i always wonder if people look at me and think.. damn i wish i looked like her!! or do they think damn shes ugly ass fuck. im a kinda thick girl and active tall long blond hair. and you would think ppl would like that but i guess not..
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At school…ugh just have a feeling im going to sleep in one of my classes…counldnt sleep last night over that woke up to be SICK….hate it, hate being sick
im 51 years old and sick of my life and want to end it
I dont know maybe life does get easyer, but right now its getting harder for me to live.. im not the best but I at least try to be there for everyone… people expect alot from me but HELLO im only a 15 year old girl… im just one person they cant expect me to do everything at once..ONE DAY I WILL CHANGE WHATS IN FRONT OF ME…
I deserve rest and peace. Please. why, I might do it tomorrow but tonight im to tired. Goodnight everyone. If I do it will be responsibly done quick and easy. Of couse I have Bi polar, of course I suffered childhood trauma, of course I attempted before, of course I cut, of course I have gambling and drinking problems. shit paranoia is the worst. I have paranoia disorder.
what do i do? do i give up? do i stay? why am i here? i need help. nobody listens. im so close. im completely ready. im going to end. but when/
i dont know
what to say
the blinking cursor
is taunting me
its a blank page
a brand new post
what do i write?
do i write how i am?
do i write how you are?
do i write whatever?
i dont know really
i guess my message
for today,
that is within this poem
is;
im going to stop posting.
i cant take it
i have made more people
worry about me
more people think i matter
more people care about me
more people to bring pain to
when i say my final Au Revoir
its hurting me too
I’m 16 from a supportive family. I have a Girlfriend that treats me well and I have solid friends. But I can’t seem to take happiness from anything. I’ve planned everything to just give up and leave but I can never seem to take the last step, I really just want all of this to go away but I’ve tried everything, im ready to go, and im just looking for that one little push to tell me its time
I just got told that im not trying hard enough.
Which kinda makes me want to you know, not try at all.
Give up completely.
im so lost.
i am not okay. im ending my life tonight i hate everything. goodbye
Ok so it has been really hard for me to admit this but I’m a bad person! I do not care about anyone or anything?! I’m always and only worried about me! Its like I know im this evil person but I don’t do anything! I fear everything! I fear driving and dying I fear people not liking me when why should they I’m a fuck up and it’s like I know im a fuck up but I don’t do anything , I’ve been on this site before and read others posts but im so concerned with myself that I can’t even care and isn’t […]
I panic so much because of how I feel inside. My girlfriend wants me to get better but I cant right now. I know I should be happy with where I am in my life but everything that’s going on in my mind won’t let me.
I want her to get mad at me and tell me im wrong for not wanting to be here because if i leave this world ill be leaving her behind. one of my only reasons for being here is her because she wants me to. if she told me to kill myself tonight i would think about it for two […]
im actually so sick and tired of the problems i have with my boyfriend. All he seems to do is blame me for everything but i honestly cant see what i have been doing wrong. Then he just chooses to ignore me instead of actually telling me what i have done wrong. We havent seen eachother in 3 weeks because he is always ‘busy’, but hopefully i should be seeing him this weekend but im really doubting that. I really don’t know what i should do? Any suggestions?
its done
its said
im gone
im dead
no one misses me
nobody notices
what was the point
im better where im at
if i see a tear
i know its not for me
i wont be in the way anymore.
goodbye
I cut myself for the first time in a year…I hate on what I did but I had to get the pain out one eay or other…im trying to hide it from my family because my grandparents said if I do it again they are going to make me go to a hospital so I can get help…but here the thing no one can help me only I can help myself because its my doing
i dont know anymore. i thought i could recover. i thought i can hold it in and just keep it to myself. to just keep it in all of it. all of the secrets. all of the lies. all of the masks. but i dont know. i dont know if im close to breaking all together. i dont know if im close to just going. i dont know if im close to jumping. i dont know if im backing away from the edge. i dont know who i am anymore. i dont know what personality is which. i dont which smile is which. i dont […]
Im done living this life I cant done it anymore im hurting to much no one cares. Maybe it would be a good thing that I leave this world. NO ONE CARES ANYMORE, SO IM DONE!!
Im living this life that isnt even mine. I dont know what im living for anymore..I was once a happy little girl but everything chance for me im not the same person anymore….how do I get my life back?
all my life I have been the freak, the weird one, the one nobody wanted to be friends with. people would look at me and laugh, call me ugly make me feel uselss. fat ugly weird scary whore slut emo, were only some of the names….
grade 2 was when it started. I never realy knew what it was, and I thought it was all a joke, I dident really care, cuz hey I was young. grade 4 was when it hit me, this is bullying. I never wanted to tell anyone because I was scared it would make it worse. the names that I was called […]
I think I’m finally going to do it. Been depressed for too long. I’m 31 year old gorgeous woman with no kids but it doesn’t seem to matter. Every guy I date leaves me for some reason. The last guy I went out with left me because I’m a bartender for a living. Even though I make great money he doesn’t think I have a future. I’m sick of seeing all my friends getting engaged. I’m sick of everyone moving forward with their lives but me. I feel like a worthless loser who will be alone forever. I’m too depressed to try to change it. […]