For the past four years I’ve struggled with PTSD, Anxiety & Depression, but the thing is I think I had anxiety and depression before I even figured out I had it…5 years ago I was 15,lost and confused.. To start off my first year of highschool was a fail and I pretty much quit the first week, I went to one class everyday for a week because all of it was over too whelming for me and I didn’t understand why I figured you know it’s highschool it’s probably over whelming for everyone, but I knew it was different for me when I started thinking […]
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Things are not good for me. More or less I am nothing more then a dissapointment in everything I do. I am a failure as a boyfriend,father,friend,son,grandson…you name it. I am falling apart in every way imaginable. I hate to look at myself,and no matter what I do I can’t seem to pull out of this. I tried to end it once,but was “saved” by 2 friends….not this time. I have a short period of time before my 2 year suicide clause is up on my life insurance,I have a storage unit large enough to fit my truck in it rented so no one can […]
Hey everyone! I’m still in a barely good shape and still crying for things that shouldn’t even make you feel sad but I decided that I’ll go back writing. Well, it will probably be a run on whether I get crushed by the felling of panic or success to finish this first though.
But I decided that since I only have this I should at last risk it. As long as I can continue I’ll go back to my old routine of being crushed and get up again and again. I might be here a little less but I’ll probably come back time to time! I’m […]
When i thought this site was making me sadder because i face my depression at a more intense level, i read things that do make me laugh. I am NOT laughing at other peoples misery or posts, I’m not that cruel. Just an entertaining comment here and there.
So i will continue on this site a little longer even though it makes being in denial that little harder. Or maybe I’m just going through a good cycle. Who knows
What is the best way to die? Please I need to know. The only thing I can come up with is taking a good amount of xanax, let that set in and then lay in a warm bath and slit my wrists. I hate sharp objects but I’m almost to the point that, that is the only way I can figure will work. In a room and time that no one is looking for me so by the time they find me I will be well gone
Depression isn’t always that girl that’s crying in the bathroom or the boy that is always wearing long sleeves =. It isn’t always suicide notes and pill bottles. sometimes, its all smiles and good grades sometimes its the boy that always helpful and the girl that you always borrow things from. Depression isn’t always that easy to notice.
Once more into the fray
Into the last good fight I will ever know
Live and die on this day
Live and die on this day
If any one wants to talk like one on one.cus they arent comfy on a public forum.
I created this id for this site only, ie, you guys,
This sites given me pretty good advice, so i guess this is me returning the favour
So the id is
sui_rc@yahoo.com
So, i liked this girl. But she’d only talk to me over texts. So, when i meet her at school, she never acknowledges me, or comes and sit with me.
So i grew frustrated nd frustrated cus i really liked this girl, and then when she’d say something useless like borrowing a pen and cracking a joke. Id lash out and absolutely slay her with words. Sure, i felt like shit a moment later.
So, today, she completely ignored me and started talking to a good friend of mine, like nearly the whole day, and mind you they’ve not been friends, more like acquaintances.
And […]
This site is the only place where i can express deep sadness. I’ve never really let others know how depressed i am.
I’ve withdrawn myself from my good friends.
My work friends see me as this happy, funny person most of the times. They also know I’m a hater too.
The people i dislike think I’m mean and rude.
With so many of you out there feeling sad, how do the people in your life see you?
paralyzed as my chest felt heavy i saw him after 2 months. i wasnt in good mood but i wanted him to see me becase i knew if he did we would both smile but that never happened. feeling guilty because i have a bf but he always crawls his way into my heart. he’s mysterious, dark, and is beautiful while my bf is dark, sarcastic, and also beautiful. they both make me smile and laugh at my worst times and are both there for me. (no joke this feels like some twilight bullshit.)
I remember a couple days ago I kind of picked at him alittle bit on his 100 reasons to stay alive post. I guess it was a mixture of frustration and my offbeat sense of humor. Darvin your a good guy. We all got different perspectives on life and I’m sorry if I offended anyone. There’s not one person on here that I dislike.
About two months ago my girlfriend broke up with me, we ended on good terms well in her eyes.. I was destroyed, I thought she was cheating on me because 4 days before she did it she went to hang out with her friend who had a huge crush on her, of what I wasn’t to happy, mainly because it was only going to be them.. She then never said good night or anything she would just disappear, anyway, one of the last things she promised me is that she would never get back with my best friend because he treated her like shit, when […]
I find myself feeling numb. Sometimes a spark of happinesss comes in, or a glimmer of hope, or moments of excrutiatingly painful, lonely, sadness. I feel as if I don’t want to end my life, but I’d like too end the pain, sorrow, and for once, I’d like too feel again. In a good way.
I just don’t want to live in this world anymore, I have no purpose so why still live it…
thanks for the support but im breaking down.. To people I love “Sorry I exist”
Bye, I guess…Good dreams
So I got my beer on Thursday. It was cooers light so it wasn’t as strong as I wanted. Around midnight, I decided that I’m gonna see if I could commit suicide by train. Drunk, I walked to the railroad tracks then headed right down them, waiting for a train to come. My love was on the phone with me the entire time. I fell several times during all this. With no train in sight, I began sobering up enough to were I didn’t think I could go though with it and decided to go to my dads instead (which was on the way). I […]
Isn’t it funny how you can have people all around you but feel so lonely? I feel guilty because I have a good life- a good job, a husband, a nice house, a family that cares about me. I just can’t seem to find any happiness in it. We have a gun in our home and I find myself fantasizing about how easy it would be to end it all. Then I chicken out because I’m useless.
Why can’t I just be normal? I am faking being put together every day and it’s so exhausting I just can’t do it anymore. I just want to fall […]
Why movies are better than reality ? Why movie is better than reality ? Why reality is boring ?
by niki
written by niki
Why movies are better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why movie is better than reality / real life / real world ?
Why reality is boring ?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality ( human’s fantasy is better than reality )
for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, X-Men, Marvels & DC universe / movies , The Avengers , Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, Naruto, Bleach, […]
And I know, you’re a good man
And I wonder, what was I going to say
I failed, I should of kept, the HM
Of Flash, for Clefairy
All into the fraught
Close to the, from the peril
Fallacy done to the Lamb
I don’t know
Even on the Game Boy
Close to the, from the peril
I know but I don’t know but I know that you don’t know
What
Even on the Game Boy
I could of been closer to the, Graveler
Even on the Game Boy
Why is an Onyx afraid of the water, I wonder
But I know and I already said
But I don’t get it, the ‘Rock Snake Pokemon’
My, Dragonyte