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sometimes theres hope but then its crushed

by missti sal 5/1/2015

written by missti sal

this has become ridiculous, im not sad anymore im just angry.. why must i bare the burden and fall apart while he roams the night…

i am dreadfully tired of explaining time and time again why i am angry, WHY CANT YOU SEE?! its YOU, its always ever gonna be you. i love you with all that i am, you are my family, my world, my everything, youre all i have left in this life so imagine my disappointment when i hear on more than one occassion from the people in your life that i should watch out for you the most, that youre my greatest […]

5/1/2015 2 comments

Not an ad – sorry to be annoying

by Stereotype 4/30/2015

written by Stereotype

Raise Awareness by Sponsoring Please consider sponsoring me in my walk with National Alliance on Mental Illness. I will be walking this saturday and hope there will be a big turn out. Mental illness affects 1 in 5 people. The above link will take you directly to my page on NAMI Walks so you have the option to sponsor me. If you can’t afford a buck or two then please consider walking with me or with your local NAMI affiliate on their walk day.

Update:I am doing really well

4/30/2015 1 comment

promise

by delsnak 4/21/2015

written by delsnak

Theres only one person i really care about is my best friend. ive known her for 8 years and i’ve told her about my problems. She made me promise not to cut or hurt myself again, hope i can keep that promise.

4/21/2015 0 comment

done

by spvnalittlelie 4/17/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

i’m so done with life. i have been for a very long time now. thing is i don’t have the guts to do myself in. i wish i did, then my suffering would have been over a very long time ago. i’ve had people, family who were supposed to love me, tell me that they hate me and hope i die. well good for them. i’ve ceased to matter to anyone and i don’t care anymore. i want to be out of here, not because they want me to be, but because i want to be. fuck all the rest. if only i had the […]

4/17/2015 3 comments

why do we yearn for death instead of yearning for a better life?

by cathy arsis 4/15/2015

written by cathy arsis

i took 42 days and spoke not a word, nor did i write that would be cheating.

mostly i wondered why i wished for death so terribly

i want to end my life

for shame

i am ashamed of how scared i am, and how useless i am,

i am ashamed of how much of a burden i am

and how much hurt i cause to those i care for because i am weak

if measured by the skill it takes to kill

a phantom is a 1,000 weights and reality a penny pound

and all my strength turned to ash by the febrile strength of an unjust man

dissipated by sour breath and uncouth […]

4/15/2015 6 comments

Misery before death

by dwink 4/11/2015

written by dwink

Some of us were meant to live a miserable life and die alone. I use to think if I work hard and be nice to people maybe, just maybe I’d have some sort of hope in this world, but instead I am miserable, alone and almost out iof hope. Burying myself with work only worked for so long. Poetry only gave me a tomorrow, but one run’s out of words and the pain and suffering is hard to endure. The last few years have been challenging, thoughts of suicide constant and love has been obscure and friends have almost disappear. Phoenix Arizona is now a […]

4/11/2015 1 comment

copelessness’s thoughts on love

by BlackOutAlice 4/11/2015

written by BlackOutAlice

Alice loved this so much Alice wanted to make it it’s own post, Alice feels like it needs to receive the attention it deserves Alice marvelous at how simple yet touching these words can be. So true Alice agrees it is so true

Save me? No.
But when I had someone who loved me, I was stronger and could take the unending waves that threaten to pull me under.
When I had someone who loved me, I had more confidence […]

4/11/2015 5 comments

I wish I was stronger

by omnashime 4/7/2015

written by omnashime

Hey, you guys.

I’m feeling extra gloomy today, and this is the ony place I could think of.

I really wish I was dead already, and I wish I were stronger to just do it. I just can’t take it anymore, I’m at that point where you’ve lost absolutely all hope.
I think the only thing stopping me right now is the unbearable feeling that I will absolutely crush my folks’ heart forever. I realize how unfair it’d be to kill myself when they have done nothing but love me and support me all along. But tell me then, what am i suppose to do when they’re gone […]

4/7/2015 1 comment

by leapfrog 3/28/2015

written by leapfrog

i know he was kidding but I thought about it and, would i enjoy it if he choked me? stabbed me? I don’t know. I mean, I do want to die.

i wouldn’t mind if it was you

i hope maybe, in a weird way, i could get you angry enough for you to actually maybe scare me away or get rid of me. I don’t know. I’m weird. I’m sorry Elu, I love you, really. sort of. I’m not worth being friends with you. I’m not worthy of you’re kindness or anything.

Maybe one day I can find the courage to leave you alone.

3/28/2015 2 comments

don’t have a title

by an_old_child 3/20/2015

written by an_old_child

yesterday when i was done and tried to kill myself, i found out something new about myself :i’m so coward . i was REALLY angry of being alive but i couldn’t kill myself i couldn’t cut my wrist with blade. i tried but it was painful so i just ended up crying like a little child and now i have another reason to hate myself. i always thought that i can kill myself if i really want to but i was absolutely wrong.

my sister told me that she loves me and begged me not to kill myself. i remember once she cried so hard on […]

3/20/2015 4 comments

Given-up

by Voidt 3/15/2015

written by Voidt

I give up ! There’s no hope anymore, everything I do is futile and I’m too lonely. Life keeps playing tricks on me; I would be fine one morning, then, almost out of nowhere, I wake-up to something terrible, and I’ll be sitting there wondering why it happened.

I’ve had enough. I don’t know what the end will be; I think it may be suicide; cutting myself looks so good right now, I had resisted doing it for a long-time.

I’m so sick of people, I’m sick of my self, I’m bored of life.

If you’re out there, God, just kill me already you fucking prick…At least make […]

3/15/2015 1 comment

Fanfiction.

by FreakOfNature 3/11/2015

written by FreakOfNature

I don’t know about the rest of you, but I often read fanfiction about my davorite band members. I noticed a lot of people would get upset because they “romanticize” suicide, depression, selfharm, disorders, and so on. Yet, I never looked at it that way. I would always think of it as a way that it gave me hope that eventually some one would accept me the way these members would in the stories. Sadly, I can never say that out loud or express my opinion about it because I’d immediately get attacked online or whatever that i’m this horrible person for thinking that way […]

3/11/2015 1 comment

I fear her

by macd123 3/6/2015

written by macd123

Because with a word she could ruin me. Her influence is stronger than anything the pharmacy magician can conjure. You ask her a question and you hope her tongue will be like silk and not slit your throat. You feel her everywhere, she is your savior and can be your death. You read her lips, her smile, her stance they are all telling you to go away. You are distorted and hope that you can hide somewhere in her mind – you will always be looking in. You kid yourself that if she gives you any response at all that Jesus is real and love […]

3/6/2015 0 comment

friends

by lovemyshihtzu 3/5/2015

written by lovemyshihtzu

i need friends to help me through this hard time and give me hope tawneesmommy@gmail.com

3/5/2015 0 comment

that moment

by Valentine Sugar 3/1/2015

written by Valentine Sugar

My treacherous mind lives in the hope of a new world while outside I become an insensitive monster.

The part of me that still feels shout in agony locked in a world full of bullshit waiting for the moment when we both get free. The moment of my death.

3/1/2015 0 comment

Need to make a choice

by yankeefairy2 2/27/2015

written by yankeefairy2

Like most people here I have reached the end of my rope. My world is crashing around me and I cant hold on anymore. In the past year I have lost everything about myself. I look in the mirror and I don’t even know who the person staring back is. I have gotten so good at pretending that everything is ok and that I don’t cry when I am alone. The thoughts of suicide that use to be few and far in between have now taken a permanent residence in my head.

I saw the signs and yet I ignored them. There is no one to […]

2/27/2015 1 comment

ringing-bell of an homage, and a music, how do i proceed, to eternity..

by Bisban 2/27/2015

written by Bisban

alright. i hope you’re still at the casino

let me know, will you say no

pick-me up with the automobile, and let’s go

triple our vegan power

can you be red and blue, like mario

what do i do

oh, wao-wao

…

message. all over…

nothing-more…

can i just walk…

let-me know.

Back-to…

Anno Domini

2/27/2015 246 comments

Look to the skies

by dreamyskies 2/22/2015

written by dreamyskies

Some of my earliest memories are of my mother giving me up for adoption ( I was classified as a ‘child in need’). As I child, I didn’t realize she had given me up, I merely thought I was staying with family for a while. I remember two different families I stayed with for some time. The first family I stayed with, the V’s, I can barely remember. The V’s were nice, but were more interested the other child there than they were with me. The one I remember the most, lets call them the ‘D’s’, were my second family. I loved the […]

2/22/2015 1 comment

am i stupid?

by alexmckim 2/16/2015

written by alexmckim

I really am stupid arnt I? After everything you’ve said and done… I’M still here praying you’ll see me… my heart filled with false hope as I stay up all night waiting for a single word from you. Only to be heart broken every night. You left me and ended our friendship because of something I didn’t even do. Just an excuse they say. It’s just a reason for you to walk away. I truly an stupid because Im still here waiting… praying that it’s not over… that you’ll keep your promises and what you’d said weren’t lies. But the longer time passes the thinner […]

2/16/2015 2 comments

just a girl

by disposablegrl 2/16/2015

written by disposablegrl

i am just a girl

I have no super powers

My veins filled with blood

But as I lay here

Breathing, in tears

By the agony I feel

I become aware

My heart ripped out

Stomped on, destroyed

Did not alter the life

Continuing on in my soul

I am just a girl

Without a heart, no joy

No possible future

Nowhere left to go

I have no super powers

But here I am

Against allodds

I still stand

I am just a girl

Without any hope

Void of will

I AM NO SUPER HERO!

So please tell me why

Against all the odds

why do I stand here still?

2/16/2015 0 comment

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