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Collective Proof

by RealTalk30 8/27/2013

written by RealTalk30

I was just commenting and this idea crossed my mind. Ill try not to get too detailed.

Your life is the only proof of your consciousness; your ideas of right and wrong, your creativity and compassion, your love and fears.
Collectively this is what makes up our humanity, it’s what really matters in the end to us. Not our hate for each other or our wars, or our neglect for our own.

Collectively our consciousness is what has kept our speciese going all this time, otherwise we would be food for other animals. But we cling to life because we know it’s the right thing to […]

8/27/2013 17 comments

Alone.

by Jayykeith3312 6/18/2013

written by Jayykeith3312

I can’t keep fromÂ dwellingÂ on the fact that I set myself up to be alone. I’m used to people not being there for me, but normally there’s those few people that are always there. Â This time even they have drifted away. It seems like over night I slipped back into my old skin of sadness andÂ loneliness. I thought that I had learned to be happy again. She opened up a whole new world of beauty to me. Was it a new world so sweet or was I just blinded by her sweetness? I’m so confused and numb. I’m remembering what it feels like to be alone. […]

6/18/2013 2 comments

Letania de mis defectos

by dominoc4 6/5/2013

written by dominoc4

Litany of my faults

I’m vain, despotic, blasphemous;
proud, haughty, ungrateful, scornful;
but still retain rose complexion.
The fire of hell burns me.
Cut glass is my system.
I’m egotistical, cold, tumultuous.
I break like fragile butterfly.
I myself have built my curse.
I’m perverse, wicked, vindictive.
It provided my blood and fugitive.
My thoughts are very taciturn.
My dreams of sin are nocturnal.
I’m hysterical, crazy, insane;
but to eternity and sentenced.

(Pita Amor, 1987)

LetanÃa de mis defectos

Soy vanidosa, dÃ©spota, blasfema;
soberbia, altiva, ingrata, desdeÃ±osa;
pero conservo aÃºn la tez de rosa.
La lumbre del infierno a mÃ me quema.
Es de cristal cortado mi sistema.

6/5/2013 0 comment

Public notice

by Tormenting Dreams 5/7/2013

written by Tormenting Dreams

It has come to my attention that a particular person has been cyber bullying young girls on this site, i have no way of knowing if it is particular disclosed to this site alone or not, but here- in it is a big issue on here. and there maybe a lot of people on here doing it, i have no way of knowing. so i am going to write this purely on the facts that i have accumulated over a set period of time.Â this said person be-friends these girls and convinces them to talk privately with him or to play onlineÂ games with him, […]

5/7/2013 8 comments

….Life Is But A Dream….

by TrumpetChick99 4/21/2013

written by TrumpetChick99

Unlike most kids, some nursery rhymes haunted me. One of those is Row Your Boat. It’s almost like… I don’t know. It’s almost like it’s about a depressed person, just going through life, feeling like it’s just a dream. That’s definitely how it feels now to me. Every second is just a dream. I’ll probably wake up soon, and I’ll be 8 again. My grandpa won’t die, and life will be perfect. Trevor will never have existed. Lacey won’t die. Nana won’t hate me. My mom will be proud of me. Maybe I can do something. But then again, I don’t want this to be […]

4/21/2013 0 comment

Never

by Lesswill 1/10/2013

written by Lesswill

You could blame me for your faults,you could hate me more than i,you cld tell your friends my problem,you cld hurt me all you want..the truth is that..I LL NEVER LEAVE MY WORLD ALONE..i will never give up on myself

1/10/2013 1 comment

I tried 3 times.

by anthropophobia 11/6/2012

written by anthropophobia

I survived suicide 3 times. Â I made my first attempt when I was 18. Â It seemed like a logical choice at the time. Â I felt like there was no possibility of recovering from the all consuming pressures and stresses of life. I tried to hang myself with an electrical chord. Â The chord broke, and I woke up minutes later seizing on the ground and vomiting. Â I cleaned up and with my bruised neck I knew there was no way of hiding so I let my family know. Â I was sent to a facility for a bit where they forced me to eat and take drugs. […]

11/6/2012 1 comment

Love. Why I want to end it.

by LastLove 10/27/2012

written by LastLove

Well, this is my first post on here, so might as well tell you why I’m here.

I had the perfect life, weren’t many people in it but those I had were the best. I depended mostly on my best friend and boyfriend. I was doing great with studying. I didn’t speak to my parents much but when I did they were friendly and supportive.

I had been with my boyfriend for 9 months, but it felt like forever, which isn’t a bad thing. We rarely argued and when we did we were quick to forgive each other. We often talked about the future and I convinced […]

10/27/2012 1 comment

Here I am, once again, I’m sorry.

by Stronger 10/16/2012

written by Stronger

There’s been a lot of suicides lately in my town. It brings back my own depression and having no one there to vent to, I am now turning to this site to let my frustation out. I’ve been lurking and I now feel strong enough to finally let everything out. I don’t think I’ve ever told my whole story, from birth to present times, in one sitting. So here I am, this is me, and this is my story.

My mother had troubleÂ conceiving and after a miscarriage, I was born. I was her pride and joy. She wanted me to be perfect, like her; straight A’s, […]

10/16/2012 0 comment

Projection

by BillKeys79 8/18/2012

written by BillKeys79

Hi all i’m new.

I just want to have a little rant about a psychological term known as projection and if anyone has to unfortunately spend time around anyone who does this.

I have a pretend friend that i have known for around 15 years, he used to be a great lad however, he changed in character very suddenly and started to become more secretive with his thoughts.

Before this happened he would always have his worries about fitting in in some way or another it seemed like he just didn’t know who to be….identity crisis maybe.

Anyways, mentions of always feeling like he was the back of the […]

8/18/2012 1 comment

Ignorant… that’s all they are

by Crazypandachick 8/12/2012

written by Crazypandachick

I would firstly like to say rest in peace to Oliva. For those of you who don’t know, Oliva was a 14 year old girl who made a youtube video about bullying and suicide (along with her story) before actually committing suicide.

Now for my anger / upset rant. Shortly after I found out, all my facebook pages started blowing up with hate about how selfish she was and how she was just attention seeking. My heart just fell. We are the result of billions of years of evolution, we should start acting like it. We should all start trying to understand each other rather than […]

8/12/2012 12 comments

I’m Sorry…

by sleepxdeath 7/31/2012

written by sleepxdeath

Stupid memories leave me alone

No one cares

So stop

Angel doesn’t care as well

It’s too late

IfÂ he cared he would have answered he’s phone already

He would have textedÂ Shadow back

He would have replied toÂ his email

He already toldÂ Shadow to stop worrying about it

ShadowÂ already know it is too late

Only thing to do is give up the fight

ShadowÂ has to surrender this friendship.

ShadowÂ understands

Angel doesn’t want to be friends anymore

Shadow knowsÂ herÂ faults

Always beÂ her fault

SheÂ should leave now

Angel doesn’t care

Reality is a *****

ButÂ Shadow really doesÂ understand

She hopeÂ to understand

She tried

But its too late

I’m sorry

I have failed you

You were a great friend

Actually might have been a great; best friend

7/31/2012 2 comments

by alance 6/21/2012

written by alance

Goddamn, but it hurts. And there are too many similarities between all my experiences, too many for comfort. It makes me feel ugly and uncertain. It feels so UNJUST, you know?

What is “fair”, anyways?

It’s my lack of trust, which hurts me so much. So much. and I think they misunderstand me. But how much am I to blame?

I’m trying so hard to stand up for myself, to respect MYSELF. And I realize I can be so destructive, which is why I keep everything bottled up inside in an attempt to be “fair” and not hurt anyone. But all that bottled stuff is constantly poisoning me […]

6/21/2012 4 comments

I’m Done

by Vanna 4/23/2012

written by Vanna

Well I’m done with myself. I quite literally give up on myself. I can’t stand the shame, and guilt that I keep carrying. So I give up. I see people saying well I got this figured out this death of mine will succeed or not. Well now I’m one of those people. I love this site soooo much. Seeing other stories. But I guess when your own stories just add on. You get sick of it. Knowing the other things you done to people- The faults. It starts to hurt. I got nothing anymore. That’s it.

So ya, maybe talk later. I don’t know yet. I’ve […]

4/23/2012 2 comments

Loving the Rain

by subtle_bloodstains 4/4/2012

written by subtle_bloodstains

A soft rain falls over my mind
The water gently caressing my thoughts
Small humble droplets, each inclined
To soothe my fears
And hide my tears
To ingeniously disguise my faults

To me the inner shower gives
Not destroying hope or false happiness
But just the sustenance to live
Barely scraping
Barely making
The minimum barely providing this

The friendly wind blows steadily
The rain oppresses my mindâ€™s parasites
Wind and rain combined heavenly
Offer solace
Shaky embrace
Unable to set my dead heart alight

Anesthetic does not heal the gun wound
A grain of rice does not feed the starving
A few feet does not matter on […]

4/4/2012 7 comments

Don’t Cry On Me (or To My Best Friend)

by subtle_bloodstains 3/24/2012

written by subtle_bloodstains

Hold back your teardrops
Donâ€™t cry on me
I canâ€™t be so numb with you here
My emotions rise up insensibly

Understand that Iâ€™m gone
Iâ€™m dead but my heart still beats
And my lungs still breath
Understand that Death has won

Donâ€™t care for me
I canâ€™t be saved
Donâ€™t ruin yourself over me
You canâ€™t reach me beyond this grave

I hate to see you suffer
The one person I would live for
But itâ€™s too late
If only youâ€™d come four years earlier

Then we could have shown the world
We could have beat the odds
We would have owned the world
They would have been […]

3/24/2012 9 comments

I don’t even know where to begin

by Improperemphasis 1/30/2012

written by Improperemphasis

I want to share my story, it will take a while but the details are important. It’s a long one. I left some things out, like my utterly deranged sexuality. I hope that someone out there will read this and know that they really don’t have it so bad.

I live in the shadow of my past.

I was not abused, none of my family or friends have died, I am privileged and well off financially. My mom left my dad when I was 3, he was an abusive alcoholic.

I am attractive, intelligent, clever, creative, witty, inventive, all that good stuff. Despite all these things, I am […]

1/30/2012 6 comments

my body is still here but my mind is gone

by miss_faerie 5/31/2009

written by miss_faerie

I am depressed.

I am an insomniac.

I have an obsessive compulsive nature.

I am paranoid.

I can’t cope.

It’s been said that admitting your faults, admitting your issues, is one step on the way to recovery. But when your 2 million steps below the surface, one step doesn’t make that much difference.

I can admit to you, to anyone, those 5 things. I feel understand how those 5 things are related to me. I could even give you examples of how they come across in my every day life.

None of this makes me feel remotely better. What used to make me feel better was alcohol and other self-destructive materials. I […]

5/31/2009 2 comments

Lost Love

by Scarlet 4/5/2009

written by Scarlet

I am a 14 year old boy, and I had fallen in love with a 16 year old girl, and she had fallen in love with me. We dated for months, and I think most would call our relationship unhealthily obsessive. We spent literally most of every day together, and we could barely bear to be away from eachother. We both thought about the other frequently, and we’d claimed that we always wondered if we were thinking about eachother at the same time. I always forgave her for everything and felt horrible when she gave up something for my sake, such as canceling something to […]

4/5/2009 4 comments