I need a list of ways to kill myself. Please give me details.
Here’s a short bio:
I’ve been depressed since I was about 12. I’m 19 now. I tried killing myself when I was 17. I took an overdose of Lexapro and antihistamines. I probably took about 90 pills in all but I did not die (obviously). I spent about a week at the hospital. They changed my meds and released me more messed up than I was before. Since then I’ve still thought about trying to kill myself again. I still want to go with pills but just in case I need alternatives. Please give me a good method with full details.
Things that currently make me want to die:
- I will most likely fail my English class which means I will lose my financial aid for college
- I suck at every thing I try to do.
- I try 10x as hard as anyone else and come out with nothing.
- I do not have a lot of people to talk to. I am pretty much alone in any of my problems.
- I’ve ruined my chances at ever bettering my life.
To be honest, it’s not that I want to die, it’s just that I’m tired of living. I know I’m only 19, but I see no reason for existing. All life is is doing things you don’t want to do. What’s the point in continuing living in a world where everything is forced? There’s plenty of things I have to live for, but none of them are good enough. Because the only thing that matters is what’s expected from other people.
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It is should be enough in the semester to withdrawl from your English class to avoid failing. Even if this drops your course load below full-time, you can probably get an exception if you explain your situation. Maybe dropping that one class will give you more time to both focus on the other courses and also let you relax a little.
I always took courses like English at community colleges in the Summer, as I could transfer the credits back to the main university, and they were much easier at a small college.
I understand exactly where you are coming from, i’ve contemplated killing myself many times and even throughly planned my death and my memorial service.
I’m not going to try and talk you out of it because like me you seem pretty set on ending your life. If you ever need to talk i’m here and there are plenty other people online going through the same thing and any would be willing to talk to you about anything.
But when i was researching methods of suicide i found the best were:
******** a drug from Bolivia, Mexico that was used by many famous suicidees such as Marilyn Monroe.
Shooting yourself in the temple is supposed to be one of the most certain methods, but gaining access to a gun may be hard.
Many have recommended a heroine and alcohol overdose.
If you are 100% you want to die those may be the most reliable ways, but if there is any doubt please contact me or someone else!
Little Miss Nobody.