i tried to kill myself. more than once actually. i was put in the hospital for 3 weeks. and while i was in there i was happy. i was that happy and excited kid i was before depression took over me. but as soon as i got out everything went back to the way it was before. my mom and dad scream and yell at me all the time, they make me feel worthless, and they make me just want to run away and never look back. My brother lives in a different city and i haven’t talked to him in a long time. me […]
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My Names Jade And This is My Story ……..Well , it all started when I was in 1st grade……yeah , early right? I was being bullied everyday , not like calling me names when they walk by , 12 boys everyday at recess , pushed me on the ground and kicked me and hit me and threw things at me ……i tried telling teachers , and they thought I was faking , my own cousin tried stopping it ….she would grab a teacher , and they didn’t care either , I brought my mom and my mom even saw the boys kick me and beat […]
My birthday is on February 1st, this Friday, and I asked my mom
if we were going to do anything, an innocent question, right?
Her car hasn’t had a renewal sticker since November, which means its illegal for her to drive anywhere.
She and I had lost our jobs before the winter started, meaning we’re becoming dirt poor and can barely afford to keep anything we have.
I have a court trial coming up soon because of a statutory rape charge on my ex-boyfriend
I find myself thinking about hurting myself a lot or simply ending my life, but it would just put my family into more of a […]
I am currently living with my dad and my sister. My mom is in a different city because my mom and dad are divorced. I don’t get to see her much because of school. The school I’m currently enrolled in is really strict and I’ve already gotten written up for things that aren’t my fault. That is not the reason I am writing this. The real reason is because my sister, who is 9 months younger than me, constantly switches back and forth between being my “friend” and hating me. She constantly makes fun of me; especially in front of friends (both mine and hers). […]
I haven’t been on this website much in the last year because I thought I was doing better.
But my father has been talking lately about how I should get engaged.
I am a 19 year old Arab female, and my father wants me to get engaged next summer to a man I do no know so that he can come to America, get settled in, and then marry me when I finish college.
But this is the stupidest bullshit in the history of the universe.
I hate my parents. I was accepted to MIT but my parents wouldn’t let me go because they told me I could not […]
Shut out the darkness with more darkness
Go on, invite Him in
He’ll make you a pretty little carcass
All for your sin.
He won’t feel sorrow
Nor pity, no
He’ll be doin’ the same tomorrow
Just a different city foe.
He’s a very busy man,
Very busy indeed
From this life He’ll ban
You, while he laughs a wordless creed.
So repent your sins little lamb
Or to the slaughter you’ll go
‘Cause he won’t give a damn,
When your tears start to flow.
since i was little, iv been everywere,lived in city after city, putting myself in placements so i could get away from the abuse,even wen noone wanted me,never could fit in,well i started running from treatment facilities and group homes,everytime they put me in a different city, i had the impulse to run,i would run so fast, i felt free, like noone could catch me,most people couldnt,im in my own palce now later on,i still have that adrenalin, i crave it, feeling the rush is like a drug to me,i love big cities and looking at all the tall buildings and everything around me,its like i […]
I went away for 3 days, to visit my sister at her university. It was a nice break from my parents. They’ve never really been the best to me. I had an awesome time, I returned in such good spirits because when I was over there I didn’t have  a care in the world. I was in a different city, a good 4 hours from where I live. I barely texted anyone so it was just a clear-mind vacation (I know it was only 3 days) So that was fun, but as soon as I get home they start being rude. My parents like to […]
So after I made that post, I had trouble actually falling asleep, so I watched an episode or two of Futurama. It`s a pretty good show, I would recommend it. Anyway after I finally eventually got to sleep, I had a pretty fucked up dream. Though people dream every night, I (they) rarely remember my (their) dreams. I guess this was one that stuck out.
The first thing I remember was going into this smaller type of sort of `home` restaurant (I guess..) and asking for a job. This woman (Maybe..) in her 50`s ish told me that there was already a dishwasher and didn`t need […]