Don’t wanna talk negatively
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i feel empty
i feel nothing
i feel like nothing
there’s a void
a hole
and i don’t know how to fill it
how to fill this hole inside me
so deep
and dark
i feel no fear
i feel no sadness
i feel no happiness
no life
who am i???
I drafted this awhile ago but then started feeling better. But my depression has re-triggered and it’s stronger than ever. The anxiety pills and antidepressants don’t work. Drinking doesn’t dull the pain, it now only intensifies it. My therapist and doctors try so hard but I see the worry in their eyes because they know they can’t reach me anymore. I’ve run out of ideas and energy, and my life feels empty and done. It’s time to post this just in case. I need MC to somehow discover the truth. If it’s meant to be, he’ll find this someday. He’ll know it’s him. He and my therapist know the story, but […]
I got into Portland state university . I applied for the hell of It and I got in haha . I’m seriously considering moving to Oregon from Virginia . Most of my sadness and anger comes from this state.
I’ve never been to the west coast though. But I feel like Portland would be nice . Oregon seems like it has lots of trees and nature .
I would feel so much better if I got away. I could meet totally new people, see new places , eat at new restaurants .
I hate seeing the same old boring stuff that’s been here since I was born […]
The empty bottles have been scattered over the bedroom floor. The fridge, filled with sealed bottles that are ready to be drunk. The temptation of just grabbing a bottle after one bottle that has been emptied is too strong. He throws the emptied bottle across the room because he’s forgotten where the trash goes. He can only find the winding way to the liquor. He’s forgotten about the world. He’s been too lost in his own world to deal with the real world. His pain and desires just don’t match up anymore. Nothing is enough. His cravings and his sorrows deepens him with every step […]
(Not a poem this time, I just need to rant)
I’m a size 8. I still feel like a size 18.
I wear a medium shirt. I still feel like a size XXL.
I look in the mirror and my face bloats.
I hate my eyes. I hate my smile. I hate the dimples in my cheeks. I hate my lips. I hate my chin.
It’s been getting worse lately and I don’t know how to stop the skewed perception I have of myself.
I go to the gym 3-5 times a week, I do yoga, I eat healthy (I’m vegan ffs) yet I still feel disgusting and guilty everytime I […]
I didn’t really know were else to come but here so…
I always feel sore somewhere, my hands have had problems for years, my back often gets sore as well as my feet when standing of walking for a long time. My knees can start to hurt too and sometimes my joints feel so uncomfortable, not in a hurting way though, just a weak way. Lately I have also been getting sore hips, or they just feel really weak.
I’m 15 year’s old and I’m quite athletic, I’m pretty sure I eat healthy (Healthy enough) and I am quite fit compared to most other people my age […]
It’s been a really shitty past couple of days.
I have realized that absolutely nothing makes me happy anymore.
I see and feel no point to anything that i do.
I hate going to class, i don’t care about my job.
I don’t have the ability to feel anything.
I don’t know why i haven’t left already.
People who talk about their will to attempt suicide and prevent others from suicide at the same time.
I’m not saying that if you feel suicidal, you should encourage everybody, but dammit, how could tell others that their lives are valuable when you can’t appreciate yours? Either stop bitching about how you want to throw your life away or stop lying about how life never should be thrown away.
i am trapped between suicide and survival. i want to die because i cannot live. but there are so many obstacles, and i am so tired… i don’t want to do anything substantial. i want to lay on the road and let someone else do all the work, but that would be incredibly selfish of me. (i know we’re not supposed to talk about methods, but that’s also a terrible method. don’t try it.) i want to fall asleep in the tub. sometimes i think about driving to the ocean and swimming until i can’t anymore, but i’m too afraid of the water. i feel […]
Very emotional beat it really is never a good time to say goodbye the best beat drop is at 0:23 and 1:43 I hope you enjoy it and feel the vibe
I woke up this morning, but i’m not happy to say i did. Tried to OD last night, but i threw everything up in my sleep apparently. I don’t know if i took enough, i was drunk when i took the pills. Was definitely enough to make me feel sick. My roomate (who was my fiance, broke up with me after cheating on me) isn’t here and i have no one to talk to. He usually helps me with this stuff, but i don’t feel like i can trust him anymore. I’m left with no one to talk to. Once i mustered enough strength to […]
It just hit me why im here … I just want to be able to talk to people who can relate and not just be ignored .. Ive been thinking a lot lately of doing self harm but i never get enough guts to do it … I dont know if im depressed but i feel like i am… Its so hard to live a life where everyone you care about ignores you or simply breaks your heart .. I really want to talk to people and for once not be ignored?
Does anyone ever feel really alone ? Like they dont have anyone or that the few people that “care about you ” end up hurting you the most .. I feel alone
Does it sound weird when I say that I feel beautiful on the inside but every time I look in the mirror I see someone who is ugly and worthless. That will not get anywhere in life. Does anyone know what I’m talking about? Any kind of helpful tips to not feel so down on myself. I would appreciate any kind of tips!
https://youtu.be/md0RKUjtuZQ
Do you guys feel the same vibe this song hits hard especially the way I feel at 0:30 the lyrics hit hard it’s an incomplete sentence
“afraid I’m not afraid if you can die, afraid I’m not afraid if you…”
But it has a lot of feel. Very relaxing but sad at the same time. This is also my first time ever posting here hope this was a good post to start with
I’m not mean, but I’m truthful.
I’m not crazy, I’m just unconventional.
I’m not alive, although I’m not dead.
I’m not depressed, however I am in pain.
I’m in pain because I’m conflicted. Why? Because I love dragging the sharp blade across my skin. The way it stings, the way my blood drips, the way it makes me feel.
Every once and a while, my cravings increase to a point of concern. It’s not longer just hurting myself by the pocket knife I keep by my bedside, it’s wondering what it would feel like to crash my car into a tree. What it would feel like to fall off of […]
There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.
does anyone else get the feeling when your walking everyone is judging you? that they are looking at you with eyes filled with sympathy. that you’ll never be good enough for them. or pretty enough? they feel sorry for your ass because they know that you’ll never be enough for anyone. and when you feel happy for a couple days and someone has to be a complete ***** and ruin it. yeah? because same.
This song so perfectly sums up how I often feel its uncanny.