So I’ve been on this circle where I am ok for like 3 weeks. You know still sad but not crying as much and then like a wave it hits me. Then I have this entire day were everything will send me over the edge and the first night is the worse. I cry uncontrollably and have panic attacks, I feel like I might die right then and there. Nothing helps, I have no one to talk to about this. My mom thinks I’m fine so I play the part. I had a breakdown 2 days ago so I’m back on the road towards […]
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First Night
This past month has been so many things; horrendous, miserable, cloudy with a chance of shit, amazing and terrible at the same time.
I attempted to make amends with my mother…she at the first opportunity sent me home said goodbye and drove off.
I tried to help a child in need but was chased away by an overprotective foster parent.
I made an effort to fit in and went to a part, somebody slipped something into my non-alcoholic drink and I ended up vomiting all over the front lawn
I found a boy…A boy who seemed to like me for me scars and all. I remember the first night we shared together, he took me to a […]
I am going more then school drama…
Everyday I thinks bout the motel..
I was trapped ina room..
Kidnapped…
I managed to get out late the first night..
It was a miracle..
Untouched..
Nobody knows..
I never told eneunoddy..
Everybody would judge me..
Tease me..
That’s how they are here…
I was gone two days…
Had to walk to find out where I was..
How far home was..
Nobody knew …
Nobody cared…
I hate my life..
I have much more going on then this in my life…
I have suicide thoughts…
Nobody is there for me..
Nobody’s helping me..
no real friends..
No real family..
There was this perosssn who spread fake rumors about me the second day of school..
Ruined me..
Everyone makes fun of me..
Everyday…
I have to deal […]
I remember the way your hair looked in rollers the first night you slept in your new room. You had bags under your eyes just like your dad, and I kinda knew why. I always seem to just know. The comforter on the bed was thin and had strange pink and blue pastel colored dots or some sort of design. I had no idea what kind of impact you would have on my future. The entire time I knew you I didn’t get a glimpse of what was bothering you, I just saw how it made you feel. If there was anything I could have […]
They say it gets better, and that it won’t last forever. But  I wonder when it will start for me?
It started 3 years ago. I had heard my parents fighting, and then my dad put a gun to his head and he said no one would care if he pulled the trigger. But his 12 year old daughter was watching from the doorway, and to her it mattered very much. I never told him I saw that, so he can’t understand how much that messed me up. That year was already bad. I was bullied for my weight and I’ve never really gotten over that. […]
so the ***** is at a friends house..YIPPEE!(: had the night to myself. the first night in weeks i gotta walk around the house not worying what my sister would do to me. normaly, i leave a room and she screams. the other day she beat me with a hanger for stepping out of her room to change a song on utube im supposed to watch her clean her room not focus on music…anyways she comes home in a few hours…DAMN but a plus side: mom outa the house today (***** is nicer when its just dad home). i wish my morning can last forever […]
Every day I hope that something can happen to make this easier for me. On my way to work, can someone run a red light and hit my car, can I just not wake up, can something out of my control happen, to just get me out of here. I don’t want to be here, and I haven’t for about a year. All these people who die in accidents, who are murdered, who just DIE… and here I am. Nothing…
I’ve been cutting for almost 10 years… I’m 24 years old, with the same habits I had in high school… it was never a ‘I want […]
Ok it’s 2 am and I can’t sleep. Not only that, I know this feeling, the way my body feels when it’s starting one of those two-three week periods of time where I will not get any sleep… My most depressed moments… This is the first night of this one I have probly at least 2 weeks and no one I know is up at this hour and I’m so lonely and bored it hurts…Â Tired, lonely, bored, missing my razor… So if anyone at all wants to talk I’m here. or you can text me
I don’t really know how to tell anyone these things but I’m at breaking point, I can’t find comfort from the only two people who stick by me…
I’m fifteen years old and I get bullied every day at school for being ‘Emo’ I don’t understand why. They don’t know my past..
When I was younger my Mom and Dad would argue a lot, I’d end up crying myself to sleep wishing that they could just get along, That was until my Dad started hitting me, at first it would be on rare occasions then it was every night. I was so scared even now I’m scared […]
Thank you for the replies sent to me to tell you a bit more about me i will,
when i was 4 years old I was hit by a car the driver worked for the goverment and he was driving drunk when he hit me with his car i went 20 feet at the time in the air came down hard on my head this kept me in hospital for 6 months with stuff all over my head then when Iwas 6 years old i had to share a bed with one of my uncles while in the bed with him I was made to […]