a person. i used to be someone i liked and admired.not anymore. i m empty, i m a shell, i m a body on autopilot, i m a shadow of an old me. that kills me…i cannot go on without myself.there s no point to the misery, the agony,the pain, the craving for myself.i ve lost all that mattered.my dream consumed me and sometimes there s no other poison like a dream,and that poison killed me. also..there s no other drug to a person than another person…fact!
don t cry because i m gone, smile because i was here.
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So I had that dream again. You know – that dream of the last time you felt truly happy. You relive that past experience time and time again in your dreams. And you have this dream, and it’s so amazing, wonderful and happy. And then you start to wake up. And the happiness starts slipping away as you wake more and more. And the depression takes a stronger hold and screams, “Ha-Ha! FUCK YOU! That wasn’t real! IT’S ALL GONE!” So you want to sleep, but can’t because “that dream” might happen again. So sweet, and yet so devastating.
Yup. Been there my friend.
Idk, i dont know how to really feel anything anymore, im not exactly sad, im not happy either though,
I lack alot of empathy or sympathy or whatever- to humans.
I dont like people. They can defend and lie and kill, they stab you in the back and do anything to save themselves or make sure theyre on top.
Humans are a disgusting race.
Destroying eachother with war and calling it
“defending our country”
“Honorable heros”
Bullfuckingshit.
There is nothing honorable about killing your own species.
We are here to advance and flourish
But we kill and murder the earth while we do it.
I HAD. a […]
Look I want to die and i need help. I m tried the scripts and not worked. I have no means to do this and i need help from somewhere. I need to be dead by the morning am desporate. I really need ********. I really really am begging anybody with any idea to help me escape from this existence. There is no hope my dream is to not wake up tomorrow and no matter how many different pills i take i keep waking up. what can i do? this is my dream. this is no gesture this is no gesture this important that. I […]
What a funny night. An ex of mine is the gayest guy who doesn’t know he’s gay. He dumped me for this girl who has facial hair and a unibrow, married her and they started having kids right away. He talks and acts like you would swear he is gay. His profile picture is a gay pride flag. Oh god, haha, some day he will realize he’s gay. And the dudes who were in line with me and my dream guy that e day I met him are a couple?!? Wow! My dream guy gave them tattoos and the dudes stiffed him for payment. But […]
Lately, I’m always in tears when I’m alone. I’m stressed and always nervous. I’m only 13 years old, turning 14 next week. My dad gambles and hides his money and refuses to get a better job. He tells my mom to get one. My mom is always cleaning and cooking and her left hand is barely moveable now. My brother has a job, but he doesn’t work hard anymore. His dream is to be a personal trainer. But I wonder if he’s given up that dream. He’s always gaming and talking to his new girlfriend who’s all the way in LA. He should be able […]
I have been laying her for at least 10 hours. I thought it was gonna be an easy night. But of course the voices in my head say otherwise. I look at my dog in envy as he just lays there. I wanna go to sleep. I haven’t had a dream in soooo long. Maybe one day I will. One day it will just be a really long dream that’s perfect just for me. Or is that what heaven is? Maybe on days on earth is just a nightmare and when we wake up…Or what if its just some type of limbo where its just […]
Hi, I’m a visual novelist… well that what I was aiming to be.
People often tell you: ”With time you will get better.”
Well, I wonder and anyway… I don’t have the luxury to take my time. But before I tell you about my current situation let me give you a slice of my past.
At the age of 15 I moved away from my country and started to travel with my parents in a country where I couldn’t reach my friends.
Internet you say? Well there were 8 to 9hours of time difference between them and me and I didn’t have a computer so I could only go […]
Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?
by niki
written by niki
Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )
for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]
I have recently been having some pretty intense nightmares, including waking dreams, which are the most horrific series of events, emotions, and imagery that persist after you wake up. The thing that makes these dreams so incredibly petrifying is the relief you would normally feel upon waking up is shattered by the persistence of the thing you fear the most appearing in reality. Sometimes they fizzle out quickly, alternatively there are times I lay in bed for over an hour trying to figure out my reality, it’s as if I completely dissociate from reality, and I am unable to distinguish things that clearly aren’t real […]
I just want to die . You know it’ll be so much better i belive , no pain just peace.
No worrying about life and people surrounding me.
I can’t remember the day i was really fulfilled of happines .
Life became this scary dream that I can’t seem to wake up from.
Everything just seems to go over and over the same pattern everyday.
Sleeping for ever yeah, that will be perfect.
Todays theme has been 7. Been seeing it everywhere and this update is number 7. How synchronistic.
http://youtu.be/HLyllO4GFVM
Today I want to tell you to dream big guys. If you feel hopeless and dead inside. The key is to pump our faith and hope for a better tomorrow. I know for me when I’m distraught like I was the night with TPHG later into the evening. He encouraged and bolstered my faith by having yet another great conversation. If you have a dream already: make it bigger. If your dreams are dead: be resurrected. If you’re scared to move forward: fuck it. Feel the fear […]
1. Im ugly
2. I’m addicted to porn
3. Never had a girlfriend who truly loved me
4. I was raped by my best friend.
5.My family thinks im a dumb ass
6. I have a dream to sing, but lets face it isn’t happening.
7. Even my mom tried to kill me
8. I’ve learn in this world there is no love, but simply someone u dislike the least.
9.US politics
10.i feel unloved
11. No one will read this.
Last night I had the most triggering dream ever. I’ve been thinking all day about it and this is the most depressed I’ve felt in a while. Also, because of this, today I planned to tell my mum about it but then my brother decided to tag along. I didn’t tell her, probably never will. What a failure of a person, what a waste of space.
-V
Alright, here’s the deal. I need an address from somebody who lives in the states — preferably california so I can tell the border cops I got a destination. I’m going to tell them I’m going to spend a few months time with you at your place to kick back. All pleasure no business this time. (lie). All business AND pleasure. So! Who wants to help me make it big in the city of angels? I’m going to L.A with a dream in my heart. Driving down in my shitty Cavalier with outdated stickers and an exhaust system that’s seen better days but who gives […]
This man inspires me. He has that edge that I got inside my heart. He has the star power bursting in my chest. Only difference is his dream manifested. Mine will one day. I see it in my thought life every day.
I got nowhere
I’m singing to no-one
Another
Making the signal
Across, to the building
My queen, how do I revolve in the idle
Turn-off your light, and dream about
I had to be, this
Malediction, Muk
The voice of Espeon, will do nothing
Pokemon, X
Cure
How am I here
Forces
.
I wish I could sleep forever, feel nothing but rested.
Idleness brings my sorrow, analysing and analysing.
Ever alone in this cage, some days I am on the outside.
A waste of time in the space of a breath.
How could I be such a fool?
I wish I could sleep forever, rather than take my life.
Dream deeply of cryptic patterns and events, even I cannot grasp or understand.
But still, in time, I would wake.
And this twisted feeling would begin again.
There would be much undone, by not being here.
This ultimately is what stays my hand.
To make others feel as I do would […]
Your love left me long ago
But I buried the bricks of this house that your sadness once built,
Though you branded your name into my heart, so I could love no other
I still feel the long lasting burn of our last night,
Your silhouette,
It still has the same effect, but of course you dont know that though
Departed, no grace, should I let you go?
We never could find eachother in the dark,
I guess we were hiding from each others past,
I guess we’re hiding from one another,
We don’t need to run anymore
I dreaded even heaven when it comes to […]