Its the end of the line for me Ive run out of time and bleed from my soul my heart has grown cold from the the things I have done singularity is me, alone, one.
This culmination of events is my ruination, my decent. Into darkness I fall as the devil calls. I will burn for this, I deserve this.
Now what am i to do? Ive had depression and suffered for so long. i’m nearly 50 and w/o all hope. what am i to do? the best i can do is sleep as much as i can to just isolate b/c when i am around others i am always getting hurt. its a pathetic merry-go-round that i can get off of. i can even explain how i fee; and i certainly dont know what to do. sorry i have to exist. just sorry.
Im new to this forum. I recently found it and Ive been searching for something like this for a while. Im sad. Very sad. I mean, I see a few good days but overall Im sad. I dont want to be sad, no one does, but I dont know what to do anymore. I know that these past few weeks Ive been contemplating something I never thought Id want. Suicide. I always thought that would never be an option for me due to family things that Id rather not discuss here but It seems to be on my mind a lot.
Maybe I need a friend […]
U know dont you?how is to be pressured
Im lost, when i has 8 i promissed to myself that i would live at least to 20
My family has never seen me crying, i have holding it for years u know?
I have 18 now… but, im so afraid of living, everything is soo hard to me handle alone
Ive trying until now, im thinking in finally give me the eternal dream
Oh God forgive me…
Its better like this, ive never been strong enough.
?????
It does not matter…
… What i say
… What i do
… How hard i try
… How much i beg
I cant change a person.
We are who we want to be.
I cant live like this anymore…
I dont want to live like this anymore.
Im not crazy…
Im just really tired of hurting…
Im just really tired of fighting for nothing.
Before i say much of anything, I feel like I’ve got to make something clear: I dont want help. No, maybe I dont feel as if Im beyond help, but honestly at this point Id rather not hope that things will get better. Plus, oh unlikely reader of mine, there are better people on this site who actually deserve your help. Good people. Hurt people. People who wont give up as easily as I have.
Its been a while since Ive been on this site. A couple of months, perhaps. Definitely a few months since Ive posted or even commented. I suppose the reason is […]
I have had success but it is all gone. I had love but it is gone. Ive traveled done and seen a lot but none of that is in my future. If the future is merely a shell a hollow existence of mere survival as opposed to living is there any reason to go on?
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xo1VInw-SKc
Ive always fought but this time i am tired feel defeated and do not see how i can get past this. Every other time i could find my fight song… this time i just dont feel it in me.
Ive recently been diagnosed with manic depression. I’ve been reading the posts on here for the last few months. About 2 years ago I tried to kill myself by hanging and was nearly successful. I was unconscious and found by paramedics which is unfortunate. I’ve been battling with my depression for some time now and have had a partner on and off for the last 4 years. The support I’ve received from my friends and so called partner is diabolical. I know my parents will miss me especially my mum and I am so sorry and love you with all my heart. I just can’t […]
hi, I’m new to this page and I never would’ve expected myself to end up on it either. I’m 17, and I have what you would call an “easy life” but it’s anything but easy. Ive been feeling like crying all the time. I’ve tried against my life 6 times and every time I feel like I’m finally going to do it someone comes in and stops me. I’m honestly so done with the life I’m living and I’m tired of all the stress and people just judging all the time. I feel like everything would be better if I was dead. I’ll finally be […]
I’m 18 and for as long as I can remember I’ve been suicidal, I would run in front of cars when I was 4 because I’d heard of people getting killed by it. My parents got calls from my elementary school because I would say I wanted to more or less die. My parents just told me to not say it anymore. By the second grade I had multiple plans to kill myself. In the 3rd grade I told one of my peers about my thoughts and he encouraged me to act upon them. I had my first suicide attempt when I was ten. My […]
i would love to kill myself right now. Â I just can’t tolerate myself anymore. I have no desire for anything, Ive been carrying to much weight on my shoulders for so long. Â I just cant keep going anymore. But Im just gonna go to sleep n live one more day
Ive been trying to stop thinking of her, but everything reminds me of her. I love her too much. On the upside, she doesn’t entirely want to avoid me, she worked out some arrangements so we can communicate even if I don’t have a phone or anything of the sort.
I hate myself for this. Why can’t I just accept the fact that she’ll probably never love me? It’s pointless to continue.
I want to die. I really want to die, because I can’t take anymore of this hell. I’m a sophomore in high school, and barely hanging on. Parents hate me, telling me that theyve been trying to tell me they’re doing things for me. How can I believe that when they get pissed off at everything I do that they hate, whether it be major or trivial, and tell me to lie for their benefit? And I get beaten for it, no matter what I do. All I ask is for peace, yet no matter how much I try to get good grades, I can’t. […]
im tired of my life, im tired of pain and the bullying =[ ive had a bad week.
i feel alone and suicide keeps coming into my head. how do i keep that thought out???
Damnnit, ive took all of this stress to long! i Need Drugs!
I hate myself. I cut myself sometimes, try to break my own bones and ive even tryed taking iburprofen tryin to die it didnt work
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