I kept seeing movies and artworks like The Matrix, Avatar, Trons, Paprika (a 2006 anime, you guys have to really google youtube the trailer to know what I mean!), even from video games such as Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc
and then suddenly I ponder and saying to myself wow, all these humans’ creations & imaginations are really really fantastic and mind-blowing, that I wish they would be the real heaven, instead of the biblical heaven!
I mean gosh..it seems to me that the idea of biblical heaven seems to be: gold pavements (ew, boring), playing harp in eternity with God (ew, boring boring), and […]
I am not a competitive person, never be.
But even at age of 28 now, my parents and also society seem to teach me that Life is all about “winning, succeeding”, and most especially to “strive for the BEST”, which usually means to try to reach to the TOP, be the number ONE, be the BEST, etc etc.
But I guess I always admired and taken into heart deeply what an ex-pastor said:
“if everybody wants to become number one, then who will become number two, number three, etc??”
I think this is truly the Reality, that he speaks of. and that’s why I admired him for […]
Last night I’ve seen some posts that talks/mention about existential nihilism, and I think I used to have great discussion with my little brother about this..quite interesting.
However, like I’ve said before in some posts here, since “Hope” is always seem to be inherent in each human being (seems to be our given Nature), then it’s only logical for me to try to find the ‘loophole’ with that branch of philosophy (by now I’m sure we all know that all kinds of philosophies & even science can always be found the ‘loophole’ and sometimes for a Good purpose to improve for a better ones, this is […]
http://www.darkroastedblend.com/2008/09/most-alien-looking-place-on-earth.html
Maybe we all should just drop everything, and go there,
to really truly experience LIFE again..
to feel and realize and be inspired,
knowing that perhaps, this earthly-life is worth to be lived with our every breath
only if we flee ourselves from our prison-wall, whatever that is..
In previous topic before this, I’ve talked & admitted about how I’m still jobless now,.and still living with my parents. I feel so ashamed, and especially for my parents, who are admittedly much more ‘practical’ than me & my ‘head-in-the-clouds’ imaginative personality,..which can act like a damn “curse” quite often. and all the ADHD, bipolar, easily bored/depressed/lose focus,..stuff like that!
So now, here I am,..almost 29 yrs old,..and still a fucking ‘loser’ as far as I can see..
and although as much as I often said that I don’t CARE about what society (even my family & parents & relatives!) keep saying, bombarding, pressuring, and […]
1. Are you now studying (school/uni?), or working? at which field/career? does it suck, or you enjoy?
2. And for those of you who are both not studying and working, how do you ‘finance’ your everyday living?
do you still stay (& provided) with ur parents? or…?
As for me, I shamefully admit,..I belong to the 2nd category, and yes, I still stay with my parents,..despite my age of almost 29 yrs old…. this is really pathetic/sad, especially in the eyes of my ‘practical’ parents AND society!
It doesn’t even matter a shit whether if people often are ‘surprised’ by my intelligences, deep […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuVuMslQWGs
Powerful.
Just want to share.
Watch it ’till ending,
and get enlightened
for the power of your choices and Life
…before ending it all.
I need a list of ways to kill myself. Please give me details.
Here’s a short bio:
I’ve been depressed since I was about 12. I’m 19 now. I tried killing myself when I was 17. I took an overdose of Lexapro and antihistamines. I probably took about 90 pills in all but I did not die (obviously). I spent about a week at the hospital. They changed my meds and released me more messed up than I was before. Since then I’ve still thought about trying to kill myself again. I still want to go with pills but just in case I need alternatives. Please give […]
This might proves to be very interesting (and mind-opening) to watch for 10 minutes,
perhaps it’s heavily related with how almost everyone here often feels.
it’s time to re-think our ‘old’ notions about survival and living.
getting more interesting..
So you really want a f’in meaningful Change?
Not to be another walking zombie, just merely ‘existing’ & ‘surviving’ in this pathetic, rotten world right?
trust me, I can feel and relate totally with you..
Well,..here’s a BIG idea that might make you think & ponder a bit tonight (An idea is always better than nothing right?) :
what if I tell that it’s not our world that sucks
(eg: our Planet Earth, nature, animals, beauty of Nature, etc),..heck, it’s not even ALL humanity that sucks (eg: ALL humans & people you’ve met & encountered. ALL of ’em).
No.
It’s the System, the FEW Powers-that-be that CONTROLS the System,
“Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.” – Margaret Mead.
What happened in Egypt is the real, solid proof of this quote.
No one before probably could predict nor expect that this kind of huge thing could ever happen, even in year 2011,.but it DO…ES and CAN happen!
Hope is not all lost.
sometimes I just feel that I don’t belong in this “real world”,..I’m such a “head in the clouds” person and NOT a ‘practical’ person,..which is unfortunately everything this so-called “real world” really needed 
how many of you here can relate very much with what I’m saying here?
and how do you handle it daily?
by ‘grinding’ through it?..like a machine?..
or by ‘creating’ your own reality, or even an alternate reality of yours?
by escaping frequently?..
*sigh*..this real world can be way too dull, uninspiring, bland, and ‘dry’ for my vivid imaginations…
Watch it.
Join it, and spread it, if you think it’s really damn *worth* it.
It really opened my eyes for me personally, and I’ve joined the local movement here in my home country.
Surprisingly, this is a global movement! and I’m very sure it’s going to grow & grow even more.
Because it’s hell much BETTER than our current sick, corrupt, and obnoxious ‘System’ and ‘society’ we’re currently having all around the world!
“(Never underestimate the importance of an idea). An idea is like a virus. Resilient, highly contagious. The smallest seed of an idea can grow. It can grow to define, or […]
Nothing is forever
Everything i want disapears
Nothing is forever take my soul
take my heart
they are weak
from pain of
losing things
Nothing is forever
like your body your soul
will disapear
your soul will be in
the land of forever
forgotten In a beutiful land you willl see the ones that didnt last forever your loved ones the you loved and they loved you the most.
You wont last forever
The more I stroll the street or malls at night, seeing all the humans and couples and happy and dull faces of them,
the more I feel so distanced and separated..
Men in suits always looking oh so professional, with their seemingly chic I-Phones or Blackberry on their ears,
Women often with glamorous necklace, and latest/newest brand of bag,
Ads blaring everywhere you see, hear, and even approached by so-called “Sales girls”,
discount here, buy this, buy that, discount there,
You come out from movie theaters watching perhaps most fantastical & hypnotizing movies/films,
that you even freezes out and don’t feel like you want to get […]
“Be the change you want to see†– Mahatma Gandhi
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.†– Maria Robinson
“If there is no struggle, there is no progress. Those who profess to favor freedom and yet avoid confrontation, are people who want crops without plowing up the ground; they want rain without thunder and lightning; they want the ocean without the roar of its waters.†~ Frederick Douglass
“Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission” – Eleanor Roosevelt
“Whether you think you can or can’t,..you’re right” – Henry Ford
“Never doubt […]
I can really relate with many of these posters here are feeling. and especially of how you’re all so sick and can’t stand the people in general anymore because they reek selfishness and my guess is they’re also so full of superficiality in this materialism-era.
If anything, you guys sound like a really good, sincere, honest person, and it’s an unfortunate widespread reality that the ‘good, honest, sincere’ people are having REALLY hard times in this 21st era today.
But if there’s anything that can act as a consolation, or a Hope,
IMO it would be year 2012.
Now, I know that you might easily be like […]
Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not dishonor others,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no records of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
~ 1 Corinthians 13:1-8
I feel so alone…again.
Maybe this so-called Real world is just not for me, or ‘weird’ people like me…
Here’s why:
– I can’t relate to 80% of people (society) around me everyday, in that they’re actually enthusiastically talk only about money, how to get more money, and how to spend more in luxurious things.
– Music has always been my utmost passion & dreams that I intend to pursue it (so much that I in fact just decided to quit on my 7-years dull furniture-factory family-business job, a decision which shocks everyone in my big Asian Chinese family), but lately after hearing my friends’ talks, and […]
[Natalie] Anything you wish to say at this very special moment?
LIAR. FAILURE. FAT. WHORE. USELESS DROPOUT SHIT. TOXIC PREGNANT CUTSLUT. JERKOUT TRUCK WOMAN WITH A MANUFACTURED EGO. HOPELESS AT LOVE. WORSE AT LIFE. MENTAL WASTEOUT COCKEATER. DETATCHED MUTE GIRL. SEMI AWAKE REJECT. RSA ENCODED GOVERNMENT SECRET. NAUGHTY NAUGHTY FINGER FUCKIN HORNY LITTLE NAUGHTY PANTY CAM GIRL.
[bleach the girl][a bleach bottle on an empty cabinet]
[comatose[corrode[Clorox[low
Imgonnatearyouapart[imintearsasireadthis]
peroxide. mechanical surveillance culture. misery butterfly. studio meds.
i think youre conceited[and i dont believe you do care]
next to you [they [sic] love you] in the mirror
in the bar. then outside. i fell into the trap. i am a child in playboy bunny […]