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Vent Vent Vent

by HumanTrash 7/8/2014

written by HumanTrash

I was in a chatroom on social media

and i saw those words

‘i feel like dying’

shit

thats not what the website is for

so i tell them

‘call the suicide hotline’

they disregard me

a person message

‘stoop her’

stoop her?

im so confused now

‘stop her,shes my girlfriend’

shit
what am i supposed to do now?

so i set up a little personal package

dont die

suicidal numbers

truths

sigh

send

there

i fixed everything,right?

10 minutes
30
nothing

Wait–

Something!

‘Has she responded yet’

And now im going back

To that one place

That one place where i

pull my hair

and cant breathe

and feel like letting it all out

literally

just opening my mouth and letting my organs flow

a shake and heave

and start my same habit in a different place

and think about […]

7/8/2014 2 comments

Darkenss

by DarkAngel21 7/8/2014

written by DarkAngel21

Im screaming

Darkness is consuming me

No one hears my cries

“Your fat”

“Your ugly”

“No one loves you”

“Your a mistake”

I cover my ears

Shut my eyes

Trying to draw away the voice

“No that’s not true!”

I would yell at the voice

“My family, My friends, My boyfriend LOVE ME”

I scream in agony

“Its pity love,

Family are supposed to love you ,

Your friends wear a mask,

You boyfriend doesn’t want to hurt you”

I slowly opened my eyes

I saw a shadowy figure stand before me

Black as night

Embrace me

It whispered

“Shhhhh, im here for you”

I slowly open my eyes and look at it

It kisses me

I feel all my emotions go into that kiss

It looks at me with a satisfied expression

“The contract […]

7/8/2014 0 comment

I learned it from you

by DarkAngel21 7/8/2014

written by DarkAngel21

You asked if I ate

I nodded hiding the truth

You asked if I cut

I shook my head hiding the truth

You asked if im happy

I nodded hiding the truth

You asked if I was crying

I shook my head hiding the truth

You never see my world of lies

You wonder who I learned it from?

It was you

You lie

I lie

Its a world of lies

No truth within

7/8/2014 0 comment

hi people

by paingoaway 7/7/2014

written by paingoaway

i have no life and im trying not to fall into depression and suicide and stuff right now. anybody wanna talk about whatever?

7/7/2014 13 comments

I was doin good for a little while or … Well it seemed so… I dont think I’ve ever been “doing good” i dont know. Does anyone ever just feel like they are living some kind of joke. Some kind of fake thing. Life to me is kinda wierd. I’m not in control of my own mind/habits/thoughts and that in itself scares the shit out of me. My parents really have gone the extra mile for me. They provide me. Safe haven while i try to regroup myself and im 28 so its embarressing as hell. They try their best to encourage me. Im a […]

7/6/2014 5 comments

Alone

by sweetending 7/6/2014

written by sweetending

20. Female.

Do you know the pain of living every single day with nothing to look forward to or any plans? Its my life on a daily basis. A life of an invisible person.
Every day I live my life in isolation when I know there isn’t anyone in this world that cares. In the past I thought that I had “friends”. Truth is, they were acquaintances, not real friends. You know the type of relationship where you give a lot but you get minimum in return? Ive had too many of these.
I have no family so I never grew up with a family experience. […]

7/6/2014 6 comments

by broken818 7/6/2014

written by broken818

today my mom was yelling saying she wanted to diee & i said me too so she told me to do it & she said she was gunna go home & take pills and kill herself because she didnt want to be a mother anymore and she was done with us (brother,sister & i) …………..i called the cops on her telling them that she was making threats about killing herself am i wrong ??…. i knw shes gunna hate me even more now and never talk to me because of that. my family probably gunna stop talkking to me as well…. im always the […]

7/6/2014 2 comments

Why am I such a failure?

by theDWARN9 7/5/2014

written by theDWARN9

So let me just start by saying, I hate myself. I have for a long time (almost 7 years). I’m 16 (almost 17) and male.
Just about everyday i’m told about how i need to get a job and get a liscence and get a car. I spend all my time in my room, on the internet because there i can do what i want without getting picked on. My whole school life people have made fun of me. In primary school i didnt give a shit. But in highschool, with 4 times the people (and people from other grades) picking on me and making […]

7/5/2014 6 comments

What the fuck is life?

by alone7789 7/5/2014

written by alone7789

She lived with me for a year and we were each others everything and then she started doing whatever the fuck she wanted and didnt respect me so i broke up with her and she packed up and left. That year was so broken and fucked up but i loved her with everything in my body everything but i couldnt take the feeling of her slipping away (I could tell we were loosing our love) But even though i broke up with her I still love her so much and i wish i never did it but its too late shes trying so hard not […]

7/5/2014 0 comment

independence cuts

by abandon16 7/4/2014

written by abandon16

Id just cut both of my arms they burn its hot theres blood its burning the only reason i did it was becuz of him….he has a party hosted n there girlz who dnt respect a relationship, im scared to Kno what is going on….im crying scared worried paranoid, uploads pics of him n money lik no tht not CUTE n then of bottles n bottles of liquor, it just worries me n i wanna let him kno but then i dnt wanna ruin his night. He pinky promise he wasnt ginna drink o smoke n i hope it stays lik tht

7/4/2014 1 comment

by broken818 7/3/2014

written by broken818

im really fucked up in the head & i just want to die so i can be at peace but im too afraid to kill myself im extremly miserable that im still here … why dont i have the balls to end it ? death is all i think about i even wish i get sick with cancer or something so i can die cause im too scared to do it myself …. i want to go im tired of being/felling sad,miserable,worthless,unloved,invisible,ugly,unhappy etc IM JUST TIRED & READY TO GO

7/3/2014 4 comments

Im Afraid

by DarkAngel21 7/3/2014

written by DarkAngel21

Im afraid to die but im also afrad to live… Ive attempted Suicide 3 times, but they all resulted the same… My mom never knew….I cant talk to her, she thinks im all better but the truth is im not I feel more dead inside. I always try to make my friends feel better and talk them out of suicide or self harm but im to afraid to ask for help myself.

7/3/2014 2 comments

im at this point

by Mary Love 7/2/2014

written by Mary Love

im at this point where I just want to end it all.

the only bad thing is, i’m trying so hold to hang on.

most people say, well if you had time to write this, then you aren’t going to do this.

I want to so bad but I don’t want to.

I want to die so I don’t have to deal with these people anymore

so I don’t have to feel sad anymore

but I can’t wait for the day I leave for my grandparents house.

that’s the only reason i’m holding on.

I just wany yhis pain to end.

I don’t WANT to die, but that’s the only way I know how […]

7/2/2014 12 comments

by rebelution 7/1/2014

written by rebelution

Well my name is Christopher, I’ve been dealing with depression roughly around 10 years and im a 25 year old. Let me say my journey has not been glamorous. I constantly have suicidal thoughts and have self inflict harm to myself. i do not only deal with depression. I deal with Anxiety, Depression, Agoraphobia, PTSD, and im impulsive. So I sometimes act without thinking clearly. I have my own psychiatric and therapist but im not sure if they help to much and I take prescription medicine aswell not much help either. Im not quite sure why I register to this project. I guess to find […]

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7/1/2014 1 comment

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i hate my parents

by That_1_Guy 6/29/2014

written by That_1_Guy

My parents don’t know im suicidal and ive been thinking about it more and more…Today i went out with my bestfriend whom they both trust. We went to a bonfire. Left. He got lost and when we got back to town we grabbed some food but the chef was gone and our food took forever. Basic basically i came home 30 minutes late and they start snapping on me. Talkimg about respect. I seriously hate them, they compare me to my brother who lies to them all the time and does a lot of drugs. But they don’t know that and flip on me for […]

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6/29/2014 4 comments

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im tired of feeling left out

by itsnoteasy 6/28/2014

written by itsnoteasy

The thing is, im the kind of person people wanted to hang out with because they think im funny, cool and popular and because i always get straight A’s. It has always been like that. Like i dont even ask for anyone but they all try to sit with me at lunch or inside the class. They laugh at my jokes, they invite me to places and i thought wow, i didnt ask for this kind of attention but it’s all happening. That was my story. For 10 years i had that. And then i found out they were all just using me to be […]

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6/28/2014 1 comment

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2nd attempt

by Irish junk head 6/28/2014

written by Irish junk head

Its 2 weeks after my 2nd suicide attempt i found the deepest artery in the middle of my arm it was like an inch or 2 deep and an artery below your thumb. also took 20 d10s to thin my blood. my gf called an ambulance i sent her a text apologising for my selfishness also wrote a suicide note i thought id be dead b4 she read the text it takes lonher than you think. Was kapt in an psychiatric hospital until i was seen by a pysycyatrist they siad im bi polar and split personality disorder i signed myself out have been put […]

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6/28/2014 0 comment

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To tell the truth

by alina_01 6/27/2014

written by alina_01

I hate life everything about it I can’t honestly tell you something I genuinely like about it. Life hurts me so much that I’m afraid to even live it because I know the pain will come. Im afraid to let anyone in, to love, to trust, to believe. Because I see things negative and I don’t think I can change that, happiness is temporary and pain is forever. I’m afraid that I won’t make it through the next branch of pain so I don’t want to let go of this one. I don’t want to be happy that way I won’t feel the pain of […]

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6/27/2014 3 comments

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addicted to cutting

by death101 6/27/2014

written by death101

ive never want to cut so much in my life,

to feel that cool red liquid pour out of a fresh cut,

to feel that moment of relief,

to see the blood give in,

to see the blood turn to scabs then the scabs to scars,

its the best way to cope,

the only way i know,

because im sick of living this life,

tired of who i am

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6/27/2014 0 comment

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nightmare yet again

by death101 6/27/2014

written by death101

so i finally thought i overcame everything, but lately i felt the need to cut, i have cut out of desperation

i had an argument with a friend causing me and my partner to break up and causing her to break up with my friend,

things were said people where hurt and it hit me… i already felt dead inside… thoughts in my head “this is what you done, its your fault, your no good , everyone better of not knowing you” ect … so i went downstairs got a box of pills and took 24 paracetamols hoping id never wake up…

but here i am …. the […]

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6/27/2014 4 comments

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