This site is the only place where i can express deep sadness. I’ve never really let others know how depressed i am.
I’ve withdrawn myself from my good friends.
My work friends see me as this happy, funny person most of the times. They also know I’m a hater too.
The people i dislike think I’m mean and rude.
With so many of you out there feeling sad, how do the people in your life see you?
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Well, most people dont know i exist. Few who do, see me as a arrogant prick who’d be better of buried 6 feet under the earth in a coffin.
People see me as opinionated, sweet, intellectual, essentric, articulate, nervous, depressed, withdrawn, crass, inappropriate, nonconformist, insecure, arrogant, nihilistic, comedian, creative genius (others words not mine), good mannered in social situations, sloppy, lazy, selfish,idealistic, conversationalist, procrastinator, all kinds of complex shit that seem to contradict each other
I feel some people can tell something might be wrong with me, but most just think I’m shy. Not many people pay attention to me though, I’m still unsure of that’s good or bad.
*if that’s good or bad
People see me and think I’m insane and they’re right when they see my scars its funny to me because I’m the only person they know that cuts art
For lolz:
I see myself as a god amongst men but everyone else sees me as a douche :-p
But in all seriousness:
I keep a happy façade. No one in my life knows I have this side to me. I like it that way. No prying questions, explanations or unnecessary worrying.
I relate to the fact that people at work see me as efficient, etc. and pleasant. Family though for the most part don’t contact me. I get overwhelmed easily and I’m certainly not a social butterfly that stays in contact. Therefore, they don’t bother with me. As I posted earlier, I sometimes find out about family get togethers after the fact. No one bothers to let me know. My depression/dysthymia keeps my feeling too overwhelmed to have a conversation.