I can’t feel anything because I feel all of itI met him 3 days after I moved back to seattle. And I have been with him since. But in the year that I have been with him I have hung out with friends 2 days. Other than that I’m alone all the time. And tonite was the last straw. I told him about me picking up my tanks Friday and he told me to shut the fuck up with my baby shit. I didn’t want to admit that he doesn’t love me. He used to like me and I make good money. Whowouldn’t keep around […]
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I’ve been suicidal since 6th grade , I’ve been cutting since 6th grade as well , my ”family” does absolutely NOTHING to help me they just make everything worse.. To top it off , they say stupid shit to piss me off such as ”oh she’s gonna’ starve her self now” well maybe I am. Fuck eating.  Fuck everything.. I just cant live my life like this anymore. Today I cut my entire body up.. I’m hoping the next cut I do will kill me. I don’t know what to do , and it seems like no one cares about me.. so why not just leave?
So i dont know its been a couple of days since i decided im going to stop hurting myself. I havent failed. But my emotions are everywhere. Im a mess. I just want to die, i havent thought how id do it, but last night i dreamt i hung myself. And i felt the almost life draining out of me in my dream. It was amazing, i felt relieved. Then i woke up, and im still alive, thinking to myself, i wanna die. I just wish it wasn’t so hard to leave all my loved ones :'( i dont know what to do anymore. If […]
i fought through everything in my life, starvation, homeless, abandment, even times i wanted to take a bunch of pills and end it or excape for a little while,i stopt abusing pills when i was 19,i thought if u fight like u want what you see and want what you crave in life then it has to happen,my family dont give a shit about me, my dad only calls to ask if i heard from my twin and how shes doing, can somebody atleast act like they care?o i forgot ,people do, and they end up showing who they really are wen they leave you […]
What do you want me to tell you people? i just dont like myself and who would like me for what i do? who would like a lier?  in general i dont like my body, the way i dress, the way i take desisions, my whole way of  thinking, the way i talk, laugh, act … thats preatty much everything right? ive got parents that dont want me to look the way i want to take desisions or even speak up… im supposed to be a doll right? is that the way life is going? to shutup and listen and obey?  also people cant have […]
i love you so much, but where are you? Hurry up and meet me you fuck. Hurry up and save me cant you see life is slipping? And time is ticking? Let’s not waste a moment. I don’t known your there. So prove me wrong. Come out of hiding and love your little punk Rick princess your little junkie masterpiece. Because I kinda need you now. Everyone else keeps telling me I’m worthless, or I’m a ***** or a ****. Tell me I’m pretty and be my valentine. That’d be nice of you. I mean I’m pretty enough. I want you to tell me I’m […]
Ah, it’s not going better.. 7 days. 7 days without my best-friend and lover… 7 days..
I’m just 7 days without him and i can’t imagine more 80 years like that… Why we couldn’t just be happy?
You guys are speaking here about wish to die and so on, but i am sorry… i am hurted as hell and when i type here i feel like i talked with someone…
Now, when i don’t feel any anger, black minds and so on – all i do is remembering our perfect moments..
And it’s not good, because im going back to suffer again. But the good thing i’m not blaming […]
I will not kill myself! i will not take your crap . you will no longer play mind games with my emotion. i dont care that your my father you can go to hell and burn. To ever bully that ever teased me… FUCK YOU. You know what you guys are? pussies! spineless maggots that fed off my need to be like everyone else. One time i would have gave in and died. but now if i ever see you again DAD i will sock you in the teeth until someone bleeds. and it wont be me. To the man that raped me as a […]
It’s true I’m worthless. I’m not going anywhere or doing anything. No one wants me or cares about me. No one really understands me. The people around me like me sure, but they wouldn’t be too sad if I went away. I just cant handle the mediocrity anymore. I feel sick to my stomach. I want to puke my guts out and die. I can’t do this. I can’t keep going through the motions, trying to figure why the fuck I’m here. It’s too overwhelming. It’s too much. I want to curl up in a ball and cry, and I do every night. I know […]
I won’t lose, I’ve been sitting back, defeating myself for quite some time now. This battle has been ongoing for as long as I can remember. I’m not going to lose. No, I can’t lose. I won’t suffer any longer. I’m coming back down to reality some. I hope it’s for real this time. I’m hitting back. I’m regaining my composure. Fuck this, I’m going to come back better than ever. I’ve got nothing to lose and everything to prove. My mind will be free. I feel like I’m comin back. Let’s pray it stays this way. I’m a fighter dammit.
im crushed. im hurt. ive hit rock bottom.im screaming for help but no one cares no one is listening.
written by thegirlwhocryedwolf
I very much hope that at least one person
in the entire world reads this,because
it would make me feel as though someone
somewhere gives one single flying fuck about me.
I did a stupid thing I put my heart out there
and ended up getting crushed
So here’s the story is:
Jasmine, her boyfriend James,and his brother Nick where having a
sleep over at jasmines house.They only invited Nick because
Jasmine thought I would come over to keep him company.
He had recently been dumped and he was a bit sad.
But I was at my dads house for the weekend.
So since Nick felt like a third wheel James asked if I would […]
I don’t really know what to name this post. By the time I finish posting it’ll be past midnight. At night is when my mind is most active. I think about the same shit over and over and it continually replays in my head. I hate having memories. I have an excel one and I feel cursed by it. I just want to go back in time or start my life completely over. I’ve always felt this way. I can’t envision my future at all. It’s like it isn’t even there. I just wish I could get a break through. Just once i wish something […]
I went back to school today, it was the worst couple of hours ever! Was hoping for a fresh start but kept getting dirty looks from people. I feel insecure as it is. I can’t stand the way I am. I hate myself I don’t need someone else to tell me what a fuck up I am. Thought I would have a fresh start with people I considered friends instead I was greeted with a “fuck you!” and someone else shaking their head at me. The thought that kept running through my mind was ‘what am I doing here? Why didn’t I just end it […]
so I admitted to my parents that I wanted to commit suicide after getting into another big argument… but they don’t give a fuck. so whatever then. fuck it.
I dont know anymore what do to , what do think. My girlfriend had anoxeria and bulimia. She got over it. But the aftermath is that all the time shes somekind of sick and ill. Through the Year she chanced she started to getting annoyed by everythink. and she always say i wanna pick a fight or some shit. we still love each other but i cant go on for over a month i havent seen here and always when we wanna see us there is some problem that we cannot see eachother atm it the problem that shes annoyed and she dont want to […]
you know when you say you hate someone, and then everything they do seems to annoy the fuck out of you?….well thats where i am in my life right now. im at the point that i hate everything i say and do.
 i hate the way i speak, my voice seems too boyish to be a girl. was i meant to be a man?
 i hate the way i walk. was i born with a fucking stick up my ass?
 i hate the way my breasts make my shirts tight. i just wish i was flat chested like everyone else in my family!
 i hate the way i look. […]
Spent New Years Eve completely alone. I have nothing left to live for. I have no real friends, no job, no education, am ugly, have never had a girlfriend and am still a virgin in my mid 20’s. I have never even kissed a girl. Truly pathetic. I have crippling social anxiety and am too scared to even go about seeing a prostitute. I just need to muster up enough energy and courage to go through with my plan and not fuck up and I will never have to endure another moment as myself… I genuinely wish everyone that is here who still have hope […]
I hate myself so fucking much.
It’s quite hard.. to explain how much I hate the way I am.
And I hate my gorgeous, skinny, perfect friends too for saying that they are ugly.
Shut the fuck up.
I would honestly kill to look like them.
I am never happy with myself.
I can’t do anything right.
I’m ugly.
Fat.
Stupid.
Worthless.
Disgusting.
I just hate it.
Why was I given this body.
Why?
I’m just wondering if maybe anybody else has considered this.
I don’t want to end my life right now. But there was a time when I did. Twice, I came very close. I knew how I was going to do it both times. Neither time did I actually recall changing my mind, but instead realized at some point I’d decided not to. That was three years ago now, and I have not since come so close. But I’ve thought about it.
So here’s what I think-
Once you’ve thought about killing yourself (and I mean really thought about it, like planned it out and made […]
I’m stressed the fuck out, January 6th I goto jail for 2months… I’m so tempted to end it all. fuck I don’t know what to do any more, Jail is the worse place to be I have severe social anxiety and I know I will be having panic attacks all day long……… I can’t even goto the mall without feeling so nervous, jail is gonna destroy my soul. I just wanna goto sleep at night and never wake up again. end is near! fml