Why god Why take my unborn Childs life away?
It was so innocent not even bigger then my hand.
not even knowing what the sex was..
why do this to me and my little family?
why why why!
It was my little miracle and you ripped it from my heart and took my gift away from me, why?
Their are other girls with baby’s , girls who don’t even want them!!! I wanted mine!!! other girls get so scared , but I didn’t , I was excited and the most happiest girl , but u took that from me! Why why WHY!!!!!!
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So my 20th birthday was a few days ago and things looked like they were starting to get better. Wasn’t feeling depressed, as much, and looking forward to a new college course which starts on the 27th of August. Also got back into football (soccer) and even got invited to join a couple of teams after impressing in a game. Well, I played in a game tonight and I was awful! Got beat 3-1 and all 3 goals were my fault. I’m a goalkeeper by the way. Doubt I’ll get asked back. Birthday night out was rubbish aswell! Basically people used it as an excuse […]
then free I will be
death is the most beautiful thing that can happen to anyone who doesn’t accept this world the way it is
to anyone who doesn’t want to play by dirty rules
to anyone who wants to be him/herself without paying the price for it (hostile behavior from the sheeple, feelings of alienation, homelessness etc)
to anyone who doesn’t want to serve humanity nor God
to anyone who doesn’t want to be talked or drugged into enjoying being here
to anyone who’s eager to no longer be a part of the human species
to anyone who desires to be free above anything else
so yeah, FUCK your pro-life arguments .. […]
Where to begin, so im not bring god into this, but he has fucked me good, ok so i wasnt even looking for love and this person comes into my life, we both fall for eacho ther and now
Read this sentence, then close your eyes, take a deep breath and relax……Don’t worry. You are highly intelligent and as long as you stay focused on what you want to do and how you want to live, you will find a way to accomplish these things. You have a tendency to worry more than you need. I’m sure everything will be different and disorienting at first, but you’ll be back to your personal routine in no time. I am always here 919 381 2658. I don’t want you to risk contacting me anymore than is necessary, but know that I am always here and nothing […]
I don’t Know What Should I do.. Who Should I Talk.. I Am Going to die Soon..
by Shivi
written by Shivi
I am Just a Person Like you all.. I also live a Unwanted life.. I am living but nobody can see that By each Passing day I am dieing.. I am killing myself inside.. My soul is no more.. I am Spiritually dead.. But I physically Smile Only for the ones who love Me.. And I don’t know why!
I know how it feels to cry alone in the blanket.. just crying and crying!! I don’t know what my future gonna be! My Parents constantly giving me Tensions and Tensions.. I am Killing myself inside in these Stress tensions..
Sometimes I feel “Relations are everything and the […]
I probably don’t seem like I’m going through a lot but to me, I am. Ever since I was a kid i was really emotional, I may have acted sooo tough. But in reality the most littlest things hurt me. I’m a girl btw, and I was one fat ugly girl when i was young. I was always hated ever since I was 6. Everybody in every school I went to always hated me. For some reason and i swear to God i was soo nice and I didn’t talk much,  I still remember I use to have this little doll my cousin made me, and I […]
i almost fully had the will to continue on living..then i go to a friends house and her sister tells me she is tryin to split my bf and i by telling my parents im still secretly dating him. my parents find out; i wont have internet access at all! let alone my bf? i cant live without him, hes half the reason im still alive and if i lose internet access il lose the other half, i cant let that happen…but if she does tell she has no proof. haha jokes on her now but still freaking i just might lose everyone close to […]
hi guys… Im Elico (I despised my real name so I use this…
Im gay… Hehe, though I people find it hard to believe I am one since thay say Im a ‘good actor’ or something…
I dont have friends… I guess Im a natural loner or whatever… But I waited and looked, no one was there… I trusted several people, but all where the same, some abandon me after myself confessign to them, some got simply tired as I was clingy… some, just… stopped.
Dont ask if I have a lover or whatever, Im ugly maybe… and somehow I lost interest in stuff liek that…
Family? Theyre all […]
I swear to god, there is something very unnatural about capitalism; it is dehumanizing. I know I was not put on this earth to be a pawn in the system, and neither were you. I think that the industrialization of society was more of a curse than a blessing–sure, things are more convenient than they were 200 years ago, we live longer, have antibiotics, (is that really a good thing?….) but I would trade every convenience of modern society to be free from this system.
I am currently unemployed. Again. Do I want to go out and sell myself into wage slavery, again? NO. That’s right, NO. For some […]
Suicide is the only answer for me, don’t bother telling me otherwise, I’ve tried and failed before but I haven’t changed my mind. I’ve been unhappy and apathetic for as long as I can remember regardless of how hard I’ve tried to push myself or the different things I’ve tried. I just want the pain to go away, it’s really unbearable at times. I think about bad times in my life, about God, about all the bad people in the world, how bad the world is, how worthless I am, and often enough I picture myself dying in gruesome ways. I end up crying, shaking, […]
There’s very few people who know me really well. However, those who do know that I am, in fact, a shitty person. Everything about me is shit. I am selfish, ungrateful, bitchy, rude, and anything else with a similar negative connotation. I am not a good person. The worst part is that sometimes I don’t even notice it. I’ve hurt the person I care about the most. I’ve failed them. I’ve also failed myself. What’s the point of living in this world when you’re not benefiting it? I’m not going to do any good for anyone, so why should I be here? I despise myself […]
KILL ME JUST KILL ME ANYONE JUST DO IT NOW! IM idk weak? TO DO IT ON MY OWN! HOWEVER U WANNA IDC AS LONG AS IM GONE IM HAPPY! IVE TRIED AND TRIED YET FUCK IM STILL HERE! ANY MOMENT NOW IM GANNA NEED TO LET GO AND FALL DOWN TO WHERE EVER GOD TAKES ME BUT DAMN HE BETTER NOT BRING ME BACK HERE. SAD, DEPRESSED, IN TEARS AND BLOOD. can life get this low?SOMEONE DAMN IT JUST KILL ME. DO IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!
I don’t really know why I’m here. Just to vent I guess.. Well I’m 17. I’ve been depressed for god knows how long. I don’t really get along that great with my dad or mom. They both abuse me. I cut myself sometimes. I recently had to get stitches cause I went to far with the cutting. My boyfriend of 4 months was really the only reason I wanted to be alive, and didn’t kill myself. But tonight I received a text from his sister.. it said “Hey my brother is talking to other girls and my brother says that he loves them to you […]
My cousin did it. When he was eighteen, about a week before my fifteenth birthday. Eighteen years old. He had almost graduated high school. He was the greatest person in the entire world to me–my hero, my idol, my best friend. When he took himself away from us, I could not get it through my head. Why would he do this to us? Why would he deprive the world of his existence and leave the rest of us here to pick up the pieces? I simply could not understand.
Now that I am eighteen, I understand perfectly. He viewed the world the exact same way I […]
so I was recently sick I had lost so much weight it actually made me feel great of course I was sick and I couldn’t do a thing and I had to haveathlete surgeries but I was finally skin but people actually noticed and loved the new me so did I actually but ten I started gaining it all back on top of all of it I’m battling depression so knowing I’m fat again didn’t sit well with me do I started cutting myself which worked then but I’m now currently battling the urge to kill myself I really want to but then I chicken […]
Should I kill myself in front of them and would their lives be better?
by Ineed2die
written by Ineed2die
I won’t lie to you guys, I’m not like a lot of those people who use this site. I don’t have the worst life ever, I don’t want to kill myself since I don’t like living. I want to kill myself because either people would forget me or I would be making their lives a better place by giving them one less loser to worry about. My plan was to purchase a Maverick 88 shotgun and bring it to school with me, (I wouldn’t shoot any of my fellow students GOD NO! I could never do that) Hide it in a gym bag or something […]
Its not something I want to feel though. Because I know damn well I have so much ahead of me in life and I can’t just give up just like that. But the shit I’ve been through just barely pushes me over the edge sometimes. I often find myself thinking about how normal other peoples lives are and how I wish I was in their position. I think I’m too much of a ***** to commit suicide anyways, Â I dunno. I just feel like God has so much in life to offer for me. I have plenty of people to talk to but when it […]
The poor man is hated even by his own neighbor,
But the rich has many friends.
He who despises his neighbor sins;
But he who has mercy on the poor, happy is he.
Life’s Pain
Two divorces and child custody.
To do the right thing will require personal pain.
I can’t pay I can’t pay. I am falling behind in my payments to the world and the world is getting pissed.
I try to keep up but something always throws a wrench into things so I can’t keep up.
2 steps forward 2 steps back
God I want to quit, God I want to die.
Jesus protect me from the world I cannot continue. […]
I am only 13. And I think about suicide often. Im so young, and ive had it so hard. Things just confuse me so much. When I was 10 I made a “reasoning book” Every time something kills me a little more inside, and makes me think of suicide I write it down in my reasoning book. My plan is when I get to my 100th reason, I will finally try to seek help. I will ask for help. I will put all my trust on a line, and ask for help. And if finding help fails, It will be my last day to breathe. […]