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Wish I had done it years ago

by imdone123 7/4/2014

written by imdone123

I have been suicidal for over 8 years now. At times it gets better but recently it’s been getting worse. I think about it a lot. The only thing that prevents me from doing it is my son. I don’t want to hurt him but I don’t know how much longer I will be able to keep going for him.

Back story:
I was in the military for almost 10 years when I got divorced. At first it was fun then I started to get lonely, I tried to get my ex wife back but she wanted nothing to do with me unless it dealt with […]

7/4/2014 4 comments

Golden Gate Bridge suicide barrier

by tbd 7/2/2014

written by tbd

Bidding will begin next year. It should be done in 2018, and they estimate it will cost $76 million.

Based on the new span of the SF-Oakland Bay Bridge, a portion of which collapsed after the 1989 Loma Prieta earthquake, I’m betting it will be completed between 2020 and 2025 (depending upon how many times they have to go back for more money when it goes w-a-y over budget).

(Originally, retrofitting the Bay Bridge was estimated at $230M, but then they said it would cost that much to replace it. Of course, a vanilla looking bridge wouldn’t due, so they settled on a […]

7/2/2014 0 comment

I feel it’s Time

by That1guy94 6/30/2014

written by That1guy94

So I feel I have hours maybe even just minutes left to live in my life. I am to the point where days are not even possible anymore. I have given up. My body is done and my mind is done. I can’t live through any of this anymore. I have everything in place and all I have to do is do my first step and then the last step that would finish me off for good. At this point I feel the only thing or person that could stop me is that one girl. Who I thought I could trust and tell everything to, […]

6/30/2014 36 comments

Emotional…

by RealTalk30 6/30/2014

written by RealTalk30

I just wish she could have seen a better side to me.. I wish she could have seen me at my best cuz I don’t think we ever got there. I was always struggling..with money, with addiction, with my own mental confusions.. Always trying to get over some hump that seemed to stem from my troubles. I was always complaining it seemed.. I expected too much. I couldn’t be that cool headed guy I wanted to be.. That she deserved the most.
I just feel like there was something I could have done to keep her around. But I didn’t do it..
The parts of […]

6/30/2014 6 comments

I really think tomorrow is the day

by That1guy94 6/29/2014

written by That1guy94

At this point I have been having thoughts of doing this for a week. I just can’t do it anymore. I haven’t been happy. I am so hurt and won’t ever be happy again. I am as low as a person can ever get and just keep getting hurt and cry all the time cuz nothing gets better. I already have all my goodbyes written and goodbye videos. I have my notes in place and I have no emotions anymore. I know how I am going to do this. And right now, it will be done tomorrow.

6/29/2014 7 comments

sick of life

by deadtragedy 6/29/2014

written by deadtragedy

i am just ready to give up, time to cut and relieve my stress for finally.

Sick of all this stupid shit. Same thing everyday, done with it.

6/29/2014 1 comment

The light has been turned on…

by serenityseeker 6/28/2014

written by serenityseeker

So, it has been a large number of years since the first time I wanted to be dead. Gone. Not here with all of the drama and BS that i have been unable to escape since i was born. However, last night, i was for some reason given the chance to see just one small part of the insanity that has plaqued my friends and family for years. The light has been turned on! They must sit by and watch this “person” that i become, verbally bash them and make them feel like shit.
I always thougt they were lying.
Now with that light turned […]

6/28/2014 2 comments

Helpless & hopeless

by irishgirlgonewrong 6/25/2014

written by irishgirlgonewrong

I don’t know where to start I’m 30 I lost my mam 5 years ago my dad has Alzheimer’s my marriage broke up I was with another guy and he has just abused me so much the last year and a bit he killed the one thing that made me happy my little dog I just feel hopeless and actually cannot take anymore heartache I just want to die I don’t think I will ever have any happiness I am just done

6/25/2014 4 comments

I am not looking to be judged

by brebrook 6/21/2014

written by brebrook

I am quiet because it pushes normal people away and attracts the ones who will understand. I cut because I like the way it feels. I am addicted to the pain. I don’t feel like myself if I can’t see a scar. I am emo. If you ask how I am I will say I’m fine, because you can’t understand. I used to be like you. I’m human, just a strange type. If I could only take off the mask you could see me. But the problem is, I don’t remember what I am without putting on a show. If I were to tell you […]

6/21/2014 0 comment

The First Time

by Raven678 6/18/2014

written by Raven678

Once upon a memory, a nightmare, yet a memory that still haunts me, I traced a horizontal line across my wrist. One, two, three, four times with a sharp object, breaking skin, stinging, causing a mild bleed. Fifth time, force applied, the sharp object went to and through my wrist and out the other side. I screeched in pain, I bit my lip, I sunk my teeth in, my eyes watered. I sat and stared at the damage I had done. That was the first time, more attempts followed…Still I endure…

6/18/2014 2 comments

21 years to this day.

by whitenorth 6/17/2014

written by whitenorth

I sit in my room every night weighing up the pro’s and con’s of ending my life? And most days the pro’s out weigh the con’s, but then I remember what I’d been told.
“suicide is a selfish act”.
Is that so? I can’t get my head around which is more selfish. Taking your own life, or being made to live it?

Yes before it crosses your mind I do cut myself, but I do it in random places not in lines so all it looks like is a few normal scars. I probably do it so keep some sort of sense of control so […]

6/17/2014 4 comments

Fuck this shit.

by iamworthlessapieceofshit 6/17/2014

written by iamworthlessapieceofshit

I’m just so done with this stupid life. I’ve never fit in no matter what. I suck at life and want to die. I have no purpose or meaning in my life. I’m a failure and all I do is suck at life. The only purpose to my life is that of being a fucking loser nobody. I hate myself.

I’m never going to have friends. Nobody likes me. I’m drinking to numb my pain before another suicide attempt.

I’m going to try a variety of things tonight. I don’t belong here in this world and don’t know why I’m even here.

all that I am good at […]

6/17/2014 4 comments

same shit every day

by stay strong 6/16/2014

written by stay strong

we all got suicide stories, some are sad some are really sad, mine just lame is the same ” i hate my parents suicide story” most people mean it when they say they hate their parents some just hate them when they’re mad. i do hate my parents, well, my mom and her husband. her husband makes my life miserable , he is always yelling at me, saying stupid stuff about me and my mom job is defending him, i hate that i hate they treat me like shit, its been like that for almost 8 years im done. I’ve tried taking my life away […]

6/16/2014 16 comments

Going tonight

by almp 6/16/2014

written by almp

I was doing great for about a year. Started seeking PTSD treatments but unfortunately not a lot can be done at this point. So I’m taking my life tonight.

I tried my hardest and had a good run. See you in hell.

Good luck to everyone else on here. Live like I couldn’t.

I’m out. 🙂

6/16/2014 3 comments

…..

by babydontcut 6/16/2014

written by babydontcut

Reading through my suicide note and plan and just mad at myself for not going through with it last time when I was so close… Thinking about all of the times I could have done it and I didnt because im such a coward. If I would have, I wouldnt have to deal with the constant aching in my heart… im not sure how much more I can handle before I blow up

6/16/2014 1 comment

No More; I’m Finished.

by AarinaDaae 6/13/2014

written by AarinaDaae

Usually, I start out my posts in metaphors and similies because that is how my brain works. That is how I think…constantly making connections and drawing lines. This time, I am going to just full out rant and rave because I’m finished.

I’ve screamed for help. I’ve got to counselors and I’ve gone to friends. I get shut out every time. No one believes me when I say that I am so anxious, scared, and depressed that I would find any way to make it stop. Last night, I sliced my arm open ready to let red run. Unfortunately, I didn’t die. My cut let out […]

6/13/2014 3 comments

2 Year Plan

by expirationdate 6/13/2014

written by expirationdate

What a fun site.Â The chance to share the most private of thoughts.

Where to begin…

By all accounts you would think that my life was perfect, or close enough.Â Very successful in my field, well-loved by my community, a fun set of hobbies, not in financial crisis.Â So what’s wrong?

I’ve always suffered from depression.Â Thoughts of suicide.Â My wife has been great at keeping me out of it.Â But over the years, she has grown so very distant.Â I don’t think she is cheating on me; it’s not in her personality.Â But these days she’s a roommate, nothing more.Â Intimacy has dried up to infrequent… and […]

6/13/2014 0 comment

Soon I will be done with the troubles of this world…

by Brokengirl79 6/11/2014

written by Brokengirl79

I’ve always liked that song. My time here on earth is almost up. I have only a few items that remain on my checklist. Throughout this process the only regrets I have is never being in love, never having a child of my own, and not being around to see my nieces and nephews grow up. I’m not afraid of dying. I thought I would be but I realized that fear was based on religious beliefs and on the uncertainty of whether I would be successful in my suicide attempt. I’ve decided not to fret about either what is meant to be will be. I […]

6/11/2014 7 comments

“Uh huh” = Death

by Counting Down the Years 6/11/2014

written by Counting Down the Years

My kid’s bat mitzvah is Saturday. My mother called and asked if I had heard from her sister. My aunt is not well. She had a stroke a few years ago and suffers from chronic depression and rarely leaves the house. So I said, “No. But I didn’t expect to. She’s sick. I don’t take it personally.” My mother’s reply – a very measured, well-rehearsed, deliberately timed,Â “Uh huh.”Â That “uh huh” was not a nod of agreement. On the contrary. It wasÂ the statement of her rage that I didn’tÂ join her in slicing up her sister. It was notification that she doesn’t approve of my perspective — […]

6/11/2014 1 comment

I think I’m done with life

by bloo d y 6/10/2014

written by bloo d y

To all of the ass holes, the miscreants and the filth out there sounding the earth I’m done, I don’t need to be hear anymore. You along with many other things have pushed me to the edge then when I’m grasping on to the cliff for dear life you stomp on my hands, I hqve things to tell you before I am gone, I’m sick and tiers of your comments and your judgements, all If your discrimination and lies, I AM GAY, I AM A NERD, And you know what YOUR AN ASSHOLE. if you think you can judge people because they like someone of […]

6/10/2014 9 comments

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