The tip of the blade touches my skin
My body shrieks for me to stop
But with my heart aching so
My mind tells me to carry on
I push the blade hard against my frail skin
The tears fall delicately like the melancholy of rain droplets
Yet as I pull the stainless steel up my arm
My emotions are gone, I just feel numb
I ardour watching as my skin torn asunder
Almost […]
I feel empty inside
There’s a void I cannot fill
I drink the emptiness away
I smoke the emptiness away
I roll to take the emptiness away
Though these temporary solutions
Hold no effect once I be sober
I miss the touch of a gentle human hand
I miss the warmth of another’s embrace
I miss the smile that follows the sweet words spoken
I miss being loved by another
I curl up and hold myself tight at night
My pillow squished in my comforting embrace
I close my eyes and dream of a paradise
One where a man adores me for me
Holds me and tells […]
Zopiclone is squirting into my brain. If they find a way to make the taste you find in your mouth at this point less horrible, it would be much appreciated.
My mind is starting to melt like candles, bright glittering, forming pools of liquid, yet a solid.
I was told these can make some people hallucinate if you try to resist the urge to sleep, but it didn’t work for me.
I didn’t mean to make this post so long, but typing the last few paragraphs has been incredibly hard and and glittering sparking birds fly through the sky, they feed off the weak. They […]
Yesterday my mom, brother, aunt, and I had a barbeque. I was washing a pan that my mom was going to put food on and asked my brother to hold some of the dishes because there was no space on the counter. He then asked me if I could do anything right. I told him to finish washing the pan (my aunt watched this and got mad at ME) and stormed outside to sit next to the barbeque. I told my mom about it and she pretended like nothing happened. I told my mom that smoke got in my eyes to cover my tears. I’m […]
I was wearing a Houston Texans wirstband to cover my ex’s name.My cousins are coming over so now I’m wearing the wristband on my arm to cover the cuts.The other day I kinda went all out cutting so I’m glad this wristband Is big cause the area where I cut Is pretty big.No lie It feels good.
Red against white, who will win?
Silver metal, my deadly sin, some days I don’t wanna win.
Feeling high, feeling numb, lost again in this-
Eternal bliss.
But the scars that cover my wrist are so damn hard to over come.
Hearing the words they say, seeing the looks they give
Telling myself I’m not good enough.
I’m worthless, that I’m not allowed to breath-
Don’t say I’m not, don’t tell me I’ll be fine.
I don’t wanna see the light, at least not for tonight.
I wanna be dreaming of a lost happiness
Of someone loving this crazy broken person
Of not being shattered
What would you do to change your life?
What would you sacrifice?
A brother, a lover, a friend, or a mother?
What would you give to save your life?
What would you change to save your life?
What would you say at the end of time?
Another, no other, to cover or reveal?
This was to change my life.
I’m looking out on the sea
The sea of destiny
And wherever the wind takes me
I’ll be dancing free
So now I’m done
My life goes on
Will it be the same?
Will I miss you?
And is this true?
Can my life change?
Why does everyone have to dress like hookers when it starts to get hot outside? Seriously, do they feel it is mating time and they need to attract sexual partners for breeding? And then when someone not as optically attractive as they are wears the same kind of clothes they are criticized and laughed at for doing the exact same thing. Anyways, there are enough fine pieces of clothing which aren’t too warm to wear and which cover more than just the reproduction organs.
And imagine a guy wearing the same clothes, or even worse a NERD wearing those clothes: I don’t want to think about […]
There are no more chapters in this life. No more pages in this book. Just the back cover, which is as hard as a rock.
It’s time to go.
She’s 13
and can already
tell you everything about
self destruction.
She can tell you how
to dress fresh cuts
in the dark with
makeshift bandages.
And which foods are easy
to throw up.
She knows a thousand
excuses,”I already ate”
“I’m just cold” , “the cat did it”
She learned to hold
all her feelings inside
until late at night
and cover her mouth
with her hand
so no one hears her.
She […]
My best friend is having a birthday party in a couple weeks but it’s at a water park. My thighs have pink raised scars and there is no hiding those in a bikini. I’m going to try different ways to cover them up and if that doesn’t work I guess will be “sick” that weekend. I would feel really shitty about doing that though. I never thought I would live long enough to have this problem. It’s not like I want to put a damper on everyone’s day by explaining my scars. I hate getting attention. Surprise everyone I’ve found a religion that requires me […]
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