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Living is pointless

by lolzmay
written by lolzmay

I’ve never understood the point of this life. When I ask people they often say, “Well, you graduate from college, get a job and start a family.” My only answer is, “And?” What comes after having a family and everything else you’ve worked so hard to obtain?

Death.

If in the end, no matter what we do, we all die, then what is the point of living? For those who believe in afterlife or a heaven after we die maybe life has a meaning. But to someone who doesn’t believe in anything, what’s the point? There are more than 7.046 billion people on earth. Millions of people are […]

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by 853
written by 853

a memory so long ago

possibly the earliest sign of trouble

i was in junior baseball league 

played left field

a large pickup drove into the park

it swerved left and right

everyone ran with their kid/friend – i didn’t

i stared blankly almost longingly 

it could run me over –  so what

if i was wanted then  somebody would save me

 

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by scared01
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I had been diagnosed with severe depression about 12 years ago. In that time & have been on at least that many meds with as many different side effects.

I lost a Vice Presidents position and a business to this retched thing.

I have taken myself off of all meds. I know this is not smart, please, no lectures. I am tired of having one pill after another thrown at me like I’m a dartboard..

I am afraid to go out in public because I brake down over the dumbest things. As everyone here knows, nobody really understands this unless you’ve been there.

There just does not seem to […]

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love??

by wanderlustnebula
written by wanderlustnebula

For as long as I remember, I never loved anyone. Like I’ve been attracted to guys, but I never felt anything. Like if they would dump me the next day, I wouldn’t even care. And it’s’the same for my family and friends. Everyone but my sister. What is wrong with me? How would you best describe love?

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Another day!

by blue3182
written by blue3182

So….I have never really added my own post, so I am a bit nervous about the response…thus bare with me! I am currently off to work…another morning and day of survival! Over the past 10-12 years I have been struggling and suffering with depression, borderline and suicidality. I have been in intensive therapy programs and have a therapist who is amazing, yet I have been still feeling a bit off and at times hopeless. Everyone is so supportive on this blog and it’d be great to meet or chat with someone living in the same area of Massachusetts, who has been struggling with the same […]

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The Retard Who Knows She’s a Retard

by rach
written by rach

There is something worse than being retarded.  It’s being a retarded person who is self-aware enough to know they’re retarded.  I am retarded, and I know it.  Like Charlie Gordon in Flowers for Algernon.  Like him, I started out oblivious.  I had a vague understanding that other people were making fun of my face, my actions, my words, my clothing, and the fact that I was never coordinated or fast enough to play sports at gym class no matter how hard I tried (nor, for that matter, could I make any sense of the rules).  I became self aware very slowly, over time.  I started […]

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irrational me

by kristink
written by kristink

there are two of me. the rational and the irrational. the rational me realizes it all comes down to the money. it is what makes the world go around. if you don’t have it your needs and wants are irrelevant. the same can be said about any kind of healthcare. mental health especially. it was rationed out like it was going to break the bank. as long as those insurance checks keep coming all is well.  the “rational” me is very cynical, she doesn’t believe there are better days in my future. it is at this point where the rational and irrational meld.  the irrational […]

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As I lay here //; you.

by breakeven
written by breakeven

As I sit here crying, in pain. My chest hurts and I feel like absolute shit. You lay there sleeping with not a care in the world for everything taking a toll on me. You say I push you. It’s always me. Always me pushing you. And maybe I do. Maybe I’m the reason for everything horrible that you blame me for. But as I sit here, I think about how much I want to tell you that you’re pushing me. I’m so near to giving up. I never felt so alone. I can’t go to you because you’ll judge me. You’ll tell me I’m […]

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what a plummet

by Remnant The Unbroken
written by Remnant The Unbroken

Don’t know what “set me off” but now I really don’t want to wake up tomorrow. Maybe God will answer me this time.

Until then I’m going to blast the fuck out of some angry music and hope night time rolls around quickly so everyone goes away and I can have my blade. Dammit what’s wrong with me

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Test 1

by KIRA
written by KIRA

Two days ago I did my first “test”.In other words I just checked everything in order to assure I’ll be able to commit suicide in the day I chose.I highly recommend those ones who are planning to kill themselves to do a “test” first.For example, my parents had went out when I was testing and I thought I was alone, but suddenly a neighbour came in and I almost got caught trying get the gas tank to my room (In our neighbourhood things work like this, everyone can enter the other’s house and just say : “I’m coming in!”.We’re big friends).So, the gas tank contains […]

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Just Done

by dissapearforever101
written by dissapearforever101

I’ve been struggling with my body for so long. Ever since I was a little girl, I was always the “fattest” kid around. I got made fun of a lot, but I moved on, as a little child would. Now it’s worse. I can’t stare at myself in a mirror for longer than 2 seconds. I have gotten bullied by others, for being ugly and fat. I have no friends. At school I am the last pick for everything, and everyone hates me. I try to be nice to everyone, but for every nice thing I say twenty bad things are said about me. I […]

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What do you want from me?

by Heal My Hopeless Heart
written by Heal My Hopeless Heart

Just what the fuck do you want?! Whatever I do, or do not do, I am damned in your sight, a blight, a failure, a mistake. How would you feel if I had come home in a box? You want everyone to think you’re so loving, compassionate, dutiful but the truth is, you’re a *****. You piss everyone around you off, you have no tact, no filter, and yet whenever I imply such you say, “you’re the only one that thinks that!” LIKE HELL I AM!

I don’t care any longer what anyone says to you. After nearly 1/4 century of living with your bullshit, I’m […]

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Why was I born here?

by incompetence
written by incompetence

I was born with a loving, caring, and forgiving family. To most people, that’s a blessing. But to me, it only makes it harder for me to make them pleased, or even tolerant of anything. It only makes my life worse. I already hate me, so does everyone else, so my own family were like the only people who I could trust at all, and now they are like people I never even knew. It just sickens me to see what I have done to these great people, and what I can do to all those with a pure heart, unlike mine.

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Wishes

by Hannah
written by Hannah

I wish I had someone who cared
I wish I had someone who would wipe away my troubled tears.
I want someone to keep me up high,
even when I just want to die.

Everyone has that person they need,
of course everyone except for me.
I yearn for the love of truth,
the person who was destined for me ever since birth.

Stay strong, he’ll say at the end of every goodbye,
but the joke’s on him, because he’s the reason I’m still alive.

I wish I could have the one, who will love me for me,
and not care for scars.

I wish […]

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Disappointment

by mattmomo
written by mattmomo

25 years of life and I can honestly say that I am a disappointment not only to myself but to everyone around me.

Im always forgetting to do something, which makes people mad.  I cant help that I have a bad memory, But no one honestly cares.  All they see is that I let them down.

I am constantly being told I don’t do enough, I don’t try hard enough.  Im a lazy fuck according to everyone.

I don’t work enough.  I need to work more.

More….More…. Nothing is ever enough

no matter how hard I try, Im always letting someone down.

I wake up in the morning wondering what Im […]

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Thoughts

by marlon305
written by marlon305

My father died when I was 9, cardiovascular issues. My stepfather went to prison for 15 years when I was 12. My mom has struggled ever since to make ends meat. I’ve never had a father figure growing up. My grandfather has had various heart open surgeries, he’s had cancer and now I’m Seeing signs of amnesia. He can pass away any time of any day. My mother has a couple issues, she just found out her cancer tests came out high. I don’t know what to do in life. I dated this one girl, Shannon. I thought she was the one for me. She […]

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4 more days!

by candyapple
written by candyapple

cant believe i only have four more days before saying my final goodbyes! i’ve already set my away letter for my mom, tonight, i’m going to do one for my dad.

thanks to the people here for everything. honestly, just thanks for being a site i can release my thoughts to.

to everyone else here, i hope you find what you’re looking for, or at least you know what you want to do.

goodbye and goodluck. to all of us 🙂

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Im Worthless

by blacktears
written by blacktears

I always thought of changing my life style and everything, before beginning of something big like college, job. I tired my best to fit in to there college lifestyle, I did make a lot of friends i was happy but after few weeks something happened i don’t know what all of a sudden everyone started to think of my as clown, Started picking on me but i didn’t say a word against them and that made things even worse, which made me talk of the town literally as i live in a town. you see the same faces everyday. which gave people the opportunity to talk shit behind my back. I can fell […]

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“the moon isn’t there if you aren’t looking at it” -einstein

by addicted
written by addicted

Every human provided with 100 years and little bit access to huge brain.

What they are doing:

1. Try to make money which he may not finish in his life time

2. Strive for fame where everyone praise him even after his death

poor people go for 1st option
average people sulk on their misfortune birth
rich people go for 2nd option

you don’t experience, literally, anything if you are dead.

logically speaking, humans are foolish

only non foolish act a human can do

1. suicide
2. suicide
3. suicide

 

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i guess it’s not ever going away

by cookiesandvelvet
written by cookiesandvelvet

i was really depressed almost 2 years ago. i would cry my eyes out every evening, and hope that the next cut would end everything. but that didn’t happen. i called that stage “sick” so if i talk about the times i was depressed, i would say:”when i was sick”. so a couple of weeks ago it was a casual morning, when this girl that used to be my best friend but now we both hate each other, came up to me and started yelling. than in class my teacher made me feel like shit, and worthless. i just kept my mouth shut. i actually […]

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