It is time to write the ending

How to start,while my hands are shaking and i finally made myself cry after a long time of trying to be strong and keep it all inside me. It sounds like another lame and pathetic story about how misunderstood someone can be. Honestly i had my moments of searching for attention but this time i just want revenge. I promise this will be my last selfish act towards everyone i know. I really wanted to make everything right again but when my own mother says that i am naive and stupid how am i supposed to feel about myself, how i am i supposed to survive without any friend seeing me as a good person,and isn’t it hard to try to keep the  last flames of my wish to stay alive when obviously no one really needs me in their life. I guess this is the point where you are supposed to write the ending of the story. When i think about it i have always been putting it way for another time, for another tomorrow.
I came here today after everyone i know told me how they really see me. I don’t mind ending up in hell at least i won’ t have to see their faces again (well not on Earth obviously xD) and when i do what i have to do i ll be free. this will be the first and the last thing doing something i want and not worrying of if it will hurt someone or made someone cry. Because whatever i did here, i was never able to make it right. I hope this ending will be right enough!