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Does it get better?

by lulereign 6/23/2015

written by lulereign

I’m a med student.

I’ve recently started cutting – just yesterday in fact – and it hurts. I’d gone and bought carpet blades and tested it, but the feeling when the blade cuts across kinda makes me cringe. But the aftermath – the little pinprick of pain that follows, is amazing. It’s constantly there, and I can FEEL it.

Does it get better? I want to feel that pain, but the starting part just kinda puts me off. It’s he constant pain that makes it so worth it. I’d woken up this morning and added three more cuts, but like I said, the starting part isn’t that pleasant.

I’d […]

6/23/2015 2 comments

So how is life working out?

by forgetthelies 6/5/2015

written by forgetthelies

Mine is terrible I have this amazing guy who is my bestfriend from preschool. I had to protect him because he had sex once intoxicated so my ex wouldn’t throw him to jail. Cause all he wanted is to be a dick to me because he has nothing better to do in his life. But the best thing about my bestfriend is that he is trying to help me lose weight cause I didn’t like it and he is also very caring about my cutting, I’ve cut my legs so bad that I have a infection in one of the deepest cuts and I have […]

6/5/2015 0 comment

Be My Escape

by Sammi6xoxo 5/28/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

I need to leave
But I’m scared to go
I need to breathe
But they’ll never know
I can’t get out
It’s starting to show
I’m screaming loud
My fuse has blown

Help me please
I need you now
I’m on my knees
I swear I’ll drown
Please don’t leave
Just pull me out
I need to leave
I have no doubt

Please Be my escape
Then you can leave
Be My gate
To a place of strength
I need a step up
Out of this place
Heal the cuts
That cover my face

5/28/2015 18 comments

You Are Important

by lovethebrokenone_ 5/6/2015

written by lovethebrokenone_

My name is Aria. Throughout elementary school, I had a fairly normal childhood. The school bully threw basketballs at my head, called me a teachers pet, and it didn’t really bother me. However, though it shouldn’t have, what bothered me, even when I was in 5th grade, was what my “friends” thought. They used to laugh at me when I didn’t know all the popular songs, didn’t have the newest wii games, couldn’t name the movie they were quoting, and didn’t do my hair the same way they did. I was different, and I didn’t like it.
In 8th grade, the stakes got higher. Though […]

5/6/2015 1 comment

Lost

by Sammie 5/5/2015

written by Sammie

I like to consider myself recovered. However sometimes I still have the thought of suicide enter my brain. It catches me off guard. Sometimes I want to act on it. I don’t exactly want to die. I have a lot I will be leaving behind. I am so tempted to cut though. I crave it actually. I can’t because I’ll get caught by my boyfriend. He will see the cuts and I can’t stop him from seeing them. I want to cut and I hate that I do. I don’t want to get locked up again. Sometime I wonder if I do this all for […]

5/5/2015 1 comment

My Brother

by Astley 5/3/2015

written by Astley

Hi, it’s Astley. So on friday, I walked into parents room and my dad says “You’re wearing long sleeves” and gave me a look. I sat down on the bed and my three year old brother leans over and said “Let me see” I pulled up the sleeve with my cuts on it and he looked at me and said “Now the right side” so I showed him (no cuts on the right side) and he said “good job” then went back to teen titans…

5/3/2015 5 comments

Confused

by Adra 4/26/2015

written by Adra

I’ve been suffering from the disease of depression for a while- my brother had it, my mom had it, and now I have it. More than once have I contemplated my suicide- I’m worthless, unattractive, stupid, mean, unloved, and pathetic. However, I have tried and tried and tried to look for ways to do it and I always come up without an answer. Clearly for me, the best way to go is consumption of pills- there are plenty of those in my house. However, I have heard of liver failures and such, and I’m so afraid that dying will be painful. I don’t want to […]

4/26/2015 2 comments

What the hell

by nosound 4/12/2015

written by nosound

I was doing so well. I was happy, my family was happy with me. I was helpful instead of a burden. I was trying so hard to please myself and everyone around me. My mom took my sister on a trip I was dying to go on. She had refused to take me on it the year before, but agreed it would be worthwhile for my sister. I was upset, and a little bitter at first. But I decided to get over it and just be happy and help out around the house over spring break while they were gone. My dad works all day, […]

4/12/2015 2 comments

Kill Me Before I kill Myself

by CutOnMe 3/25/2015

written by CutOnMe

I find it odd that I’m unhappy with my life and that I feal useless. I have a place to live, a family l, and a girlfriend that I love. Why do I feal like this? I just doesn’t match up maybe its just the pills talking or the razor….not like I would know. I cant take it much longer…. My girlfriend shes messed up like me she has a special friend made of metal and so do I. We got into this argument yesterday about it I pulled out mine a told her if she continues to call herself things that arnt her ill […]

3/25/2015 2 comments

In the end the heart gives out

by dwink 3/25/2015

written by dwink

Mama said to hold on to the most basic emotion, love

Love, failed me over and over as I bled from all the cuts,

Cuts, done by unseen sharps as she again let me down,

Down, further in hole than the last one,

I can not be undone, but I am broken,

And none see those hopeless moments

They see the iron-will in me and its all false

In the end it shows, they see as I rot

Can’t hold on for long, I tried

Play the song “When I’m gone” when I’m gone

3/25/2015 5 comments

Newbie here.

by Sammiekat 3/20/2015

written by Sammiekat

I’m 14, and I like to write, and dye my hair. Then there’s play video games, watch movies, chat online with my.. friends. I like lots of things. Then there’s my blades, the only thing I seem to look forward to; my birthday is in 9 days, and all I can think about is concealing my cuts; just like Christmas, Halloween, Easter, Summer break.. It’s all the same day in and day out.

“Can they see them?”

I’m terrified, I really am, having to hide things from my family, it eats at you. It’s a good thing I left school.. Right? I mean, no teachers, no homework, no […]

3/20/2015 5 comments

Her Last Words from Courtney Parker

by FreakOfNature 3/3/2015

written by FreakOfNature

Just an average girl,

She always wore a smile

She was cheerful and happy for a short while.

Now she’s older, things are getting colder

Life’s not what she thought,

she wished someone had told her.

She told you she was down

And you let it slip by

So from then on she kept it on the inside

She told herself she was alright

But she was telling white lies

Can’t you tell, look at her dull eyes

Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night

But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright

Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves

‘Cause those cuts on her wrist were bleeding through you see

She knew she was […]

3/3/2015 2 comments

the example

by flurdelis13 3/2/2015

written by flurdelis13

at my school people go around and tell each other go kill yourself, go cut yourself, your not good enough, they call them names depending on the race they are, all of this as a joke. a fucking joke! i mean seriously how will they feel if suddenly one day someone took that seriusly and killed them self or how would they feel if one day i walked around the school in shorts and had my legs covered in cuts? huh? honestly i feel like i need to make this example and if it were me i would do the suicide. now i may not […]

3/2/2015 1 comment

Living a curse

by Shigari 2/4/2015

written by Shigari

I went on a trip last week. It was really fun-the sites, the trains, the plane, the hikes and so much more were all unique experiences. I guess it was a taste of freedom. Yet as always, when I returned, my life was still here. I got my exam results which were published during the trip. All the hard work, all the pain, all the anguish.. Meant nothing. I am nothing. I thought that really focusing and working hard would help me… But it didn’t work!!

It let me taste heaven if just for an instant before plunging me back to hell. This […]

2/4/2015 2 comments

I need help

by dgjb 1/29/2015

written by dgjb

About a year ago I got high and bullied a friend. I hurt her so bad that she attempted suicide then I felt really bad and have been depressed/suicidal ever since. I have moments in school where just like whatever and go into the bathroom and cut myself. It also doesn’t help when someone sees the cuts and tells people. I felt as if I dug a 100 foot hole I can’t get out of. My life is done. It won’t get better.

Edit: I forgot to say I’m also bullied and have been since 4th grade (currently in 8th) and its hard to deal with […]

1/29/2015 3 comments

abnormality

by schema 12/19/2014

written by schema

today was a very odd day for me, one of those “subdued excitements” that I don’t recognize and stop before it comes to bite me in the ass. Excitement just leads to catastrophic levels of disappointment for me. I get my hopes up because my mind comes up with these amazing–and yet, impossible–scenarios about what will happen. And they never happen, even the worst of the best! It’s always just flat-out bad shit that happens. Today was primed to go spectacularly in my mind, even though if it had occurred the way it was planned it still probably would have been shitty. But no! It […]

12/19/2014 1 comment

Unsupported.

by TheSuicideBlonde 12/14/2014

written by TheSuicideBlonde

To all of you who complained about the picture on my previous post.

IT IS NOT ATTENTION SEEKING.

It’s a way of showing people in what kind of trouble you’re really in. I wanted people to see that these are not just small cuts ob the wrist. These are literally wholes all over my body.

And let me clear some things for the people saying the picture is downloaded…

The pictures of self harm you find on the Internet are all real. Thise were all posted by people who do those things to themselves. So even if you did download a picture from the internet, you […]

12/14/2014 9 comments

21st birthday

by lake-of-fire 12/1/2014

written by lake-of-fire

In a couple days I will turn 21 and when I do I’ll have fresh cuts on my body. I can’t help but look back on the long list of failures In my life. Yesterday at a fast food place strangers at the table next to me were laughing at me and I heard them say “he looks like the hunch back of Notre dam” and I cut myself a lot over that. On my birthday I have to see and know there are dozens of fresh cuts and old scars.

There isn’t enough time in the world to go into depth of how much I […]

12/1/2014 2 comments

It’s too late.

by Cjohnson33 11/24/2014

written by Cjohnson33

This will be my third story on here. And probably my last. I’m done. I typed up my note on my computer and I have my pills with some water. I am going to do it tonight or tomorrow night. I’m sorry if you tried to help me. It’s almost funny. I walk down my hallway and see pictures of me when I was younger. You wouldn’t even imagine I would become this. This monster that cuts himself and cries everyday just because he is different. Someone who can only find closure in death. I really wish it didn’t have to be this way. I just can’t see a […]

11/24/2014 7 comments

I have no idea what to do… I’m scared

by Starr_Crys 11/23/2014

written by Starr_Crys

So… My grandmother(current guardian) took me shopping today. Nothing out of the ordinary for a Sunday. We started arguing, also very typical. She said the friend I’ve just recently started hanging out with, Sarah, would leave me when she found out I cut and I’ve been hospitalized for it. I let her know that her and her parents both know. I’ve had in-depth conversations with her mom about it, because she’s been hospitalized as well, for depression. But then my grandma said that everyone that I hang around cuts themselves, and that I’m the reason they do it. As she was going into the dollar […]

11/23/2014 7 comments

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