[Natalie] Anything you wish to say at this very special moment?
LIAR. FAILURE. FAT. WHORE. USELESS DROPOUT SHIT. TOXIC PREGNANT CUTSLUT. JERKOUT TRUCK WOMAN WITH A MANUFACTURED EGO. HOPELESS AT LOVE. WORSE AT LIFE. MENTAL WASTEOUT COCKEATER. DETATCHED MUTE GIRL. SEMI AWAKE REJECT. RSA ENCODED GOVERNMENT SECRET. NAUGHTY NAUGHTY FINGER FUCKIN HORNY LITTLE NAUGHTY PANTY CAM GIRL.
[bleach the girl][a bleach bottle on an empty cabinet]
peroxide. mechanical surveillance culture. misery butterfly. studio meds.
i think youre conceited[and i dont believe you do care]
next to you [they [sic] love you] in the mirror
in the bar. then outside. i fell into the trap. i am a child in playboy bunny ears. my headphones are broken. i feel used.
[only] ihaveknown. nor do i want to.
YOU WANT MY SUICIDE ON VHS TAPE YOU CAN GO FUCK A NOOSE.
within that. with clarity. in time. that [which is held as]. in reverse. in all of us. blow you away. near as valid. nek it. never wanted it. they [sic] love you. bleach her spirit. i know this is panic. in time. i beat. a blood clot would cause arrhythmia. then youd go numb or faint. with panic [metastasized], you get vasodilation. you go hot. then cold. hot. then cold. never numb. every seven minutes. no dead cells im alive. it feels like shit but youre not dead. nobody shot you right between the eyes. maybe they should. they [sic] love you.
they love a false contraption setup under the pretense of love.
i am nick grimshaw. i am johnny rotten. i love dope. dope loves me. in the end. [where you are]. where i wanted [you] to be. IM KURT COBAIN IM MARLA JADE. i dont know clorox from xanax. what i think [what you know] nothing to speak of. if i were you id feel stressed. nobody. next to paris hilton in a [film screening] on broadway. depressed liquid and undressed. the virus ti snow. or a rack synth and a midi controller.
i hope you know [and i need this][i hate you]
NAUGHTY NAUGHTY TRUCK GIRL WITH A SOFT DAMP ***** AND BLACK LACY PANTIES.
OR THAT SURGERY WHERE THEY BREAK YOUR LEGS. [dad]