Earlier I tried to hang myself. To be honest it was partly experimental but now I’m surrounded by my family and won’t get another chance to try again ( hopefully for the final time) until tomorrow. What the hell can I do in the mean time!!!??!!?!??!?
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Hell
Who is this quiet girl?
The one with the scars
What makes her so deplorable?
Why is she so marred?
Why don’t you ask her?
“What is your life story?â€
Are you afraid to stir
A pot already overflowing?
Do you know sometimes
That’s all she needs?
A kind caring stranger
To let her feel seen
But you stay away
You never seem to think
About her or the fray
She keeps underneath
Why do you ignore
Her transparent mask?
Can you not see
She wants you to ask?
But you are repulsed
With no obvious cause
Why are you appalled
By someone so small?
Is it this aura of death […]
hi, i just need to get this off my back, so heres my story. i am a skateboarder, i have a pretty good life from what everyone knows about me, but thats not actually true. im that happy kid that almost everyone likes, they go to when they’re sad, they go to when they need inspiration, etc. thing they dont know is how unhappy i actually am, its not the cut myself unhappy, im too much of a pansy to even think about hurting myself, i cringe at the thought of a cut from a razorblade, fuck that. thing is, i hate what i am, […]
Through this graceless ravaging tempest
You seek to forsake this pitiful flesh
As you attempt a hopeless and doomed extrication
It clings to you with gladiator determination
You remain grotesquely animated
Choiceless, as your pain throbs unabated
Decaying within a merciless incarceration
Demonic phantoms do a deathly dance in your mind
Creating these hideous nightmares for you to find
On the despairingly glorious doorstep of hate
A gate guarantees elusively infinite escape
Bloodless corpses swirl through the mist
Promising a torture more fulfilling than this
Entranced, you eagerly stumble towards the howling wraiths
There is no hope in hell
No comfort when you fell
But purgatory is […]
I know I keep posting…basically I guess I am trying to get my thoughts,feelings out before I die. I dont want to be saved,Im too far gone at this point. I think as I draw closer to the end I just need to purge this poison as much as possible….so bear with me. Or dont,I guess no one needs to read this. Dont necessarily need a reply.
Had another huge fight with BF on phone last night..still refuses to come back home,now trying to say he wants to talk to my therapist first. he keeps threatening to stay down there and never come back. His goddamn […]
I went away for 3 days, to visit my sister at her university. It was a nice break from my parents. They’ve never really been the best to me. I had an awesome time, I returned in such good spirits because when I was over there I didn’t have  a care in the world. I was in a different city, a good 4 hours from where I live. I barely texted anyone so it was just a clear-mind vacation (I know it was only 3 days) So that was fun, but as soon as I get home they start being rude. My parents like to […]
i took some pills earlier. i was supposed to just take one, i took seven. i wasn’t even thinking when i took them. i only realized after the fact. what the hell is wrong with me/
When i was in rehab i was forced into group therapy, I was only a week into rehab so i was still feeling the effects of withdrawal, So lets just say i was not in the best of moods.
(Day 1)
When it came round to my turn, i said the words, my name is Shane and im a addict. (It didnt really feel like a big step, but it was, i see that now)
She asked me why i started doing drugs.
i said ” why does anyone do drugs, they want to escape the shityness of there live’s”(I was less cordial then)
She said “Yes, but what was it […]
I have this feeling. It starts in the back of my throat and goes down to my stomach. I can’t pinpoint exactly what it is, but I guess I can relate it to the feeling you get on a roller coaster. Not the one you get when you begin to plummet, but the one right before that. The feeling you get at the top of the hill when you start to hear the chains slowly go down and you begin to wonder why the hell you got on the ride in the first place. By then, though, it’s too late to get off and so […]
there, I said it.
took long enough too
sometimes I wonder why I bother at all trying to chase my petty little ambitions. especially when i’ve flagged myself to fail before i’ve even started. and then one day i’ll just die and everything i ever did will fade anyway.
same for every other guy out there.
story of human life. appear for a spell. rot. and then the earth will be burnt up by the sun.
maybe we’ll escape that (doubtful). so we go hop galaxies or something.
but then maybe one day the universe will run out of stars.
and then everything will go cold.
what the hell is the point.
Does anyone else feel as though they should have been born in another age?
by Unique
written by Unique
I think either my mind was ment for a 13th knight or i was one in a past life, i am obsesed with history, old wars and old cultures, and as a result is dislike most this modern.
An example is modern art, its one of my pet peeves, I mean what ever happened to just painting a beautiful seen or a portrait in mono colours.
I was at a modern art show yesterday and the stuff was so werid, like stacked blocks and shapes thrown togeather. Maybe other modern people find that stuff interesting but i sure as hell dont.
Take Van Gogh for instance, one of […]
Tomorrow is the day. I will swallow a few pills all in once. I hope my heart stops beating.
I am sick and that’s what i am. I am a sick fuck. Who isn’t able to do shit. I have no social life, no education, just nothing that is needed to have a stable life. I am a worthless piece of shit and when i die, i will suffer even more because hell is my destiny.
I have one question though, what does efexor 75mg does with your body when you overdose on them? These are anti-depressant pills.
Goodbye.
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
I am gay
I am Christian
I am in the closet with my family
I moved countries to put distance between us so I don’t have to face up to the truth.
I entered into a civil partnership
The lies are getting more and more
I am tired of christians who hate me for something I have not chosen
I don’t want to go to hell.
I have lost all hope
I want to die…….
I’ve decided to do it. You’ve all heard my story. I appreciate all the positive comments I’ve gotten. You all are so much stronger than I am. I’m going to a much better place. One where there is no pain or hate, no judgement. Only void. I’m going to join my best friend. To join My ex. To join All the others who saw this world for the horrible damned place that it is. Those of you who still believe in hell, even if I go there, I’ll be happier than I will be living here. To my parents who will find this while invading […]
I am a fifteen year old girl who hates her apperance who would Love to just finally kill herself and get life over with. I am good at hiding my emotions and i am just so so so tired of going on.
i know people lifes are horribly bad but mine is no walk in the park either. My mom sees what she wants my two older sister care but do they care enough? my dad didnt even want me he wanted my second oldest sister. I have been trying to kill myself since 5th grade. this year i was baker acted twice and i […]
Life was always such a *****, i was dirt. Every second of every day, i always ended up hurt.
I wanted to commit suicide more then ever, i swore my life would never get any better.
Things didn’t change, life just felt so strange.
I just dug a hole in my heart, let it rot and get infested with pure dark.
I was in hell, just rotting away. Then one certain day, [life re-arranged] .
IÂ got better, i smiled more. I opened thousands of new doors.
I got me a girl, fell in love. Then just like that, we were done.
I haven’t stopped smiling, even though my whole life, i was always crying.
Things got better for me, just as it […]
When you just don’t care enough to carry on
And every road looks like the wrong way
You feel like you’ve got nowhere to belong
And you can’t get out of bed to face the day
When you drive away the ones that love you most
And you’re left staring into the abyss
You feel that you’d prefer to be a ghost
Because you know that you will not be missed
Then I’ve been where you are, without a doubt
And the way that you feel, ain’t no tongue can tell
It’s a darkened room with no clear way out
You’ve made it to the other side […]
I feel so screwed up, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve had a cutting problem for years now, I can’t get a hold of it. I recently started dating someone and I still can’t stop. It just upsets him, I get patronized for it. Whenever I’m in a situation where I have no one to talk to and I have overwhelming emotions, it’s always what I turn to. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like I can’t take it anymore. I feel like a burden talking about my feelings, they must sound so trivial and whiny. If I keep it […]
i am sick and tired of my drunk ass mom she never listens to me or even cares all i want to do is die doese any one have any tips on how to die fast if u do ge back t me cause all i want to do is die right here and right now i cant take all of this anymore more my life is litterly a liven hell it is like there is no god or right or justice jut devil hell and wrong please just tell me wat to do so ii can die and get of this hell of a […]