Face it, friends want something. Whether it’s companionship, belonging, someone to talk to, someone to drive them home when they’re piss drunk, someone to borrow money from, someone to move furniture for free, or whatever, they want something. A successful friendship is based on a fair balance of giving & receiving these things. But some of us don’t want and don’t need any of those things. As a result we end up giving everything and receiving nothing. Friends serve no logical purpose. Oh but try going through life without friends and society labels you a freakshow, a misanthrope, a socially maladjusted head case. So every […]
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I’ve been reflecting on a friendship that I ended 11 months ago due to my depression, at the time I thought that I was doing what was best for me while trying to keep them in mind but now I realize the effect it had on them, at the time I made the decision to end our friendship because I felt like I didn’t want to bring my negativity around them and bring them down but now I realize why it hurt because they felt like I didn’t like them I made a promise to myself that once I got rid of my problem I […]
I’m 13 years old, turning 14 in March 13. I’m here again. Alone. I’ve been sexually abused by two family members and physically abused by almost every single person in my family. I’ve been beaten with objects. I can still taste the blood inside my mouth when it got busted and bruised. I’m insecure. I have cuts all over my legs and arms. And I have P.E too, we’re forced to wear shorts, I have to run everyday in the lockers and change as fast as possible making sure no one is able to see. I keep my razor inside my phone case, just in […]
So, the story is: my family and I had as friends another family (my friend, her mom, her dad and her brother) since I was a little baby.
They were like family to me, my friend was like my sister, her brother was like my brother and her parents were like my second parents. They had always treated me VERY well, as part of the family, and so did we, we are all very united.
Problem is: my friend’s dad, in a point in my childhood, had sexually abused me. He didn’t rape me at all, just touched me and had ALOT of physical contact. I never […]
I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so lost and it’s such a long story I don’t know where to begin. There’s this boy and I’ve known him for a little over a year now. We became very fast friends and I told him everything. The first day we ever really talked I told him everything. I was sexually abused as a child, I was raped multiple times by a man I called my grandfather. He told me his life story, his troubled past with his parents, his horrible past relationship. We talked every day, all day. I moved to his city and got […]
whatever ill use the tags in the title general rant, but one more fucking day and i am done with this bullshit and turning out the fucking lights.
by ezrakata
written by ezrakata
theres nothing i can say or do is there? well it wouldnt matter if you said yes or no bec it doesnt change the fact that there is nothing i can ever say or do that is the right thing- i thought I was doing the right thing and now i have no idea about anything really. even though my life was screwy I had these constants that were just there…certainties that I thought well if this ship goes down at least these things will still be around. at least i have this or at least i have that. reality check you dont have anything […]
Dear Lemon,
I guess this is it. This is what looks like the end of our friendship. I wish you’d at least tell me straight – at least say something – but I guess, given what all of us are going through, and what you specifically are going through, that’s been too much to ask. I don’t know how to feel about this. A part of me feels guilty, but I guess neither of us handled this well.
I thought I’d be dead at this point. And yet… I’m not. I guess I’m in the place where it literally hurts more than I could ever imagine. I […]
(Sorry 4 my english i’m chilean) Why is always my fault? The answer from my parents always is “all these problems are your fault” really? Because all the problems starts 3 months ago when i played truant and i admit i play with my parents trust but they took off everything, i can’t go out, i can’t use my 10 ear rings and they say that ALL my friends are bad people and influence… I was desperate i was always wrong and always in a fight with them.. And i cut my veins by the first time e 3 months ago. Now only 3 people […]
Why I am so paranoid…
Why I refuse to make new friends…
Why I always hide what I feel behind tongues…
Why I think the worst of people whom I had never met…
Why I never get close to anyone…
Well, I will tell you.. But only once for my memory isn’t the best and reliving what had happened only scars me even more…
He was there for me. He wasn’t my significant other or anything, in fact he was more of a big brother to me. You see I used to have an older brother, but he passed away due to cancer.. After many years of not having and older […]
I saw the sadness in your eyes,
How they’d always seem to stray.
I saw the cuts upon your thighs,
How they didn’t go away.
I saw all the long-sleeved shirts,
How you’d blame it on the cat.
I was through your “skinny” wall,
How you’d always call yourself fat.
I saw how boys had treated you,
How they never seemed to stay.
I saw how you cried in your car,
How you never returned that day.
I hope you saw how I needed you,
How I can’t fight the demons alone.
I hope you know how a friendship takes two,
How I can’t do this on my own.
I need to stop running away from all my problems. It’s not like they’ll disappear if I turn my eyes away. They’ll just keep building up and up until it not only affects me but everyone else in my life… But, that’s so much easier said than done.
I don’t talk to anyone anymore–what few “friends” I had, my family…no one. I’ll send the rare text from time to time to let them know I’m alive, but…if they try to start a conversation or call me I just ignore it. I don’t know how to face them anymore. I’m so disappointed with myself and what my […]
I have another problem ….. The girl i love… I have no idea what to thing she´s like pretending a friendship but just a second latter she says like she really likes me … Like one day all students of our school was in cinema and she was going with her best friend something about 20 meters behind me and when we arrived in the cinema she ran to me and wanted to sit down right next to me but in the last second my shoolmate did that and she sad “thats a pity”(in slovak and i dont know a better words to say that […]
Maybe I need to live in hell on earth before I can ascend into heaven? I feel as though my life on earth is just a plain hell. I walk, aimlessly, seeking some type of purpose. It never seems to be attainable.
I think out of my whole life, i was only happy for a year. After that, I never found that kind of joy again or magic so to speak. I know compared to others, I should be grateful for what I do have. I just cannot seem to be uplifted.
I look at myself and just feel disgust. Maybe my life is an evil joke […]
I just cant see a reason to go on.
I have lost everything in the recession. I was lucky and found a new job in a new place. I found a job I loved. I was a respected professional. I was doing so well. Had my life back on track. I befriended a coworker. We were both in a new city and both new with the company.
I had a new home with a yard for my dogs. Slowly our friendship grew and we both helped each other to do amazing at our new jobs. I started […]
There are those that you trust & those that you enjoy spending time with right?
My friend is leaving the country for a long time. Happy for him, better life where his going anyways! I’ve helped him out when he had his huuuuge fallout with his ex, I was the “shoulder to cry on” friend. He was aaalways calling me his bestfriend, being appreciative about my existence and shared with me everything he thought I should know. ha sooo I could say I was pretty much his little treasure box, we were good friends! I didn’t see him more or less than a friend, sooo he […]
I’m 17 Â years old and i really want to die right now. As a child i was sexually abused by my uncle. My dad is a jerk. My mom is a control freak. She wants me to do things that I don’t love. I even cried in front of her for like 10x already. I begged her many times that I really want to do what I love. They are all the same my grandma, uncles, aunts. My friends they just love me for my money. I was bullied in school for being ugly. I have low self esteem. I really want to make some […]
All my life I have heard the phrase, “It gets better”, well I am living proof that no it does not, at least it hasn’t in my experience. If my life was going to get better, and stop from spiraling out of control, then wouldn’t it have gotten at least a little bit better by now? I mean it has been over six years, and nothing has changed, it has only gotten worse. I’m tired of living, of my suicide attempts failing, only to wake up from yet again another failure, whilst the madness and chaos that is my life resumes. No one cares about […]
The recession destroyed life as I new it. Having been laid off 3 times in 2 years, I left my home and started over in a new town. The first 10 months were a struggle to survive, and then it finally paid off. I landed my dream job. Still alone in this new place 800 miles from friends and family, I made the mistake of befriending a female co-worker. She approached me a couple of weeks after we both started working at the same company. She had moved to the same town with a boyfriend of 7 years and they had broken up. She was […]
Okay. Hi. I don’t know what posting here will do, I think I’d just like to share my thoughts on this somewhere. I’ll cover the steps I’ve taken, the thoughts I’ve idled over and my plan.
For my own reasons (which I won’t share, I’m not here to do that) I have decided that I am going to die. I’ve put a lot of thought into this, and death, and am okay with that decision. It has been in the works for a number of years. I have doubts, which I’ll cover, because anyone who can say they’re facing a big decision with no doubt is […]
please do not try to judge me, but thinking about it now, i don’t think a human being should even need friends.
i’m not saying they r a waste of time, but they aren’t “requiered” to live. Any man can live and be sane without having to interact with many other humans. actually, people need friends to one, know how to interact, two, keep up with news, or three, know what to be sane it.
but being sane isn’t of one quallity, besides the quality of being sane. sane can mean go along with killing millions of people who go by that religion and be normal. or sane could […]