We all have those moments where we just want to die. This was a feeling that I had that was stronger than ever. Since I was a little girl, I was fat and I have been called fat. I’m not gonna lie…it hurt badly. It made me feel terrible. Those beautiful girls out there were skinny, so where does that leave me? I cried and cried myself to sleep sometimes because I was ugly and fat. As I got older, it was worst. You were judged all the time, whether if it was how pretty you were, what was your weight, or the clothes you […]
Well, i was diagnosed with endogenous depression a couple months ago and i haven’t really been getting any better. Lately I’ve been struggling to eat; I feel like i’m going to puke at the thought of food, and having to force myself to eat makes me cry. I can’t handle more than a couple spoonfuls of food before I feel sick, and I just can’t understand why. Has anyone else ever gone through this?
I’m scared. I’m scared of myself. I’m scared that I won’t, can’t feel. See, since the day I was born I have had this steadily growing indifference to life. For the past year I’ve been getting this feeling that everything is meaningless, pointless and that terrifies me. I just want to know that if someone I love dies I can feel the pain in losing them, actually be able to cry, somehow force myself to care. I don’t know how I move day to day with this feeling so ingrained in my soul that at some point I’ll feel nothing, not even the fear of […]
hi, first post. Suicide’s been in the news for the first time in a while, it seems..
I’ve been thinking about suicide and how the idea that it is bad, conflicts with several messages society sends. the idea that it is acceptable conflicts with other societal messages, and the idea it’s good obviously conflicts with many messages.
but just sort of thinking about life, society, humanity as a whole…. for anyone who tends to think logically on a macro (to the point where it’s difficult to form emotional attachments to real people in your close surroundings), why do people send out black-and-white messages to people? Whether it’s […]
I’m scared. Everything in my life is spiraling out of control.
I’m a failure. My family and friends are trying to support me, but all I can feel is their pity. And I hate it. I hate it so much. I just want to get away from everyone, and away from reality. I want to get drunk. Like so drunk that I don’t even know what’s happening, and just stay that way. And not have any worries.
I want to scream, and cry, and fucking hit something. I feel so angry and mad and.. I just don’t think I’m cut out for life. I paint a smile […]
It’s okay to be positive sometimes. It’s okay to feel hurt. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to laugh even when you’re supposed to feel sad.
Continuously reproaching oneself, does not make things better. Sometimes a day, just a day burnt out helps. When your mind is so full that nothing else, especially not your own conscience will be able to squeeze in. I believe this is the key.
Happiness will come, when all of your worries, doubts, selfhatred and loath dissipates away. But who am I to proclaim philosophically that I’ve found an alternative to my own depression? Time may heal. This is just a little […]
Sit on the sand,
No other hand.
Sit there alone,
Heart cold as stone.
Sit there at night,
Have no more fight.
Sit there and think,
Sit on the brink.
Sit there and hear,
The ocean real clear.
Sit there under the moon,
Time to go soon.
Ocean is rough,
Life is too tough.
Sit there, ready to jump in.
Sit there now,
Death it will win.
Stars in the sky,
Don’t want to cry.
Just make it real fast,
So the suffering won’t last.
I always considered Robin Williams an “original” comedian. Simply meaning he was one of the comedians I saw mostly in the movies I watched growing up. (Jim Carrey, Ben Stiller, Adam Sandler, etc.) I always admired these men and have actually hoped to meet them.
I remember being so depressed, and so lost in my life, mind, body, and soul. I had been thinking of death.. actually HOPING for death. I would imagine things and imagine the peace I would probably feel. Around this time I watched What Dreams May Come, and it gave me a better understanding of suicide (even if it is a fictional story) and surprisingly […]
“oh dear babe what am i going to do with you dont cry ok im here”
this was after my last time i tryed to leve i could feel her there huging me from 1000 miles away
one day ill slip away no one will know were i am
one day ill fly away till my wings melt in the sun
one day ill bleed out in a shower no one will find me.
one day one more fucking day on this earth ill go insaine
im going to screem at the stars till thay fall on my head
ill sware at the sun till it berns me red
ill get in evrye fight till im beten to a pulp
ill cry evrey nigh till i can cry no more
ill cut my arms till you cant see the skin
ill slice my chest with a razor so thin
ill dice my legs up […]
Armitage
Tonight I became
The eternal
Morlock
My tale
Fated
As if
Written
I went
Bitten
Never
Coming
My wings
One day
I will cry
Again
Archangel
Michael
Has come
For me
I hope
We shall fare
Our escape
Pray to well
The undead
The journey
Is to the
The afterlife
If you can cry
You are alive
Only crystal
Will farewell
Until the next
Thousand year
I will see you
Again
Ten is freedom
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=An9j2MPN24Q
Last year I suffered from depression. It wasn’t all typical teenage problems. Sure I was having friendship problems but it was mostly at home. At home I felt neglected and unwanted. Whenever I would cry my family would just call me a baby and laugh at me
I was already having suicidal thoughts, but there was only one time that I planned to go through with it. This one night my whole family was out at dinner together when I started crying. I wasn’t like sobbing or anything just silent streaks. But to my aunt it was like I was a hysterical mess. She yelled at […]
Sunrise a new day,
Night came and left,
Today’s the same way.
Nothing new,
It’s just like before.
Still want to die,
Everyday feel it more.
As each day goes by,
It becomes clearer to see.
Few give a fuck,
Who’s there for me?
Many good words,
People they say.
You have reason to live,
You have reason to stay.
But what they don’t know,
Is what they can’t see.
Until the day comes,
Maybe then cry over me.
This is all my words. Here it goes hope you enjoy…
I’m drowning in the darkness of my bloody lost soul
freezing and falling through this endless black hole
I can feel it all my blood is raining and the knife is sawing
but none of this will help the frostbite in my mind start thawing
I feel forzen isolated broken and alone as my depression leaks from parts unknown
Maybe from my slit wrists deep down to the bone
cuts and scars on my body never to be shown
So insecure and emotional it makes me cry
To the point where I lay in bed and pray […]
Hello, my name is Chelsea.. I’m 12. My whole life I have been told I have a gift. That i was special and smart and the total opposite of average. It doesn’t matter anymore, i havent made an impact yet and other kids younger than me already have. Everything hs gone downhill since my parents divorced when I was 3. I’ve lived with my mom in a cheap apartment until a drunk driver + an 18-wheeler totaled our car in an accident. I turned 10, My mom quit her job to care for me, since she couldn’t drive to her job. We finally moved into […]
Drowning in the sea of my tears
I can’t see anything clear
I can only feel (oh, how I feel)
This huge pain inside me
And before the water covers me all
My heart will make a last effort and cry:
“Please, someone help me!
Don’t let me drown in my tears
Take me somewhere without fear
Where I can finally find
A happiness without any pain”
But no one heard the cry
So I let my breath out and die
Okay. I am really starting to get sick and tired of all the people who judge other people in this world. Why do you have to judge? It isn’t you is it? Nobody seems to care now adays. All I do is sit in my room and cry and feel like I am dying I the inside honestly. I never talk in school. I am scared to because of what people will say or judge me about then. I have to wear long sleeves all the time, or a bunch of bracelets. One or te other. That isn’t good is it? That’s what this world […]
i feel nothing i laugh and cry druing the day then i come to this were i feel nothing did the day meen anything i whant to cry and evrey tiem i get cloce to the tears i yern for thay stop i whant to feel the blood run down my arm agine i whant to feel sick as i look at it agine i whant her as i wrote that the tears have come i whant her llike it was i felt the change when she got bad it felt like a punch in the belly
i havent thought this in a long time because im […]
i just howled like a man on fire at the moon… it hurts so much not being abel to talk to her some times and haveing a depreshoin spike now is really not helping i cant even tell her i dont whant to it could hurt her ni just whant to crawl back in to the hole i came from and sleep for ever escape iv got to stay on my feet i whant to yell agine its like a fire i whant to run about the wood yelling and screeming my frustrashion at the world she will understand my paine the woods are her voce and […]
I want to cry, I keep going from feeling pain and hurt to feeling numb. I get really annoyed with certain people and I don’t know why, just them txting me will just annoy me. It sucks all of it the whole concept of life, of living. No matter how hard I try to care to want things for myself I can’t. I’m working and going to school and putting in all my time and efforts to being the best I can be, but at the end of the day I don’t care it doesn’t mean anything to me. My life is empty and I […]