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I hate

by kurdt kobian 12/23/2013

written by kurdt kobian

Have you ever hated yourself so much, and despised yourself so much that you threw up? Or that you wanted just to destroy your self? God I hate me. Â And everyone who cuts themselves or starves themselves or hates themselves knows it. I don’t want to hurt anyone, but I hurt deep down so much that it bubbles up and I keep lashing out at people and then they hate me and I hate myself more. It’s a lethal circle.

I hurt because I feel like a failure who will never amount to anything. I know my friends who know about this are getting annoyed because […]

12/23/2013 0 comment

Confused

by Jwolf 2/19/2013

written by Jwolf

Is it possible to be both sad and happy, suicidal but not depressed? oh, btw, the song Bullet by Hollywood Undead kind of helps to clear my mind

2/19/2013 0 comment

Mr Fish

by sonseray 2/17/2013

written by sonseray

Hey guys. I guess I’m here to vent. That’s all this really is, but I need it regardless. I’m a pretty popular guy at school. A junior in high school. I get along with everyone, but I just can’t seem to be happy. I have absolutely no ambition. I have no will to live, and I have no will to succeed. I go to school. I get along. I make jokes. People laugh at my jokes. I go home. I don’t talk to my parents. My pride has ruined our respective relationships, but I don’t regret it. My pride is one of the only things […]

2/17/2013 5 comments

Why do I do this to myself?

by marchingkitty 1/24/2013

written by marchingkitty

I know for a fact that I get too emotionally involved when i watch movies/read books about depression/suicide/self harm. So why the hell do i still do it? When i do this i start to think of how shitty my life is. This makes me start to feel physically sick. They either make me feel like i have no reason whatsoever to be depressed and suicidal or they give me that false Hollywood hope. The characters always have some huge overwhelming problem that makes them depressed or whatever. Me? Well I’m just haunted by my past (been bullied badly), do poorly in school, rarely see […]

1/24/2013 1 comment

So I guess you had to leave, You were born with wings, But you were never happy, ‘Til the angels sing….

by Nat.... 11/20/2012

written by Nat....

Okay, So urm… I’ve decided that the only place, really that I should complain about my life is on here. I just don’t wanna hurt the people around me anymore….

On Saturday- A new friend showed me the song Hollywood Undead- Coming back down. I had it in my head for ages, Just over-analyzing it. I had this horrible feeling (partly to do with “voices”?) that we’re all going to die…. I literally went crazy over this.

Monday Night- Nick’s cousin is in a car crash, And unfortunately Dies. R.I.P

Today- I have came to a sort of conclusion that people are going to keep dying until i’m […]

11/20/2012 1 comment

by Purmi 11/5/2012

written by Purmi

Used a razor blade for the first time, and let me tell you, it’s a far cry from my old blunt carving knife from my less than successful scout days.

I didn’t like it. I’ve been planning to kill myself with them, but… Cold feet again. I feel so disgusted. All these pathetic lines down my left arm, and for what? I can’t escape from here, I’m trapped. It was all just a pipe dream.

I just want to be safe. Safe and happy and oblivious. Dream pretty, achievable dreams. Forget I ever existed and become someone else. Someone who isn’t a complete idiot.

I mean all this […]

11/5/2012 8 comments

A Goodbye Letter

by Desperation57 2/16/2012

written by Desperation57

Â Â Â Â (the following is a letter I recently wrote in serious consideration with my personal thoughts. Sorry its not Hollywood style beautiful, but it is how I am feeling at the moment)

My dearest family, friends and anyone else that this letter may find its way too… This, in the end, may b worth nothing more then a bad joke because there r no words I can say to express how sorry I am… Sorry that I was blind to the blessings I already had and was selfish enough to think my problems were all that mattered. Sorry that I […]

2/16/2012 11 comments