Everyone makes painful, frustrating, aggravating experiences. But the question is – are there also some wonderful experiences to look forward to, that make it worth to put up with the bad ones? You can’t define the value of either experiences by logic (neither positive, nor negative). Perhaps, it’s even not possible to describe them in such a way, that people, who didn’t experience them, truly understand them. I believe, the most powerful positive experiences are built upon the feeling of affinity, belonging to this world. It’s […]
Decay
Like I never thought I’d be the one to be suicidal but I can’t stand my reality and the thoughts I have. It’s really really agonizing and frustrating. Like I think of things that shouldn’t even matter. Like why am I human and why do I have to be human and see other humans all the time. Like humans are stupid and weird. I like weird but its unexplainable. I just feel very very repulsed as a human. I can’t stand it, makes me wanna kill myself everyday but I don’t cause I gotta live for my family and boyfriend. I also can’t […]
I just want to share a story, my story, for anyone that might care to read it. Â It will probably be the only thing I post on this website. Â You’ll never know who I am and I will never know who you are, but perhaps we’ll meet someday, get drunk together, and you’ll tell your story and mention a story you read on this stupid website and I’ll say “hey, that was me! Â I wrote that!”. Â And we’ll laugh about it and go build a bonfire in the woods and howl at the moon, or something. Â That’s the kinda thing I like to do, anyway, […]
The injection of religion
Has a comalike effect
And the bodies
They lie in decay
Dreaming of greener days
http://youtu.be/SpZskQIEMHU
Open eyes reading nothing
A sky harsh blue grins black
A sky harsh blue grins black
Grinding binding taking away
Needles above the prey
Wreath of barbs
I’m dead. I don’t seem dead, I can breathe and taste food and smell flowers, and I don’t look dead but I AM DEAD. My mind has turned into decay, bit by bit it’s crumbling to dust. A lunatic lives inside here, a scavenger that feeds upon my decaying soul.
I look in the mirror and I don’t see my silhouette anymore, all I see is this thing that’s consuming me and my shadow behind it like a forgotten whisper of who I was once upon a time. I’ve shredded everything that has made me once me, my faith and my imagination are gone and […]
so i cut agen
so the blood spild
so sorry for the red stanes on the bed
so sorry for brane for the lack of the red stuff the you live on
so sorry for the day
for all the decay
for all the pane
i whant it to stop but it whont
ther seems to be a lump in my trote
iv given in on the doctors notes
for the weekly perscripshion
for the stuff i live on
and the illegul dope
so sorry bout me geting bulled
so sorry for the harasmant and pane
im SORRY! for the wong ansers
im SORRY! for my mined is els were
IM SORRY FOR I CAN NOT LAUGH ANEY MORE NOT EVEN ON LIFES […]
You want to die
before knowing the deepness of cry
you want to die
before diving inside the colossal lie
you want to die
before speaking personally with Satan?
you want to die
before drinking wine til decay
or doing sex til bye
you want to die
before cracking some noses
of the people that laugh of you
you want to die
before knowing the deepness of the dark arts?
before summoning spirits and devils?
before doing some craziness that prove the holiness
of your body?
Jesus is just another ************!
But in the dark arts I have found deep truths.
That the reality does not exists.
And that if life is a illusion, the illusion that life is a illusion is another illusion.
Tupac – Wonder Why They Call You *****
Inspired by the above:
Drowning in alcohol,
A man of no lord, no regard for toll,
No reason to live, a jilted soul,
She’s condemned him to a liquor prison,
To this poison of ethanol.
Drinking spirits,
Desperate to fill the void of an abyss within,
Sitting in the darkness of a cornered booth,
Why doesn’t he ever walk away,
Escape from the this cage of musk and sin?
I am all alone in this mysterious world.I know almost nothing about my life,myself or the world around me.I’m really lost in the darkness of my great ignorance.I don’t know much about myself either.I can’t understand the workings of my own mind.It seems as though I am myself part of the mystery of existence and life.I am so helpless and lonely.The god of this enigmatic universe manipulates and controls all aspects of my life.He controls the innermost parts of my mind.I’m like a toy in his powerful hands.And death is getting closer and closer to me.My life smells of death.My body is so mortal that […]