every day I sit in my room and I cry and I cry and I cry and I cry and I cry cry cry
this is never going to end
ill never be okay
I feel so pathetic. My life hasn’t even been that bad. I’ve never been physically abused by anyone. Both my parents are alive, and my family isn’t poor…
So why do I feel so depressed… So empty? I feel so tired, but I’m only 13. Why?
Maybe it’s because I have to put on a mask whenever someone is around, after all it’s been that way since I was 9… I think I’m even starting to trick myself with my own mask.
I feel like an actor in a play I never auditioned for… My script is prewritten and made to deceive, my mask to convince. I can’t […]
I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]
For sometime I believed suicide was wrong and that what they say is true its only for a spell. But I doubt that now, I have watched several videos were people committed suicide and I felt their pain and cried. I guess for so long I thought I was alone and I said nothing but I see we all cry and no one says anything. I think just as we make our path we can decided to leave. No one wants to be alone and hurt, everyone wants to be hugged and loved, but I guess God or whom ever is up their only gave […]
When you’re feeling low.
Aint got someplace to go.
Never despair,
Just sit in a chair.
Try not to cry,
You don’t want to die.
LIve one more day,
Look for a way.
If it’s lonely you are,
Love might not be far.
Just try and live,
You have something to give.
Love will find you,
Whatever you do.
Never give up,
Never lose hope.
Just find a way,
A way to cope.
“Final”
Though; even you, cannot fathom my eternal
Why we were connected, I suppose we both already know
But now; this time, I became the chained child
That is all I will ever be, please
Just let me cry
The collapse is now, time was our only best enemy of all
Divine intervention, my final, you are it
Take me to go fly at lighting sent, into a butterfly
There is only you in the entire world left
Anymore does nothing matter
And I cried while the first two stanzas
No longer a man from ever now, but only a true beast
Like Yuna and Kimahri, can you walk with me to the light
I will always walk, we met our fated-ultimate
And indeed, the earth trembles […]
I hurt all over. Im not sure why.but god its a shitty feeling and it just makes my head hurt more and that just intensifies the physical pain its like an endless loop of growing pain. And i just can’t sleep which makes it worse.
Idk everything about todays been overwhelming. It just makes me want to curl up and cry. That’s it really. Not much more to say than that.
Today as usual I woke up with anxiety barely letting me breathe, wanting to cry and going crazy in my head! I’ve been thinking for days now about overdosing but I’m such a stupid coward and I’m so scared of what comes after… I like to think in my head that once I kill myself I’ll go and be happy with my three babies, I’m 20 and yes, I’ve had 3 miscarriages, and I feel like that’s the biggest reason why I feel so depressed all the time, I miss them! I didn’t ever get to feed them, or hear them cry, they never got […]
i really feel like shit. i cry all the time when i’m alone. i wanna cut, but i’m trying to stop for my friends and bf. i find it hard to trust people, bc all of them who have been broken promissis. i’m trying this, bc maybe it helps idk. but i have to do at least one thing to try to stop.
thx for let me share Xx
This is one of those nights where I feel like ish won’t go right…. I tried to keep telling myself things could be worse. But in reality … If it got any worse I just wouldn’t be able to make it…. Tonight I just wanna cry… But the tears don’t mean anything… Because no one cares… I don’t even care anymore… #FML
Four guys sit around me in 1st period Geometry. One of them is a really good friend of mine. We were just joking around and I just asked, “Are you gay?” as a joke, cause he’s one of the straightest people I know. He’s always pulling practical jokes on me, so I never know when he’s lying or not. He said, “Yeah I am! You didn’t know that!” I have a crush on him, so obviously my reaction wasn’t the best, so he made fun of me by asking the guys around us. They all agreed with him and bashed on me for not knowing. […]
“She’s so lucky, she’s a star
but she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart thinking:
if there’s nothing missing in my life
then why do these tears come at night?”
I’m so sad all the time… all I want to do is cry, it’s gotten so bad that I can’t control the tears anymore..
What’s wrong with me??? I need help.. but how? I tried telling my mom Im depressed.. but I couldn’t.. because she’ll ignore it and tell me to power through my phase.. I guess that’s what they should end off with at my funeral; she powered through
I had a relatively good upbringing. Compared to what some other people on this site have had to go through, I have had an easy life. I have a loving wife and loving children. My children are what keeps me here.
But I hate that I exist. I have never hated anyone enough to murder them. Except for myself. I have constant fantasies of different ways to destroy my body. Those fantasies bring me peace.
I was halfway to a big city last night where I was going to jump from the top of a tall parking garage. A sign over the freeway told me that there […]
hanging is supposed to be a sure fire method, I was putting all the pressure on my carotid and jugular veins, and nothing. sat like that for a half hour and nothing. nobody cares about me in real life. my family only speaks to me if I speak to them first. the one I love, who is truly the only person that’s Ever made me happy, won’t come home and let me help him. I wish I had someone who cared about me half as much as I care about him. but no, he ‘belongs’ in Kentucky, where he ‘doesn’t fit in’ and we both […]
I had a good friend commit suicide 5 years ago. I love and miss you Amber. I know you have found peace.
my mind is racing with all kinds of negative thoughts. therapy is getting hard and heavy. been feeling physically sick with the stress. i am in a very fragile state. been stirring up the shit in therapy and something big is lurking just below the surface. i don’t know what it is but i can cry at the drop of the hat. i am supposed to be trying hypnosis but at the moment it terrifies me. i am scared . something momentous is going to happen and no one outside of therapy knows it. i am withdrawing from family/friends because i just don’t want to […]
Tonight has an especially numb feeling. I can’t even cry anymore;I just want this world to end. I feel it should be optional to take your own life if you have no desire to fulfill it. The only question is… How?
Well, I just bought two 8.9 cu3 party time tanks, tubing and some old O2 lines. I intend to put it all together tonight and give it a try. I believe that I can make it work. I have no one to say good bye too. If anyone out there wouldn’t mind I sure would like to say goodbye to someone. God I am so depressed about this. Itht really is harder then you would think. Going that last bit seems much harder then I anticipated. I am going to do it though, even if I have to cry myself through it. Well, thanks for letting me wine a […]
I didn’t mean to seem so coldhearted. I actually love every one of you as you love me. It makes me cry to realize that I’m so mean to you guys. Please forgive me! Oh, and please don’t ban me. :3