I guess I don’t really know why I don’t have any friends, because I’ve told myself the same thing over and over again so that I believe that, instead of what’s probably true. I never tried to figure it out because it would be pointless, as I couldn’t talk to anyone about it. I started posting here simply so that I could finally say what I needed to. I’ve always told myself I don’t want friends. I do. It hurts to admit it, but I do. I used to have friends, but for the past few months, I just stopped. I didn’t want my problems […]
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In 2011, I started praying for a meteor to hit the Earth so that the human race would be erased from universal history.
I’ve since then gotten more angry- for what should probably be obvious reasons. Although I am sure people don’t understand, because most people do not understand honey boo boo plots – they are simply too advanced. hmm where should I begin here?
I was born on September 11th, 1986. Well, maybe I should have taken it as a sign and offed myself on the day I turned 15 or whatever.
Well, I could begin by talking about a father whom I didn’t know because […]
So, I have this doctor’s appointment tomorrow.
I’ll try to explain this briefly:
Initially I made this appointment to try and get adderall/ritalin to be able to focus while studying – cus my concentration is zero, for a long time now.
Then, I realized I need to bring up my sleeping problems, cus it’s getting really bad, I can’t sleep, even with sleeping pills, and as last week I was sleeping 16hours, this week I’m sleeping about 4hours. It’s getting weird.
Now, I’m wondering if I should mention the depression (obviously I won’t talk about the suicidal thoughts). I was doing some research and adderall/ritalin apparently is sometimes used […]
This song was used in the Doctor Who episode Vincent and the Doctor, and as any art lover will know Vincent Van Gogh was famous for suffering from severe depression (he cut one of his own ears off in a manic episode) and committing suicide at the age of only 37 scorned as an artist in his own lifetime…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khvC1M14S1M
First off, I want to say that I understand how people here feel, because I felt that way for years. And I do believe in an individual’s right to take their own life. So I’m not going to tell anyone that it’s bad to feel that way. I’ve noticed that some people here feel that they’ve exhausted their options, so I just wanted to throw a few out there that a lot of people don’t know about. So if you’re someone that would like to live if you could just feel better, think about looking into the things below:
-Hormonal imbalances and blood sugar disorders can […]
I am, aren’t I? I am going mad.
How am I feeling?
Absolutely, positively, maddeningly sad.
I went to the gas station by my house instead of having dinner, and spent the whole time asking myself a never-ending string of what if’s? Â What if all of this is a waste? What if everything is irrational? What if? What if? What if?
When they say “It’s sink or swim”, What if you just get the fuck out of the water?
So in depression is it really sink or swim? Â You can drown in depression, or struggle to swim away… Unless you get the fuck out. Take a […]
Please dont feel sorry for me. I hate that. I’m only 17, I seem young to have gone through as much as I have. My life has gone to ruins. Ive been depressed for almost 4 years now. I’m bipolar adhd horrible anxiety and under weight. I take lots of medicine. But I’m tired of the life I’m living. 14 years ago my mom hung herself in a bathroom. She was addicted to cocaine and 3 men that she was buying from raped her. The doctor who did the exam on her said she wouldnt try to kill herself bqut she did. She did cocaine […]
My life, the world i live in… Â It confuses me so much now.. Â i try and write things down but have trouble explaiing how I feel because there is just so much to say… Â A long time ago i started to feel like i didnt know what i was doing, i didnt know where i was going or what the point was anymore… Â I fell in love with the tv show Doctor Who… Â that kept me going… i obsessed over it… Â I loved it, i created my own world where everything from Doctor Who was real. from that i kept obsessing over things. It […]
Everything I touch I taint. Everything I do I botch. Everyone I know I hurt. I’m in pain almost all the time and because I’m in pain I feel a perverse need to inflict that pain on everyone else; my friends, my family and even my pets. I’m suffering and because of that suffering I have to make everyone I love, value and care for suffer as well. It isn’t fair, it isn’t right but I honestly can’t help it I’ve become the sort of person I despise. I have interests that I take great pleasure in and which help to pass the time; collecting […]
I ran away from my home, in Austin, at 15 to my 16 year-old boyfriend’s house in Dallas. I left behind my family, my friends, and everything I had known in my life on a whim for someone I’d known for a month. He convinced me that my life at home was dangerous because of my dad’s abusive past and I’d be better off with him. To me, he was everything, he was my world. I knew for a fact I couldn’t live without him now that I had him. I was addicted, consumed. I didn’t make it to Dallas, however. A police officer found […]