i never had a friend,never had a girlfriend,never had good parents or simply people that not hate me,nad for those i love,’m able to see through them and i care so much that they escape in fear,like if i’m a criminal or a monster… i either have a bad family situation,and people hated me from when i’m born,still talking of hate towards me it’s not right,because all my actions,all my words and arguments,everything,even this post,come from the idea of someone else, people i see in real life,on internet,in tv… for example when my dogs died i didn’t cry,i just said “what would do a normal […]
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Good Person
It’s true. And it’s the reason for my suicide. These feelings of hopelessness stem from being an imperfect human being. I have a poor memory, make lots of mistakes – but worst of all, I’m ugly. I am so unattractive. I look in the mirror and fall apart crying, I get violent visions of mutilating my body, hacking it to pieces until I disintergrate. Until I’m nothing anymore. Unrecognisable. Until I die from bloodloss, hopefully, and everybody can forget I ever existed. That’s all I want – to not exist, to never have existed. I wish I had never existed.
I go to bed and pray […]
continuation of things i dislike sorry im going crazy i need to get this out
by idunno
written by idunno
im panicking just let me get this out
(i dont mean for anyone to take these things too personally, i just need to share..)
i might come across really negative, dont let it effect you… im really a good person)
please feel free to give me some suggestions to add to the list, i’d really appreciate any feedback
i hate the doctors office
i hate cards (birthday, greetings….theyre so corny
the dentist
the phrase “how are you” and the conforming answer”well, thanks, yourself?”
hate how there’s little options as to what you get in life.
perfume
i hate how i have to lie to myself by thinking positively
i hate how i wanna runaway but i […]
I wish I knew what happened to that cheerful, would-be artist of yesteryear. I’m always longing to return to the days when I felt the passion and joy of artistic creation. Painting fixed everything back then, now it feels like a chore. I hardly draw anymore and even my recent fascination with writing is fading away. The bad days are beginning to outnumber the good, but I’m too scared to end it all. I’m not a good person, but I want to change. Oh, what I wouldn’t give to change! I hate myself and I don’t know why, but I can’t make it stop and […]
I try so hard to get my life back on track. It seems that whenever good happens in my life something 10X worst follows: i just can’t get a break. I don’t really have any friends, I’ve never had a girlfriend nor could I ever hope to future with one since I started going bald and became impotent at 22 and now I’m 26, even cialis doesn’t work. I’m studying a field that I’m not passionate and nearly flunked out my first year. I did better my following years but it will nearly impossible to get into grad school. I still live with my parents […]
Hello guys, (edit: why is my post all written in green? its hard to read :S highlighting the text with your mouse helps)
I’ve been thinking about suicide pretty much my entire life. This is going to be quite straight up but bear with me. First, let’s talk a bit about myself so you now a little bit more about who’s writing this.
I am now 23 years old, on my last year of university here in Quebec, Canada. I’ve been studying marketing since I’ve always been really good at selling and customer service. My real passions, however, are sports, videogames and marijuana. Yes, marijuana. I won’t […]
I want to die, but of course I can’t. First I’m scared of dying but I’m sick and tired of trying to live happy. My parents stalk the hell out of me whenever I try to talk to a boy and my dad and mom beat me. What am I supposed to do? My friends tell me I look weird when I don’t smile because I smile all the time. Why do I smile? Why am I completely at peace when I’m at school, but at home I dread it and want to die
I’m tired of living. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of doing […]
I’ve never been so lost in my entire life. I don’t even know where to start.
I’ve been depressed, anxious, and suicidal my whole life. It’s been miserable. It’s so hard having nobody to talk to. My family doesn’t understand. Every single day I put on my fake smile and act like I’m okay, but I’m not. I try to get my parents to hear me. I cry out, but nobody listens. I’m invisible to them.
I have no idea what I’m doing with me life. My dreams were always shot down. They said I wasn’t special and that I’d never make it. I still believe I can. But […]
i have never been the one to believe in suicide, but the feeling of this hurt is overwhelming. its almost like i cant breathe. im a 30ish something female, and i have a great career, children, family and friends. my husband left me earlier this year and my entire life was flipped upside down. i never saw it coming. i later found out that he was indulging in activities with another female. i was a good wife and my family is everything to me. i didnt do anything to deserve this. i dont eat, i have taken time off of […]
Hello, my name is Viktor D.
I’m from Serbia, and I have a lot of emotional problems, along problems with people.
I am a metal-head and people who don’t know what metal is and how good metal-people are, and that they also have emotions, and can be soft and good to other people and nice, polite etc. but when I see other people who don’t understand what it is, and when I see them make fun of it and me and my friends, it makes me burst with rage, but then I understand that even if they somehow get better and start to understand, there are […]
Isn’t that what the world is built on? Isn’t that what life is all about? The pain of existing. The suffering we succumb to, day after day.
I’ve been asked why I don’t want children. It’s a simple concept. I’m not a cruel, unjust person. I care too much. I love too much. And I simply will not bring another being into this world, so I can watch them suffer as I suffered. Hurt, as I hurt. I will not bring life into this world and watch it die. Watch it be eaten alive by society. By the media. By the government.
I will not sit back […]
I’m really not seeing a reason to continue fighting my debilitating depression and anxiety. I have never had a reprieve in my 28 years, despite various medications, spiritual journeys, and self-help literature.
I have always held myself to a very high standard and have been relentless with trying to reach success from a very early age. I survived an abusive childhood with an alcoholic father. Â I thought that getting married, getting a Masters degree, and starting my career would bring me the happiness I so desperately want and the outside validation to prove that I am a good person.
I loved my husband with all of my […]
There’s very few people who know me really well. However, those who do know that I am, in fact, a shitty person. Everything about me is shit. I am selfish, ungrateful, bitchy, rude, and anything else with a similar negative connotation. I am not a good person. The worst part is that sometimes I don’t even notice it. I’ve hurt the person I care about the most. I’ve failed them. I’ve also failed myself. What’s the point of living in this world when you’re not benefiting it? I’m not going to do any good for anyone, so why should I be here? I despise myself […]
We all get discouraged when life slaps us in the face!!! I just want you to kw that I think u r amazing!!! You are always full of encouragement and kind words and every time I talk to you I feel better about myself because you are always always always doing your best to make me feel good and lift me up!!! Your a good person and it’s sad but people take advantage of that!!!! Keep that beautiful head of yours up!!!! Love you!!!!
-Layne
I bought a rope and there’s a bridge not far from where I live ..
I’ll be waiting for my intuition to tell me it’s time to go through with it
I’m tired of living just because others want and expect me to
I’m tired of living to preserve my relatives precious bubbles .. I’ve almost reached my breaking point
I’ve been trapped (1) in a body and (2) in this world for too long
I’ve lost interest in figuring out what my purpose is (assuming there’s even one)
my presence on here must be an error, I have no choice but to fix it
once I’m dead: no more struggles, […]
so because im new to this i will just state my problem and what i hope to be the solution i am 18 years old my name is kyle i have worked my entire life to be a good person the best person actually but i am a loser i am overweight i am unhappy i have a girl i love her name is miranda everything i have is breaking she doesnt understand how much i love her or how much i care about her i have never hurt her lied or cheated on her we have been dating for 6 months she loves me […]
I never liked life for what it appears to be: a process of disilllusionnement
I was trusting and full of hope as a kid, but this was because I used to idealize life and people’s intentions
life experiences later, I’ve become rather suspicious and apathetic
I don’t think we’re here to find our purpose or happiness .. I feel like we’re here to chase after things, only to realize those things were just illusions .. the more you believed the illusion to be real, the more brutal the wake-up will be, the harder it is to swallow the pill of letting go
I was led to believe in certain […]
How to start,while my hands are shaking and i finally made myself cry after a long time of trying to be strong and keep it all inside me. It sounds like another lame and pathetic story about how misunderstood someone can be. Honestly i had my moments of searching for attention but this time i just want revenge. I promise this will be my last selfish act towards everyone i know. I really wanted to make everything right again but when my own mother says that i am naive and stupid how am i supposed to feel about myself, how i am i supposed to […]
people keep telling me I deserve to be happy to know I’m a good person.I wish I could believe that. I kept asking if she was happy. she asked me back. I told her I didn’t matter. truth is I knew I was never good enough for her.
how do you let go of the best thing that ever happened to you
I just… don’t have any reason to be alive anymore. I can’t take being this lonely another year, and my situation won’t change unless i change, but I haven’t changed in 32 years, so it’s clearly not going to happen. I can’t even fake it anymore. My one friend came over for my birthday and I just shut down mid-afternoon. I don’t have anything left to say to anyone, or anything to contribute. I’m not a very good person, at heart, so I don’t give anything. back to anyone, just take, take, take. I tried to say I am really depressed, but I’ve had cyclical […]