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Emotions

How Cutting Saves Me

by LostandLonelySoul 11/7/2014

written by LostandLonelySoul

I can’t deal with my depression anymore.. I have started cutting again, and it is the only promise I can make myself anymore.. “If you get through this awful day, you can go home and carve yourself to your heart’s content..” While people may find that gross, it’s honestly the most truthful thing I’ve ever said to myself.. Cutting is an out for me. It helps me express my feelings, despite the fact that no one but me ever sees the cuts..

No one ever sees them because I am very sneaky about WHEN I cut. In the shower, in a bath, late at night […]

11/7/2014 2 comments

There is no Neverland.

by Nevereverland 11/1/2014

written by Nevereverland

I am a diagnosed bipolar, twenty year old girl. And maybe it is just the depression talking. But I am so lost and I’m so on my own. I’m scared.

Fear is my biggest problem. Im so scared of everything. Scared to be on my own. Scared to run. Scared to hide. Scared to fly incase I fall. Scared to risk it all. Scared to die.

To die would be an awfully big adventure.
I’ve sat on my bed on days when I’m all alone in the house. I’ve taken pills, washed them down with vodka. But as soon as it started to hurt i made myself […]

11/1/2014 5 comments

IVE BEEN GOING DOWN HILL OVER 3 YEARS NOW BUT RAPIDLY SINCE YESTERDAY

by owlpal 10/28/2014

written by owlpal

Where do i start eh?

I am 48 yrs old, married to my gorgeous wife Victoria. we got married in 2006, we’ve had our ups and downs liek all couples do and we have come through it because i thought we were strong.

I had major back surgery in 2011 that failed now i have disc degenerative disease throughout my spine and survive my days on large amounts of morphine just to get me walking.

My Mother passed away in Nov 2012 and i felt a part of me died too, my Father died in 2007 the day before my Birthday and that is crippling me big time. […]

10/28/2014 5 comments

Reality sucks, Reality suck, Reality boring, I hate Reality, boring Reality, Reality is boring !

by niki 10/23/2014

written by niki

Reality is boring & LIMITED !! I hate Reality ! boring Reality !
Real life is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real life ! boring real life !
Real world is boring & LIMITED !! I hate real world ! boring real world !

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, […]

10/23/2014 6 comments

Damaged Goods

by Ghost9er 10/16/2014

written by Ghost9er

Dysfunctional in modern society, I do not belong anywhere.
Darkness has consumed my outlook on life,
and I cannot see any hope.
Despair has taken a liking to me, causing pain inside my being.
The suffering tortures me as it flows in my veins,
damaging every molecule and fiber of my existence.
Twitches are the result,
along with violent tremors,
all of which are noticeable.
Names are called upon me,
strong and power they pierce my feelings.
Making my emotions bleed in the shadows of torture.
Endlessly I hope for an end, but no one stops.
Like walking on pins and needles,
there is no […]

10/16/2014 1 comment

The Beginning (My life)

by Ghost9er 10/14/2014

written by Ghost9er

My first memory was when I was three, I was in a store and running from my father, I had this little pony tail, and my dad grabbed it and pulled me back, slamming the back of my head onto the ground. I don’t remember anything after that… and then the next memory I remember is when I was at this “Mental Hospital” I was about 5 years old, and had just woken up inside this room, there was no padding, there was a vinyl floor, everything was white or close to it, there was no toilet, no sink, no bed, no cot, no pillow, […]

10/14/2014 8 comments

Hi

by endofthetunnel 10/12/2014

written by endofthetunnel

So, I never thought i’d be trying to talk to people online for advise but here goes nothing… Iv’e been with many women trying to find that one girl and all of my relationships have never really lasted long because I just emotionally refuse to fully give myself to someone until my last relationship. I hope you won’t judge but my last relationship was online in an online game me and my friend used to play and I met this girl, she was really nice and I was getting in to her and I could feel she liked me and just when I was getting […]

10/12/2014 4 comments

The song..

by IsAnybodyOutThere 9/28/2014

written by IsAnybodyOutThere

I remember everything that day.. the fight, the feelings of apathy from people who I thought cared about me, and the last song I heard before I went into my coma. The day started out normal with the exception of me waking up late and having to take a quick shower before class. My roommate made it well-known that she was pretty irritated by my actions because she wouldn’t even speak to me the entire day. I tried to ignore it, but the caring person I am tried to fix whatever she was upset about. When I came home, she was downstairs and I knew […]

9/28/2014 2 comments

Reality / Real world / Real life

by niki 9/16/2014

written by niki

Reality is boring & LIMITED !!
Real life is boring & LIMITED !!
Real world is boring & LIMITED !!

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, […]

9/16/2014 5 comments

fuck Reality ! Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks ! Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring ! movies, novels books, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!

by niki 9/14/2014

written by niki

fuck Reality ! fuck real life ! fuck real world !
Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks !
Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring !
movies, novels, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
there is no MAGIC, no SUPERPOWER , no ‘cool, magical’ SUPERHERO / SUPERHEROES like in those movie , novel , comics , game / games , manga / anime , etc etc !
FUCKING BORING real world / real life / reality !!!

I also hate this life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING […]

9/14/2014 3 comments

Emotions can’t be put to words

by darkwillow 9/8/2014

written by darkwillow

Sometimes I’ll just sit there and listen to slow piano music for over an hour.. Because I’m too broken to do anything and i physically can’t do anything.. It’s a hard life.. and it’s been too overwhelming lately.. I can’t go on like this.. I scared of what will happen to me.. I’m going to break soon i know it.. Just a few more panic attacks away..

9/8/2014 2 comments

I’m done…

by zad eyz 8/22/2014

written by zad eyz

My mind and soul are tired of this game.
My heart hurts deeply and is full with lots of pain.
Many thoughts run through my mind, hoping I can find the secret to live a happy life.
After my searching is done, I always open my eyes to the dark and find myself thinking ….oh I’m fucked!
Fucked because I know there is nothing for me.
No smiles ….no laughing….no comforting dreams.
No light at the end of the tunnel and no angels to take me home.
Only a knife down my arm, the blood turns cold.
A hole full of darkness were they don’t […]

8/22/2014 1 comment

is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

by niki 8/21/2014

written by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & […]

8/21/2014 5 comments

Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??

by niki 8/14/2014

written by niki

Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring […]

8/14/2014 6 comments

Update ;

by lostsoulblanklife 7/30/2014

written by lostsoulblanklife

I’m still struggling. Suffering every single day, trying to get through this god damn life. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts suck.

I just can’t do anything about it.

I’m lost.

I’m hopeless.

I’m desperate for happiness.

And I’m suicidal.

“Pain Demands To Be Felt” – John Green

“I’ve come to learn this world is full of sin” Her Last Words by; Courtney Parker

If you guys are up to helping me, I’d very much appreciate that. Give me advice, on how I should deal with this. Anything will help.

7/30/2014 5 comments

I Wish..

by Serra42 7/23/2014

written by Serra42

I wish that there was someone who understood what this feels like..i wish i could trust..iv been broken by so many.. over and over.. i just cant believe there is anything other than people who lie… is there anyone out there that does not lie and cause pain for there own selfish reasons..they don’t even realize what they are doing..i hope….and if there is someone…one… how would i know?.. i want to have faith in people.. i want there to be someone else like me.. someone who knows…

will i perpetually be in this cycle of pain..waiting for someone to show me its going to be […]

7/23/2014 3 comments

Cotton Mind.

by greyacrylic 7/8/2014

written by greyacrylic

I just can’t seem to get anything done.

I feel like there are so many things that I need to do and that I’m falling behind on, but my mind feels like it is stuffed with cotton. Even if I make a list, I feel as though I can’t remember anything that I have to do. Then I just get frustrated and go take a shower or make food.

I am just so tired of trying to keep up with society. All of the expectations and responsibilities that are thrown on me, I just can’t take it. I don’t feel at all prepared for college, or living […]

7/8/2014 2 comments

oh…F_ck!!!

by SadAlone01 7/8/2014

written by SadAlone01

just F_ck

f_ck my family that steals from me

f_ck my family that ignores me, as if i dont even exist!

f_ck my so-called “friends” that are never around

f_ck face book and all YOUR great times i dont want to read about

f_ck this life that i never asked to be born into

f_ck it all!

NO REPLIES NECESSARY….i just needed to rant for a bit!

7/8/2014 6 comments

Anyone Feel This Way?

by SadAlone01 7/6/2014

written by SadAlone01

i cant handle life alone.

i desperately want to die.

i self-harm to feel better and make the pain of being an outcast and all alone.

i wonder why it is ME that cant have friends….obviously, I MUST BE DEFECTIVE…but how do i locate the defect?

i need the pain to STOP….since i’ve tried everything else, i want SUICIDE to take it (all the pain and sh!!t in my life) away….forever…..a permanent solution to an ongoing problem…i see ZER0 hope in this ever changing into something good and worthwhile.

i thought humans were “mentally wired” to be with other people…then WHY does my higher power allow ME to be destitute […]

7/6/2014 3 comments

Not Too Far To Fall

by tylar 6/8/2014

written by tylar

Just because I don’t want to live, does mean I don’t want a good life, I don’t want to sit around an wait to die, funny the things you randomly ponder

i’m trying hard to keep my mind under control, with all these silly thoughts, and the frustration that builds up over things that aren’t that important, and also trying to ignore the temptation I’m having lately to drink

As I sit here typing this, I feel like such a mess, an I realise how far I’ve fallen, and how fast, even though I didn’t have far to go, I set the scene as a crazy […]

6/8/2014 0 comment

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