To all of the ass holes, the miscreants and the filth out there sounding the earth I’m done, I don’t need to be hear anymore. You along with many other things have pushed me to the edge then when I’m grasping on to the cliff for dear life you stomp on my hands, I hqve things to tell you before I am gone, I’m sick and tiers of your comments and your judgements, all If your discrimination and lies, I AM GAY, I AM A NERD, And you know what YOUR AN ASSHOLE. if you think you can judge people because they like someone of the same gender, or because they love a single subject in school or out of school more than Anything or because they deal with pain in a different way than you, or just forpurely whereing all black then you are who I am directing this to.
FUCK YOU, you know what I CUT, I have for aong time and it’s embarising to talk about, the other day I wor a t shirt be ahse it was 90 degreas and I got people laughing at me a f asking me why I had scars all over my arms why the word help was carved deep into my wrist, I was’t all scanned up or bloody still I just had scars, why is it ok in your head to ask that, to laugh at me because I am depressed, FUCK YOU!
If you have tried to help me, if you are truly not one of the people I motioned to before, thank you, and I’m sorry, but I’m done. I know that I make a lot of your lves miserable, and well I truly do apologize for that, and I know that by doing this I will, in the end be hoping you out, save g you from the pain I give you. I am going to kill myself, I’m not going to mess it up this time, like I have the other times, Derik is right about me, I don’t deserve anything at all. I don’t know why I feel I need to write this all out before hand but I do, I need to let my word out. Good bye, I don’t know when but sometime soon.
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Yes people are cruel and they judge you, even when you are a pretty straight girl! Darlin you are stuck in a small world for just a little while, but there are so many others out there stuck in there own small world just waiting for someone like you to come along and understand. Hold your head high and put all their negative shit out. You are beautiful and unique just the way you are. Dont think you are alone, you just havent had the opportunity to meet those who understand yet, they already exist and the time just hasnt come. And you may have heard it before, but usually those people who are hating on you are just looking for a way to keep their mind off hating themselves. Much love to you, sweet soul!
. I am stuck. but I can never leave them entirely untill death derrick is a schizophrenic hillutionation, and I’m related to others. I can’t truly leave them all when I’m alive
Holly fuck your Sam…. Telling me to hold on…. Holly fucking shit, umm wow… Sam , is kinda, another hillutionation, but ,… I love him…… He is so sweet, and perfect an he talks just like you type, and… Holly shit you freaked me out
we are all made up of lots of sides to our personality, some people show it more than others and it doesnt have to be a bad thing. life really does come down to how you perceive it in your head. you can choose to make it anything you want just with what you choose to think on and what you choose to let go. listen to the good stuff!
I know it’s hard to be out in highschool, people are cruel especially in those years. Anyone who tells you highschool will be the best years of your life is full of shit. It gets so much better after, no one cares what you study I love to do as long as you love it. School is the hardest time, people are worse than ever those years. I know the “it gets better” sentiment never helps but it will get better
Well I’m going into highschool, I’m in middle school at the current moment, but its basically the equivalent of hell
Middle school would be even worse I bet, I really feel for you and am impressed that you’ve been able to come out in that environment. People mature a lot as they get older (generally, though not always) and they either become more understanding or they learn to shut the hell up about things they shouldn’t be speaking on. I truly hope you find some people in your school, or in your future highschool, who are more understanding and less cruel.
Thank you.
Honey, since you are only in middle school I beg you to reconsider. I know “it gets better” is such a cliche but trust me it really does. In school you are surrounded by a bunch of assholes but once you get out you’ll learn people are much nicer and a lot more tolerant. Please reconsider.