I don’t hate you, I promise. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I just don’t know why I keep pushing you away maybe you’re just too nice. It’s been so long since I’ve had real emotions and you brought that out and now I’m scared. My dark thoughts visit me while I’m lying in bed, hoping I don’t wake up the next morning but for a while now it’s thoughts about you that whisper in my ear before I sleep. I know how much I hurt you this past week and you probably hate me. I don’t even blame you. I’m not even sure […]
Make me hurt
Scratch and tear at my mind
Come on, I actually want it this time
Where are you when I need you?
Rip my heart apart
Why not
WHY NOT
Why not, you bastard
I’m begging for it
I want it
I need it
Give it to me
How dare you abandon me
When you’ve been my faithful companion for so long
You
The one thing that has always been there
You liar
You said you’d never leave
I believe you
You’ll never leave
You Goddamn monster
You’re fucking sick
Does it please you
To watch me bleed on the ground
I loved you once
I think we all do
Then we hate you
We wish you dead
You’re deep inside of me
The only way you’ll die is if I do
And […]
“Fact: Haters don’t really hate you. In fact. they hate themselves because you’re a reflection of what they wish they could be.”
I wanna say thanks to you all for accepting me into this group. Never thought I’d find such amazing people that think just like I do. Not only that, but yall have the dignity to accept me for who I am and even though I’ll be dead this time next year and have a long way to go to get there (since I got a lot of funding to do), none of you told me DONT DO IT! That means a lot to me. Total validation and acceptance of my choice, and self ownership means a lot to me. As I plan my eventual end, […]
Does anyone else feel like even the people you are closest to hate you the most? I feel like everyone secretly hates me and wouldn’t at all mind if I were to kill myself. Like it would be good for all of us. One less annoying person to deal with, one less person to waste your breath and opinions on. One less person to look down on. My suffering will end, it will end soon enough and everyone would be at their happiest. I just don’t think I will be able to find a purpose. It’s impossible.
Maybe life, isn’t for everyone.
” I’m sorry i cheated on you and used you” “it’s okay”
” I’m sorry that i verbally abused you” “it’s okay”
” I’m sorry i physically abused you” […]
I don’t know why people keep connecting with me. I know it’s flattering and some people might actually would do anything to get that but it’s rather hard for me. I know spending time with friends would take me away from my problems for a while and that is nice but I know I’m going to be an ass and ruin it. I don’t even know if I’m being an ass or not. I don’t know if people accept me or just trying to keep a profile. I am weird and extremely moody. One shit can hurt me like what AM I!?
I am fine being […]
I can keep it together for pretty long. Sunglasses on, hair down, blank fuckin stare.
Threw up “mop that shit up with your hair *****, i want you to get on your fucking knees and mop it up. You’re lucky i dont make you eat it.”
Lol. Call me a monkey, I love monkeys, im a ****, i love that word, very empowering.
Keep it together, don’t laugh, for gods sake don’t cry. I’ll be laughing when I’m selling my engagement ring. I’ll […]