies me but is comforting at the same time. There may be nothing there at all which includes no depression, no anxiety, no more fear of death, no more hardships from life; there may just […]
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