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Life in a Cage Tailored Just for Me

by Realm of Great Darkness 12/11/2014

My life has been hell for the longest while. I’m at a point now where I’ve lost all drive, and wish to die. My family hasn’t been there for me in years, and the job I have now is a ever ending fest of self-important douches who see the world within themselves and no-one else. Though, I suppose that’s California in a nutshell.

I’m Tessa, an introverted woman in her early thirties who has found herself living a strictly independent life since the age of fourteen, void of any friends, lovers, or anything else that might shape her life in normality. Nice to meet all of […]

12/11/2014 5 comments

It’s raining

by nozmoking 12/4/2014

written by nozmoking

It’s raining
I used to love the sound of rain. It calmed me. It drizzled through the leaves in the tree in the rose garden when we huddled together and ate sushi one afternoon. That is all gone now. Gone forever.

It’s raining
I can see her dancing in the yard with nothing but a big floppy hat. The rain made her happy. It washed away all of her tears and all of her fears. There are no more tears. She is no more.

It’s raining
How I loved to walk in the rain. Walking for miles on end. I could leave everything I hated, and that […]

12/4/2014 5 comments

Empty Cold Dark and Hollow

by HereticBlood 11/25/2014

written by HereticBlood

A constant question I ask.. How did I get here? How did I get to this empty dark place? A few ppl have said that I am not to blame for my past. But what if I fought harder to prevent all this torture I have now? What if I could’ve prevented the nightmares and seeing his face feeling his hands and his breath. Smelling his disgusting sweat and hearing his disturbing voice? What if I am the one to blame? I feel as though he shouldn’t get away with all he did while I sit and remember every last thing.. Yet he has no […]

11/25/2014 3 comments

Alone

by xenomorph 11/24/2014

written by xenomorph

So after a long time of being up and down mood wise, it’s really hitting me how lonely and depressed i am. Friends do exist, a couple of them, but i’m not close to anyone now. Sometimes i just want people who are feeling like this to talk to, people on here get it, and from other posts seem really nice and supportive. I have been looking to take my life, but it’s what i would be doing to the small family, mum and grandmother, it would tear them apart, and if i went no one who could take care of my dog, my dog […]

11/24/2014 4 comments

Suicide note

by secretz180 11/22/2014

written by secretz180

It wasnt always like this…. Growing up I thought I had the world, I had parents that loved me and loved each other… I had friends that no matter what where always their for me. Growing up I was always shy, and had low self esteem. But it didn’t get to me until I was 15. My mom cheated on my dad, she now has a new boyfriend who is mean. I lost all my friends, I pushed them away. I became depressed, suicidal, cutting myself, getting high, drinking, I wanted to die. I hated myself. I planned to do it multiple times, but every […]

11/22/2014 8 comments

Oceans Between Us

by GalaxyEyesXx 11/19/2014

written by GalaxyEyesXx

This is my first post on this site though I have read many stories that I relate to deeply. I have had depression since pre-pubescent years and suicidal ideation since fourth grade. A feeling of worthlessness has always presided over my life; I have never been able to fit in and because of that it only reinforces the fact that I don’t belong here. After many attempts to free myself from this world, I am composing a final plan to sever the silver chorde. Before you say that I need to seek help, let me assure you that I decided to seek help for years […]

11/19/2014 7 comments

Inspiration

by need2go 11/14/2014

written by need2go

Well, I found this youtube channel few weeks ago and then this video. I think you all should watch it, its free.

11/14/2014 0 comment

if i were about to be murdered…

by pxckll 11/13/2014

written by pxckll

if someone pointed a gun to me and was going to shoot me, id take the gun and do it myself… nobody will get the satisfaction that they killed me except for me… theyve all caused me enough pain as it is. i wont let them finish what they started so maybe theyll have the feeling of being incomplete and empty wondering why it couldnt have ended their way… someone try and drown me… help me set myself free…

11/13/2014 1 comment

Gone & Forgotten

by fallenstars101 11/4/2014

written by fallenstars101

An 18 year old, senior in high school. She found a way to survive for 6 years and finally set herself free. The pain and anxiety got to her. The depression ate her alive from the outside in. The tears lay on her pillow case where she suffocated herself the night before. Her father, still the drunk he was before, still doesn’t realize that his screams actually got to her. He doesn’t understand that after every hit, it pushed her off the edge more. Her mother, still the druggie she always has been, doesn’t understand that it’s not easy having a parent that would rather […]

11/4/2014 3 comments

Hollow & Directionless

by corezmontey 11/1/2014

written by corezmontey

damn. 19, nearly 20 and I’m still a distant son to my parents. I haven’t seen them in years.

never has it really been any different.
I really don’t want to spout the same generic things that people would expect to hear.
I don’t want to be just another. I hope no one reads this. Its like letting the public know
but hoping they close their eyes, and don’t listen

neglectfulness fills my life.
I was in hopspital 3 years ago, I was a lot worse then.
I was really gone back then…I can’t remember much of it.
But now, although the doctors shone that light in […]

11/1/2014 2 comments

Hey :3

by Blake SinBad 10/28/2014

written by Blake SinBad

Well well…seems like every time I take a trip down memory lane to this site, there’s oodles of new people and none of my old friends left…I wonder if they ever visit? Anyway, hey guys. Name’s Blake SinBad and I thought I’d let you know that I’m always open to talk or vent to if you need a hand or someone to listen to you. Totally free from judgement of any sort. I promise.

email: frejashinepaws@gmail.com
kik: xXFrejaShinePawsXx
Tumblr: just click on my link and use my ask box
Phone: HAHAHAAHAHHAHA no.

Sometimes I find that strangers are the best form of medicine…

I promise I’m not a […]

10/28/2014 8 comments

Nights Are When the Monsters Come Out to Play

by StarsShineInDarkness 10/24/2014

written by StarsShineInDarkness

My darkness rises with the moon.

Every night I live the same war.

To cut or not to cut. (Sorry, I’m a Shakespearean geek)

But I know that it’s never really a question.

I can picture the blood, feel the burn, and I know it’s coming and that I can’t stop it.

It should probably scare me, or at least make me feel a little nauseous.

But as usual, I feel nothing.

I know the blood will set me free.

At least until the moon visits again.

10/24/2014 2 comments

Society is a prison

by ClairDeLune 10/23/2014

written by ClairDeLune

Do what your supposed to do all day long; job, education or whatever else. You do it because society wants you to do it. There’s no true freedom if you’re told from the first second you’re on this earth that your life is already planned out ahead of you and you only have to live through it and then die.

Freedom means creativity, means purpose in doing something. A true act of freedom is drawing a sunflower on the back of the essay you’re working on, is wearing a pink hoodie to your bank appointment, is going to sleep without setting the alarm, is saying hi […]

10/23/2014 6 comments

Making a New Life

by harikiri 10/23/2014

written by harikiri

I am reborn into the self I always knew I was deep down. I have shed all of my hang ups. I am no longer pitifully socially anxious. I can talk to anyone and am totally free of mental torment. I have always been good at public speaking actually, even at my most anxious.

I am over-educated and have no desire to go to any more classes. I need to start teaching.

How, where, and about what are the only questions that remain.

Just sharing this, no replies are required.

10/23/2014 1 comment

I hate him.

by SxicidalGxrl 10/22/2014

written by SxicidalGxrl

You know that feeling that you get every time you get so scared that your heart feels like it’s going to drop to your stomach? Like there is someone ripping your heart out, artery by artery? That’s the feeling I get every time I lay my eyes on him. He ruined me. He ruined my family. The love, the trust, everything. It all vanished because of that selfish old man. Why me? Why us? What did WE do to deserve to go through these horrible couple of years? We were nothing but kind to him. We helped him in any way possible. He seemed kind to us […]

10/22/2014 4 comments

I hate my life.

by The_Stressed_One 10/21/2014

written by The_Stressed_One

I hate my life.

I hate my life because I am too stressed. I have been pouring over textbooks my whole life and I have been judge by my peers many many times. I can tell you ,any educational facts, but I cannot tell you the value of security and/or kindness. I can tell you many people have attempted to take their lives because of school. I can tell you that mistakes are viewed as failures in many hallways. A wrong answer is a sin you must atone to, not a human error, but a flaw so grand it defines your life course. When I get […]

10/21/2014 1 comment

If you love something, set it free

by StarsShineInDarkness 10/16/2014

written by StarsShineInDarkness

I met a boy. He asked me out. And I was excited. Until I remembered.

I come from a different world than him. I come from a world that preys on the innocent and the ignorant and rots them from the inside out. I come from a world that takes pleasure in pain, in blood, in tears. My world is the worst kind of war, the worst kind of pain, the worst kind of silence.

And I have a responsibility to never let him into that world. I cannot introduce another innocent, beautiful soul into this darkness. I cannot let the pain take away his laugh and […]

10/16/2014 4 comments

by Slowly_Fading 9/30/2014

written by Slowly_Fading

I get told I’m fat. I weigh 130 with a height of 5’6.5″ I now eat small portions, try not to eat anything in between meals, and I go to bed at night and dream of the food I could eat. I get up from the table and feel so hungry. I want to eat so much more but I can’t let myself eat. I have a congressional debate meet this friday-saturday. We can’t wear bracelets…. I will be so vulnerable I’m not looking forward to it. I got told today that I work too hard and need to stop trying so hard. I study […]

9/30/2014 11 comments

last song you’ll listen to?

by death bunny 9/30/2014

written by death bunny

I posted this question long ago and eventually deleted it.
So, what is the last song you’re planning to listen to before you die? Or, if you have a playlist feel free to share.

9/30/2014 9 comments

Into, Regeneration; Godspeed

by Bisban 9/27/2014

written by Bisban

It’s starting to smell
Should I follow the plan
The walking feet of life
We will conquer the land

God of the sky, Zeus
Ultimate Hercules
One day when I am free
And it’s just me

Finally, the twisted curse over
I heard some weird sounds
There’s only one thing now
Gotta’ get the fuck out

Is it one month or three more days
The earth, I feel, rock of ocean
The water beats but not my mother
Nobody

It was all our curse. Bide the time.

9/27/2014 2 comments

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