Junk fucked grunge and grime and became punk in time followed by this dope laced rhyme is blue lips and rolled back eyes with a rope tied tight you might find the right side of life when every body is done crying at your funeral they go back home and do the same thing as you but they don’t understand the point of view you had and why you choose to tie ropes to rocks and throw those hopes over the beam tied real tight so you could kick the chair from under your feet in the same place under that bridge you used […]
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Depression
I have friends. Well, not many, but I have them. I’m not very popular and the friends I do have are ones that are the kind that stick by you through everything. They help, or try to, but the depression I have goes beyond anybody. I’m not looking for sympathy, for comfort. I’m just looking for someone to understand.
I’m just a sad teenager from Flordia. Literally, if anybody wants to chat with me, to be my friend, please. I’m here.
It’s been about a year since I wanted to kill myself.
It was about last November or December, that I really wanted to do it. My mum and my step dad had finally decided to get a divorce, so my mum and I moved in with my aunt, cousin, and grandpa. I was really happy that the divorce was finally happening. My step dad had a horrible addiction to marijuana, which fed his crippling schizophrenia. They finally divorced because my dad wanted to smoke pot all day, which made it hard for my mom to have a life. Not because of the […]
No longer pregnant so I have my method picked out. It’s a double method because suicide has a 75% failure rate or so. Basically the only way to be successful is overkill. Both have a high failure rate but in combination and how I’m going to carry them out I’m pretty confident in the ability to complete.
I just got to wait until there’s not a doubt in my mind. Doubt will save ya.
I’ve been carrying this illness for years and didn’t utter a word to anyone, not my family, friends, the counselor I had been seeing for 5 years. I recently reached out and tried getting help. I started by telling my older sister, who then told my mum and soon I was seeing a doctor who was meant to direct me to mental health specialists. This was over 2 months ago. The doctors have done nothing. After the years of doing nothing the one time I try get help I get thrown aside. There are many other signs but this is the final one. I give […]
I have dealt with depression for so many years now, going on 5+. I’m only 18 years old. I’ve recently come upon the realization that happiness is entirely an illusion. It’s a false experience that comes from a chemical reaction within us, and this same reaction can be recreated with certain recreational drug use. therefore happiness is actually bullshit, and why should I care about continuing on in this life? Every friend I make, I end up pushing away. Every girl I meet, I end up pushing away. I’m so fucked up at this point I don’t even know if I know who I am […]
m so tired.like seriously tired. I have the worst family,friends,luck,everything. Ive been through physical and emotional abuse from my dad. My dad is one pain in the ass,hes an alcoholic,he yells at everyone,he doesnt respect my mom and me. Etc etc etc the list could go on and on. I hate him i hate seeing him i hate hearing him i hate everything about him and i know some people would scold me for this because no matter what hes my dad but Ive done everything to be patient and understand him but i just fucking cant. I hate how he makes my mom suffer. […]
what are some of your guys’ experience with anti depressants. getting to that low point again the days are so hard to get through. it feels like being around people is making me depressed because Im around so many people but also so alone at the same time. I don’t understand why its so hard for me to talk to the people I want to talk to.
Hello, 9-14-2016
I am submitting a true story about my childhood and attempted suicide at 10 years old with hopes that my experiences may encourage open communication regarding this painful topic for parents, youngsters, and professionals. Please, we must try to prevent children and teens from feeling a need to end their lives. I hope that I may be able to help even one child, teen, or adult from feeling so alone having had such a traumatic childhood, and to help them realize that if they get help they will certainly smile again.?? […]
For me, it is my fault. The rest of the world sucks, yeah, but I put all of this upon myself.
You see, I did something incredibly horrible. I lied. Not a white lie, not a normal lie, not a lie that should be or could be forgiven by anyone. I am not going to tell you the lie, because this is my last safe haven and I don’t want you all to know the exact details of the horror that I committed. Just trust that I am right in my wrongness.
I don’t know how to live with myself. I don’t know what to do with […]
This feeling I hate it the feeling of someone denying the truth bc they believe it’s a lie when it’s not it’s just honestly terrible and I don’t like it bc I wish it could be seen from my side so you could see I mean it I mean it more than ever I know it’s difficult but I just I wish it wasn’t denied bc it sucks so much I just…I just wish you understood that when I say I love you I mean it so much so so so much please understand that.
I don’t know how to say it nicely but I’m done. I am so tired. Tired of living a lie. It’s gotten progressively worse this summer, to the point where it’s 10x worse than it’s ever been since I developed depression several years ago. No one cares about me, I know that. I’m the one to message others, to call them, to love them, not the other way around. I know I’m unloveable. I don’t know why, I have theories, but I know it’s true, it’s been proven many times. I imagine it must be exhausting for others, my “family” and “friends” to pretend to […]
If there’s a god,
and if he’s merciful…
please kill me now.
I can’t stand this anymore.
I don’t need help.
I don’t want help.
I just want to die.
The son of the ocean god drowning in the sea….Something mildly poetic about that, but yes I digress many upon this website wish to die so badly that none can save them that only have depression and have hit a miserable spiral, but I suffer from a mixture of Asperger’s syndrome along with social anxiety disorder….Yes you can see my issue and how screwed I truly am.
I have a aptitude for chemistry and know by which means I wish to die….Hydrogen sulphide obtained through a collection from a condenser so thus the parallel to the god above in that I am a chemist wishing to […]
I am stressing about trying to get employment. I’ve been applying for jobs on and off for 5 years now and gotten literally 3 interviews.
The main reason why I have no idea why I’m stressing is because I have no plan to try and fight through postpartum depression if I have to go through it again.
Basically once I’m not prego I’ll kill myself if it gets bad again. That’s where I’m at.
I don’t have to worry about the Fate of my kids either because well I’ll be dead. Nothing will matter. Not the good or bad.
That’s how death works.
First time posting here.
I’ve been, I guess you could say “actively suicidal” in the past. Perhaps not currently. But, on some level, I’m always thinking about it.
I feel tired. old. most of all, worthless.
I’m not who I set out to be. I was reading someone else’s post on here about how it could take just one big thing to fuck up your life forever. and yeah. but, breaking it down, it’s probably not one thing or one event, but a whole series of things over a whole series of years. or you hit so many setbacks, fallen off the proverbial horse so many times, you […]
Ever since I was a little girl, living was an issue. I’ve wanted to die since I was 8 yrs old. My mother was/is evil and doesn’t have feelings like most people do. Common traits of a Sociopath; she would have a lot of sex with a lot of people just so she could feel something… Or at least I tell myself that’s the reason why. She married my dad while she was still married and had 2 sons with someone else. My dad didn’t know, but her first husband soon found out and divorced her. My dad in turn raised my two older brothers […]
Ive been struggling to find someone to talk to recently as i dont feel im doing the best.
I tried the online counselling but they all need payment details to actually talk to someone professional.
I just want someone who knows what im going through to pay attention and offer advice because i honestly feel so lonely atm.
Id really appreciate a message… For the record im also a really good listener!
Here at the darkest part
is where I must choose to start
a place I want to leave behind
but always blaring in my mind
I cannot run and cannot hide
from the darkness that lies inside
the answers I seek to find
questions I know of not which kind
the greatest acceptance, my chosen despair.
upon this life I do not dare
to call the darkness from which I hide
I sink my head, “in lonely torment…” I cried!
I run from this gathering of host
the face of all, I am afraid of most
this darkness I keep within
hidden beneath this drape […]