Im so tired of all of this. Im blessed that i have a roof over my head. Im just tired of struggling in every capacity of my life. I dont have a method or else id be dead. I’m doing my best but genuinely what i really want is deaths sweet embrace. The permanent insignificance that ive lived my entire life is so all encompassing. Even here i feel alone. I feel alone everywhere. I dont belong. I felt belonging for such a short time so long ago i dont even know if it happened…. I’d give anything for a time machine or a […]
It finally happened. Now im out on the streets.
I feel like shit.
One of things I absolutely hate is the fact that we no longer live a normal life anymore.
My father is jobless, and my mother works freelance at the company where my dad used to work at. For months now, he’s been jobless and he’s been living with us in the apartment I’ve been using for college. Currently, he applied to some company abroad, whereas he’s been waiting for his papers’ approval. We’ve tried telling him to work at the company he worked at before but he absolutely hates it there, so no question about him wanting to go back otherwise it’d lead […]
Im working as a temp and have been for a couple of months. I may have had a chance to get hired on but i just no call no showed now i may be jobless. I kept calling the temp and company the past few days to see if i had to work with no answer with either. Now someone is telling me i did have to work and idk what to do. There is a dam 10 minutes away i can always jump. Im soooooo tired of always fucking up my life. My plan was to just go but i overslept woke up hella […]
I don’t know what the hell I’m doing anymore. Almost feels like I am just wasting life away. I have no idea what I want to do in life. I thought I had it figured out in high school, but when I realized I wasn’t able to afford university, I felt depressed. The reason I got good grades in school was to get into university; now I had to settle with community college. And if I was going to community college, what was the point of getting good grades? What’s the point of straight A’s if you go to community college? They don’t care. When […]
I am lizzy, a 32 years old woman.one month back, I had a good job.i was happy with my life and job.everything was fair and well, until a good looking guy joined my office on a high rank and started liking(?) me for no reason.most of my female colleagues ( married and unmarried)fell for him except me.when they found he was paying attention to me, they become furious and started to misbehave.
Last month i had to resign from my job for their grudge.i lost my job just because of him,inspite of being a prized employee.now i am jobless,tried many places but failed.that divorce awaiting guy now […]
CRITICAL parents, bullies, addictions, mean girls, jealous gossip, scapegoat me you bitches, outcasted, jobless
Hard working, straight Aing, exercising, writing, creating, therapy, friends, faith, graduate degree, PURPOSE, dignity
Shes meek and timid and mousy, she’s a minority who only speaks English, she’s worthless, so TIMID, fucking nice and quiet
Sing, paint, POWERFUL, spiritual, soulful, run, get up and try again, meditate, pray, brush it off, get up, SPEAK UP
Not enough, never enough, never enough, use me, put me in danger, put me down, alone, alone, ALONE, no one understands
No one will hire a wounded healer she said, think positive they said, have a thicker skin they say, have […]
So I have done everything I can to try and turn my life around and it just seems all I do is make it worse. I am now homeless, and jobless. My own family is basically not wanting to help me anymore – and I barely have any friends.
I will die by the end of the year and I am researching how to do it – I hate this world. People keep saying God has a plan for you – Well my name isn’t Job okay – I just feel I must have done something really horrible in my life to have my life be […]
And it is my own fault. I dropped out of college after 2 years, moved to another town where I got into drugs and other things, and fell on my face. After that I moved back to my hometown where I met a new women. We moved in together and I became a part of her family with her 3 children…sounds like I rebounded wonderfully right? Nope, ruined that too. Lost my job and the only way she doesn’t get evicted is if I move. I borrowed money to delay the process, but now I owe family that money and I do not have it. So […]
I am not certain what to type here.
A few years ago these tendencies, these thoughts, would feel foreign to me. To put it mildly, life was pretty good. I had a significant other who wanted to marry me, I was a straight A college student, and I had a broad pick of graduate programs to further my degree.
Now?
Enter the cliche story; she left me for a friend, college ended into a dead end midnight job, and graduate school did not work out. After diving in the deep end into jobs just to stay afloat for the past year, I am now left jobless(at 26), and I had […]
So its been nearly a year since I tried to kill myself. I did it at the end of last summer, swallowed three bottles of anti-depressants. I did it because I wanted to die, and I was outraged when I woke up still quite alive. However I became even more upset upon learning the level of my injuries. Apparently comitting suicide after leaving home with nowhere to go is a worse idea, particularly in northern Minneapolis. After overdosing and passing out, apparently somebody found me and proceeded to mug me, stealing my few valuables and kicking the shit out of my body.
Not […]
‘Pearls Before Swine’ by Stephan Pastis (May 6, 2012)
I’m not looking for advice at all since I have zero motivation to improve my lot in life. I’m merely writing this to ***** and vent and commiserate with any potential like-minded souls that might feel the same way while I’m still here.
I have no money. No job. And only got a high school diploma. I am 34 years old and am living with my parents, whom I am […]