I’m afraid of my exam. 2 months more. I feel I wanna suicide. I may get bad grades. I’m little weak. If I fail my 1st time advanced exam is that the end of my future success. Please help. I can’t make my parents sad either with my bad grades. I’m suicidal. Your comments are highly appreciated.
Someone once told me that since I am the oldest child in my family that pressure and stress comes with the job… He also said “it’s you that has to take the bullet for them” I feel as if I’ve taken the whole clip of a machine gun for them, but as I lay here surrounded by my suicidal thoughts… I cant help but hope that one day someone will step up and take the bullet for me… But by the looks of things that’s not in the near future anytime soon…..
I could commit suicide. I know what it would do to my family. Sometimes that is enough but the probability of future despair and current pain. If I have no hope it will get better, why bother.
so it seems my options now are go to live in the new mexico desert, in a bedbug-infested trailer with my sister and her husband, who can barely support themselves… or stay here with my parents, in a home of alcohol and violence, where nothing will ever change. i have to choose one or the other by the 2nd. i’m not feeling very hopeful about my future, needless to say.
I stumbled apon this page today while desperately searching for an explanation to my constant desire to end my own life. The posts that I have read thus far have touched my heart and soul in ways i cannot imagine, i relate to so many of these posts. As i have just mentioned I found this page today so this is my first post.
I am a 20 year old university student, on the forefront i seem like I have the world figured out and a future most people only dream of but here is the truth: I am alone in this world that has been […]
Um, hi. So I’ve been visiting this site for a quite a few months now and finally feel like I dont want to lurk in the shadows any more. Perhaps its because my bf of seven years just broke up with me and I finally feel like I seriously want to end it now. Maybe I am just an attention seeking weakling that should just get over it… idk. All I do know is that I feel different about suicide now. Before the thoughts were scary but now they offer a sense of comfort. Planing different ways I could do it is more exciting to […]
It really says something when thoughts about life and the future makes you want to cringe, but when it comes to thoughts of death or sleeping for an eternity make you smile 🙂 .
I am wandering what is the purpose of living this torturing life if i have no aims or goals and ambitions for my future. I just think about my future and i can’t see something positive and give me a motive to fight for this future because my whole life was, is and will be fucked up forever. And my depression become worse and worse all the time.
The Earth is a beautiful place made to be walked by beautiful creatures. All around me I see ugliness, myself included. Laws should be introduced banning the ugly from showing their faces in public places. Separate areas should be made for ugly people and beautiful people, seperate schools, separate shops, separate bars. Ugly people should be banned from having children so that in future generations the ugly genes may be eliminated.
Realizing my future is fucked really messes with my head. Sometimes drawing helps. I like the outcome, but my head’s still a mess. 
i am just a girl
I have no super powers
My veins filled with blood
But as I lay here
Breathing, in tears
By the agony I feel
I become aware
My heart ripped out
Stomped on, destroyed
Did not alter the life
Continuing on in my soul
I am just a girl
Without a heart, no joy
No possible future
Nowhere left to go
I have no super powers
But here I am
Against allodds
I still stand
I am just a girl
Without any hope
Void of will
I AM NO SUPER HERO!
So please tell me why
Against all the odds
why do I stand here still?
It is a strange thing to look back upon one’s past and find that all the hopeless despair that one had envisioned for one’s self, to be found true. Worse still, to be it greater.
My first memories were from when I was 7 years old. Ever since then I have regularly wanted to die. Without break or pause, that sentiment has held as true as the flesh on my body (as scared as it may be). I had long since, premonitioned my demise and I can’t help but feel abhorrent at its truth.
I can’t even begin to describe the shear loneliness and despair that has consumed me. It […]
1. We exist
2. Every action has an equal reaction
3. We are the Universe and the Universe is us
4. Change is continuous
5. There is no past or future, only now.
She stood by the bedpost and looked out the window
Her voice was a whisper
Save me it muttered to the darkness
The moonlit room was a hollow heart
Much like the one inside her chest
Beating one, two, one, two
She put a dark red capsule into her mouth
And as a single tear rolled down her cheek
She looked back on everything she’d seen in her life
No more, her voice so soft she wasn’t sure she was even speaking
Her heartbeat slowed
Her eyes closed, tired of seeing the moon
And the last thing she saw was her eyelids
Locking the door […]
I love you more than my own life… you swore to me marriage and a future… you swore to always love me… and now I don’t even know if you’ll be here… you may leave… please… don’t go… the millions of chances I’ve given you, just give me one… you PROMISED to work through this with me, no matter how hard… please… don’t go…
I have been confined to my house for 3 years and confined to bed for long periods of time due to severe, progressive Rheumatoid Arthritis and Anemia. These are my 2 worst health problems out of 30+ diagnosed chronic illnesses.
If you see me on the very rare occasion at a store, you would assume I am heathy. This is why the term “invisible illness” describes many conditions when visible effects of the illness have yet to appear.
My family finally accepted that I need regular rest, i’m crabby, and i am constantly experiencing pain when I was diagnosed with RA. Now they leave me […]
God reached his hands down from the sky
God asked Noah if he wanted to die
He said “No Sir! Oh no Sir!”
God said, “Well then, here’s your future; it gonna rain”
then He flooded the land and He set it on fire
He said “fear me you fool, and know I’m your father,
remember that no one can breath underwater”
then God told his son it’s time for a boat,
He promised Noah would’nt die all alone,
“I need you to pay for the sins I create”
his son said “i will, but dad i’m afraid!”
“Well, here’s your future”
They really do. They hurt so much that sometimes I really wish I could be all alone in this world. I wish I had no family or friends, that I could live entirely on my own. And sometimes I envision a future where that’s how I really live. Phone calls to my parents, occasionally, gifts mailed out during the holidays to some of my relatives, but nothing more than those few interactions. Nothing face-to-face or substantial. The only downside to this grand future is that I am inherently extroverted, and isolation feeds my depression and anxiety and ultimately makes me feel worse. I need people […]
Hey there. So, I’m back again on this website, for the third time. Three major bouts of suicidal thoughts and depression. But that’s besides the point. Earlier this year, I began my freshman year of high school, and with it, the best years of my life, as I have been told so many times. Unfortunately, that promise is not living up to expectations. I was placed into a college preparation program by my middle school teachers, though I decided not to sign up for it last year because I didn’t want to have too much on my plate. Additionally, at the start of the year, […]
What are your thoughts?
Im still in highschool but im wondering if i should go or not go because its so much money and more time spent in school. And once I graduate Its not that easy to find a job, and I don’t know.
I’m freaking out a bit
I don’t want to go to college but I also don’t want to wake up and hate my life and regret not going to college. I honestly thought about killing myself right after highschool just so I don’t have to deal with my future.
But I know that’s not the way to go its just a thought
Im also not […]