Please can someone let me know (even privately) of the reputable suppliers of ******** given in PPH? I have very little money, have been in chronic pain, and feel it’s time to go. Please someone out there give me the advice I need. I don’t have the time or money for Dignitas.
Blessings,
Gill x
Basically, I just don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t feel like anyone needs me here anymore, or that it’s a bad thing entirely to want people to need you.
I feel like a complete idiot, mistakes piled on mistakes, it just drives me nuts. Sure I know the whole “everyone makes mistakes talk” but I never learn from any of them.
I tried to let my emotions out through this girl I like and I’m constantly paranoid thinking that everything I told her doesn’t matter and that everyone on Earth including myself doesn’t want to hear other peoples problems. I’m rambling
Just help me get this […]
I’m not looking for suggestions on how to Exit, but rather how best to tie up the loose ends of my life in advance of my Exit. I want to leave in a manner that is as compassionate and uncomplicated as possible for those I’ll be leaving behind. There is a great deal to consider here, and it is very difficult for me to process the details in my current emotional state. I’m a practical person, and what I need is some practical advice, and unfortunately I can’t consult any of my trusted friends for obvious reasons. So I would appreciate any thoughtful words on […]
The walls are closing in on me once again, and I feel as though I am suffocating. I’ve been trapped in this seemingly never ending abyss for just over eight years now, and everything seems to be getting worse. I have nothing to contribute to the world, except my death. Day in and day out, I have to force myself to get out of bed, and put on a happy facade. Putting on this facade is becoming increasingly difficult to do, and I just want to give up. I do not want to live. I am nothing but a […]
I am so alone, so weak, so not anything worth keeping up a fight for.
You know those feelings that are so strong they just become unexplainable? That’s what this is like.
So now what am I supposed to say? “Goodbye cruel world.” Or whatever. No, there is nothing left to say, only to do. Go. Leave. Exit.
Contact info below.
I had a birthstar reading done for me and apparently for 17 years, 17 fucking painful, disappointing, abusive, heart wrenching, miserable years of struggle. I have been and am still going through the effects of a bad planet. So from the age 4 to 31 my life was destined to be bad. I pay money that I dont even have to get prayers and rituals done for me but I dont feel any better, just scared and full of anxiety. All I am told to do is pray and chant, but I dont feel any better. I must […]
Exit songs, or I suppose they could double as just, depression songs.
Do you have any?
I thought this would be a good chance to gain insight on each other.
Mine would be :
Throw Away- Blue Stahli
Suffocating right- neuroticfish
Count to six and die- Marilyn Manson
Cocoon- Assemblage 23
Sorry if this seems insensitive at all, sometimes it’s just easier for me to communicate through music.
I have posted on this subject before but wondered who new may be willing to share their despair and/or dying songs. Â I hope, intend to terminate my time here with a damn good soundtrack blasting into my ears.
Eddie Vedder – Guaranteed, Far Behind, Society (from Into the Wild soundtrack)
Jeff Buckley – Hallelujah
Green Day – 21 Guns
REM – Try Not To Breathe
REM- I Wanted to Be Wrong, Why Not Smile
Crowded House – Weather With You
Yo Yo Ma and Alison Krauss – Simple GiftsÂ
THANKS for any suggestions everyone, I appreciate it.
Today I remember the life I had. Today I think of the posts I have read here. Today I rembember the people I have been a witness to in their exit.  Today I hope all people will be given the legal right to make the choice I have had to search the world for. Today I look back in sorrow and look forward in anticipation.  Today I wish for all, the lives they desire and the end they deserve. Today I am , if honest, a bit afraid.  Today I am  more sure than ever that what awaits me is better than what is behind […]
Since I was seventeen I have suffered from an anxiety disorder so that’s four years now. It gets better then it gets worse. The constant up and down exhausts me so much. I have tried all types of treatments and I consider myself quite a worldly and wise person for my age. I have tried much self therapy and my own things to help with recovery but I have only gotten so far and fallen back in the hole that is my disorder. I have contemplated suicide numerous times but have never actually attempted it. I’m sick of it and I’m just tired so tired. […]
I’m not expecting much. There’s little risk here.
A man jumps from the tenth story of a building. A crowd gathers – though not too close – to the scene of the act. You always need one person to alarm the ambulance; perhaps one to call the police, too. Â I’d recommend someone to clean up the mess.
The rest are mere witnesses. In all, a heartbreak for a few, an inconvenience for some, perhaps an envious end for others.
Now, there is someone else: the person looking down from the ledge. It’s hard to see them, as they’re so high up. There’s the obvious distraction down below, as […]
My appointment is roughly 24 hours away and it will be the first time I’ve gone to a therapist/doctor – now I’m wondering: if I mention my recent failed attempt(s) and my true thoughts will they commit me to hospital? Â My attempt a week ago failed then two days later I was thwarted by a recently installed fence preventing me to simply hop into an exit.
The appointment is with a psychologist however, she works with a psychiatrist in the same office. Â Honestly, I’m not even sure how I’ll feel speaking to this individual even though she was quite comforting during the initial telephone call so […]
I’ve watched the Doing it with Betty videos on making the bag and putting the whole assembly together but they seem to skip over how to make the pressure regulator that she has. Â I also have been researching for about a week on this and still haven’t found out how to make it. Â The tank I’m getting has the balloon valve on it (said I was needing it for a part, dumb me) so I don’t know how to get a different valve now. Â Any help?
See- prom is coming up. Every year I go to prom with my friends and I have a great time. I don’t think this year will be fun. I’ve got a stressed head thinking about my final grades, college programming, summer job possibilities, dealing with family (cancer patients, old with broken bones, trying to live my life for me), and the person I love and whether or not we are going to get back together. If this were a movie, then I would exit prom drunk and happy with my friends and when he tried to take me back, I would either throw up on […]
So, I just cannot carry on a minute longer, and yet I’m forced to. I have an incurable disease and am so incredibly depressed with all this suffering. Having failed to jump off a high bridge, drown myself, suffocate with a bag and an overdose and bag, I am now going for the Helium bag method. I really need this to work. I’ve bought the cylinder, made the exit bag and now I just need the hose and the regulator. I’ve been trying to get a response from Exit but my emails and phone messages have gone unanswered. Has anyone […]
If I was real and told my new psychologist that I’m trying to get hold of enough heroin to od on, or my exit bagplan. I wonder if I told her I dream of diving off the m4 bridge would she offer some support? Or will I simply be locked up again? Should I be honest, can they really help me then?
I’m 21, (ya I know I’m young) .. My whole life has been nothing but suffering. I’ve been bullied since I could remember. I’ve had my ups and down’s but have been depressed for many years. It’s at its worst right now. I don’t have a licence, I don’t have a job, I don’t have highschool, I will never see college. I don’t even know what I want to do for my future. I don’t even see me having a future. My boyfriend left me because he “doesn’t love me” anymore. He can’t understand what I’m going through. We still talk. He’s going to be dating someone […]
So my plan was to have tons of sex before i die, i have had a lot so far, but hit a bump in the road, i have hpv.. (genital warts) and i always use protection during sex, thisis the first breakout ive had in 2 years.. ive tryed freezing them off, taking multi vitamins, and there healing now, so ive tryed to hang myself 3 times the past month, and oviously failed, but i have a new method, charcol gas grill, in my car, i know i will die soon, i guerentee it, mabe the next week, mabe next month, certintly before 2013, […]
I’ve been moving on lately. Not in the way one would imagine. I’ve become raw and uncut in my creativity. I’m exposing myself to the world with photos of what i see, thing I model in a virtual space, things i may draw by hand and music. Oh no I’m still not happy. But I’ve decided to keep pretending.
I”m doing light work. Work as in making amends to old flames if I possibly can. Maybe an offer of friendship or two. I’m learning to forgive my parents even though they still bait trap and subtly belittle for effect, and myself because I keep making mistakes. […]
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