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I Don’t Know

by Ntennis37 12/9/2014

written by Ntennis37

I honestly don’t know why I’m writing this… I can’t say that I want to commit suicide… at least not right now. I’m meant to be doing coursework right now so I’ll probably finish that then contemplate taking my own life.

I have a great life. I study, I have a family and friends, but at the same time I’m not good at anything that I study in my course, I loathe and despise the members of my family no matter what they do I can feel a deep poisonous hatred for them. And… I’m not sure if I actually friends… I have people I talk […]

12/9/2014 5 comments

Worthless

by heather416 12/7/2014

written by heather416

I’m just so tired of this all. I thought that this summer would be able to help me recover, but the thing is that I don’t ever really feel anything except for this sharp feeling in my chest. But lately, I keep on feeling really dirty whenever I lie to my friends about not being depressed, or cut, or do anything that I usually do. I get an urge to just wash myself clean of all this. The thing is, I developed a crush on a close friend of mine. But the thing is, I don’t think that this is a good kind of […]

12/7/2014 3 comments

Not suggesting anyone self medicate, but

by lost 12/3/2014

written by lost

…if you’re self-medicating already, don’t miss this great homemade version of Bailey’s Irish Cream (found here):

drink your medicine!

12/3/2014 4 comments

Can You Feel The Flames?

by TakingBackMyUsedRomance 11/29/2014

written by TakingBackMyUsedRomance

“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill himself doesn’t do so out of ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom it’s invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill himself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just […]

11/29/2014 10 comments

Life’s Ironic huh?

by Broken_Soul 11/29/2014

written by Broken_Soul

Let me tell you a True story.A story of a Childs dreams and how he ended up being the very thing he hates.Dont worry about his name.

Many years ago there was once a child,a boy.The boy was a very happy,and cheerful,and hyper.He loved going to his cousins house to play,he loved going outside,and he loved to be around other people.This child started off just like any other…pure.He had dreams of being a soldier,of being a firefighter,and of being a Hero.more than anything the boy wanted to be someone who helped others.He wanted to help the poor be happy,he wanted to give those who had nothing,everything.Unfortunately […]

11/29/2014 2 comments

I miss my best friend

by MrPorkchop 11/27/2014

written by MrPorkchop

I messed up this summer. I fucked up my relationship with my best friend who I’ve secretly had feelings for for the past 5 or so years. Since grade school we were friends and in high school when I started to get really depressed she was the only person I could talk whom I felt didn’t judge me for it. She helped me a lot in some low points in my life when I was thinking about suicide. She’d always ask me how I was feeling and she’d listen to me rant about life without judgement. She lived kind of far away so I would […]

11/27/2014 6 comments

Please

by Remnant The Unbroken 11/23/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

I know I barely post here anymore, but I still come back every now and then to read your stories. I recently read Shephard’s goodbye. He was a great friend to me a while back and I lost contact with him for a while. I need to know if any of you have had contact with him since his final post. I sent him an email, but haven’t had any response. And I know I may not hear from him for different reasons… But I just need some closure. It’s killing me. Please, if anyone has heard from him, or knows if he’s still with […]

11/23/2014 6 comments

Where to begin.

by rain_26 11/21/2014

written by rain_26

I have a wonderful boyfriend, a great job, friends who do care and yet here I am on a Friday night on this website. To the point – i am struggling with coping with everything. A lot has happened recently. Both my parents have been unwell recently. My dad suffered from a heart attack and my mum had a really bad infection. They were both admitted into the hospital and it was only me on my way. My dad was in another ward and my mum was in the other so I had to frequent back and forth to make sure each were ok. It […]

11/21/2014 2 comments

won’t last 6 months

by Daydreaming 11/19/2014

written by Daydreaming

This is my first post. My life has been full of setbacks and disappointments many by my own bad choices and many by terrible luck. I am possibly the biggest underachiever in the world. That’s why I couldn’t be happier when I met my beautiful wife learned that she wanted to be with me. 7 years later after watching her love turn cold after realizing that she was stuck with a loser she left (10 weeks ago). I am still holding out hope that we can save our marriage but that hope is fading. There are a few reasons to be hopeful but also many reasons that lead […]

11/19/2014 1 comment

just want to say goodbye to somebody

by very tired and alone 11/17/2014

written by very tired and alone

Everyone has their own overwhelming burdens ….. non are less than anyone elses….. mine have just become too great. i have lost my children. I had all that i could ever of hoped for…. i was adored by a beautiful perfect lady and i screwed it up. No…. not like that…. i just screwed it all up. I am not a bad man… i just have had so much pain over the years i didnt know how to just enjoy life when it became perfect.

I am now completely alone…. just wanted to say goodbye to somebody.

thank you.

11/17/2014 10 comments

The What-Ifs’

by WhatIf 11/16/2014

written by WhatIf

You wake up in the morning – happy as can be. You strive in life to put a smile on anothers’ face, but struggle to put one on your own. The evening comes and the thoughts wander in – What if…wouldn’t it be great…how would others react it…

Ive been through this website a few times as I struggled to keep myself from making a second attempt. I read about how others feel, the struggles they go through, the stories that match mine.

Having a constant loss of happiness is the worst pain. The moments spent creating little notes and looking up various ways of attempting. The […]

11/16/2014 2 comments

I NEED to die. Why can’t I just do it already??

by NoLifeSupport 11/16/2014

written by NoLifeSupport

Hi Everyone,

I guess you might say I’ve been ‘trolling’ on here now & then but more so lately. I’m not sure when I signed up but especially this weekend & I posted a few comments. Not very helpful ones, just the “I get it” kind.

Anyway, I guess it’s time I said hello & told my story. I’ll try not to get too detailed.

I am a 46 yr old, married mother of 2 boys 7 & 10. They are all great but I don’t know what I thought motherhood would be. For some reason (possibly the fairy tale we are led to believe in by society?) […]

11/16/2014 15 comments

Suicide date

by cant.fixme 11/15/2014

written by cant.fixme

Last year i decided to have a suicide date but i couldn’t really decide then i made a list, a list of thing i have and haven;t done and i have a lot of things i haven’t done and that list became like a bucket list for me, the title “Things before my suicide date”. The date i never really had a date all i knew is that i would wait till i’m 18 and that maybe by then things will be great, so i’m really hopping that things get great by then but if it doesn’t i already know what to do, it’s like […]

11/15/2014 0 comment

I guess it’s in my blood

by silversurfer 11/15/2014

written by silversurfer

you could have been great.

but your mother is a poor adulterous whore

and your father is a cheating son of a child molester

and your step-mother is a vindictive ****

and you are a weak selfish bastard

nobody wants to see you succeed

11/15/2014 4 comments

Breathing but not alive

by cant.fixme 11/14/2014

written by cant.fixme

Its hard knowing that you’re never good enough and it’s harder to know that every body actually think the same.

Sometimes it would be great knowing that people believe in you. Sometimes it would be great to also not feel worthless, it would be good to not feel like a total shit. Sometimes it would be great knowing that things you do aren’t complete shit. Sometimes it would be great to not wake up everyday of your life thinking about ending it all.

Sometime just sometimes i wish wishes came true, so i could wish knowing that it might come true, […]

11/14/2014 0 comment

Never knew, Bereavement could be so Painful!

by buroo 11/12/2014

written by buroo

Bereavement is never a happy thing, unless you really hate the person, even then though I won’t be happy. But one tends to accept bereavement if the person concerned is an aged or maybe an ailing one, probably not too close, just as a part of life. But if the person concerned is someone you just loved to be with and always looked up to in so many ways, somebody who had always given you bundles of joy and happiness, even while suffering himself, somebody who have touched the deepest core of your heart, then all the world just breaks apart!

It is not that I’ve […]

11/12/2014 1 comment

Despondency

by misterunknown 11/11/2014

written by misterunknown

I guess I’ve been depressed for years now.. And it’s rough. The worst of it is that most others don’t understand. “What’s wrong with you?” “You just have to be positive..” “I can’t handle you being sad all the time.” Lately the suicidal thoughts are occurring more often and seem to be sounding like very viable options, and I hate that. I woke up this morning and just cried. Mainly because I hate my job, my living arrangements, and my current economic standing. I hate that I am so ridiculously lonely all the time, yet consciously choose to be alone. I hate that I know […]

11/11/2014 2 comments

Finally Met with Someone

by capricious 11/10/2014

written by capricious

I finally got my case pushed through to meeting someone. After waiting 40 minutes in the foyer he finally came out to meet me. Thanks for the promptness. Just proves how important I am to these people.

With the last 20 minutes of my session remaining the guy asked me all the same boring shit he should have got in the fax of my assessment. Oh wait. They didn’t fucking send it to him.

So now here we are, more than halfway through and with no past history on the table. What a great start. I was so mad at this point that I could barely answer […]

11/10/2014 5 comments

Goodbye

by Deleted.from.society 11/10/2014

written by Deleted.from.society

To my beloved family and friends. I am sorry I have to do this, I hate myself for being so selfish. Please don’t miss me, don’t hurt. I made a decision, I can’t live in this cruel world anymore. You where all so great to me. This isn’t your fault, it’s mine. I’m weak, I can’t handle this. Please forgive me, or I will not be able to forgive my self. I will live on through you, in your hearts.
I’ve been cutting for a while now. I told no one, because I felt my reasons Where not good enough. I hate myself, I hate […]

11/10/2014 9 comments

Nobody can admit I have a mental problem but me

by metard 11/9/2014

written by metard

Wiki Social Avoidant Personality Disorder & there’s my life.

I have a genetic predisposition to social anxiety, as my dad told me he almost joined a monastery for this reason. I have early childhood emotional neglect from physical abuse, verbal abuse, & hours of forced solitude. Absent father, he was going to college. I have extreme peer group rejection, lost almost all my highschool friends right after due to an incident with ecstasy.

Everyone thinks I look OK. That’s because I’m good looking, I’m healthy because I know cardio & lifting reduces stress, as I have anger problems thanks to both genetics & upbringing again. I’m great […]

11/9/2014 3 comments

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