Tag:
kill
I was first diagnosed with depression in my teens. I was supposed to be medicated but No my parents wouldn’t do that. I left home early to get away from abuse and thought I was running towards love. I was wrong. I tried going to hospitals for help but I had no insurance so it was like I didn’t exist. Years went by and I got worse. Eventually I snapped and tried to kill myself. Recently I found out I have a heart condition and had to go to the hospital. They told me not to work. I applied for Social Security but it’s taking […]
This world has gone to shit
large cracks emerge breaking apart cities and towns
spewing fire from the very depths of hell
there is no stopping the chaos it brings forth
cities burn, families die
he is merciless and will not stop
pain everlasting, brings nothing but sorrow
merciless combat breaks out between the ones
with the strength and the will to survive
friends turned to foes
as they fight to survive
he sits on his throne
laughing maniacally (laughing)
but in the end, he will kill them all anyway
entrapped in psychosis, is this a dreamworld?
ENTRAPPED IN PSYCHOSIS, IS THIS A DREAMWORLD?
WHAT THE […]
so I told the guy who likes me about my depression and that I cut and u want to kill myself so he told me he’s suicidal and cuts he also said that he’s psychopath because he’s though of running away from home and being a serial killer he said he has anger problems so his problems are worst then mine he’s been through a lot of things and I feel selfish for feeling like this I want to help him but how and can you guys give me some advice about all this
I wanted to kill myself this coming Friday. But then I got this email offering me some work. I don’t like to let people down. the work is scheduled for the Monday after my planned Friday. And I have all this “hope” inside that I can make things better, That should be a good thing, but I’m scared. I’ve gone through this cycle so many times. And after hope comes despair again. So many times have I decided on suicide but then decided against it only to come back to it again. I have no idea what I’m supposed to do.
my birthdays coming up, and I think I’ll kill myself. Or maybe I’ll wait till the day after, for Friday. That way no one will be expecting me somewhere. i work for two hours each weekday morning. So if I wait till Friday my week is done. I think Friday is the way to go. but I’ll wait and see what I feel Thursday
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel okay, I’m not insanely sad all the time, but I just really really want to kill myself. I don’t know why, but I just do.
My biggest regret is that I didn’t kill myself the first time I thought about it. I was 12, and I looked forward. I saw exactly what I have become: a useless, anxiety-plagued lump. Right then I knew I should kill myself because there was nothing for me in the future. I was right. It’s been 20 years and not even a week can pass without me regretting my decision to live. It would have been so much easier, so much better when I was a child, before people expect you to be reasonable and thoughtful. I should have done it then, or I should […]
Just depressed. I’ve been depressed before for 3 years. I got better. I was good and happy and appreciating things. Then things started going down hill again. I now have 2am thoughts at 2pm. And today I had the strongest feeling of killing myself. I was just about to as well. But then I looked at pictures of my boyfriend and I. That stopped me. Now im afraid that I made a big mistake. I made a mistake by making him my happiness. And of course he could just leave. But he wouldn’t do something like. But anyways, everything is bad again. I have scars, […]
yup title says it all. swallowed 20 aprin i didnt even fucking cry i was shaking though after about 10 minutes i felt fine and went to school. when i got there i was already feeling sick so i laid my head on my friends lap. it hurt to move and talk i had no strength. i told him what i did but he didnt get the hint to go get the nurse.so me myself had to walk around school from my class i was in to the office to my locker back to the class to the office. didnt throw up untill […]
Up until I hit middle school, I like to think I was a normal kid. A little shy, but I had friends and liked myself. I didn’t know it was possible to dislike yourself.
My middle and high school years have their own stories to them, but I’ll share them another time. Basically, wearing glasses, having acne, and I guess just something about my personality in general marked me as a target in middle school. My high school years were spent avoiding any sort of attention, even though I looked a lot different and likely wouldn’t have been made fun of anymore. I was terrified of […]
This is one of the strange feelings I have about suicide. I easily believe that if I die by natural means or accident, I’ll simply perish forever. But if I try suicide I cannot imagine that I’ll be dead, I feel like I’ll survive somehow and end up in a worse situation. Even if I make sure that I do everything right, I cannot imagine that I’ll be able to kill myself. I feel like there is 0% chance of success. I feel immortal somehow.
Science and my logic says that this cannot be the case. If you make sure that you kill yourself, you’ll be […]
If I don’t feel better by 2 months or so I’m going to kill myself.
Over a year ago my parents were giving me a ‘lecture’ on something (not something unusual) wherever they do so I feel really frustrated and that time I don’t know how, completely involuntary I told them I’ve been considering to kill myself (I had decided to never tell anyone but like I said I told them in rush)
What about you?
Plz ignore bad English.
hi….I just wanna tell u some thing
is there any one understand the meaning of life in this world….but still I am not……I think it’s meaning less……
my family, my friend… hates me a lot….
before some days I tryed many times to kill my self b/c am not brave to do this
but Now the time is coming………
Wndozh8r (did I get that right?) Been trying to tell you that I’m also from WV. I was born & raised in Morgantown. I am only surprised more people in WV aren’t in here, because living in WV is enough to make one want to kill themselves. 😉 lol (But actually I have had a moment or two of being homesick. It’ll be 2 years out of WV before I know it. I lost my whole family and life there.)
Somebody Insignificant (is that right?) Damn it to hell, I’m horny! Lol
And for others, I wonder what these guys look like who swear they’re going to […]
I feel so bad. I feel empty. I don’t know what the purpose for me living is. The only reason I haven’t killed myself yet is because my parents would be very sad if I died. But why should I just keep living because of them? After all, they’re part of the reason I want to kill myself. I just don’t know what to do.
My depression gets worst everyday I cry every night I don’t cut myself everyday but I do every week I haven’t told anyone and I’m scared if I don’t get help that one day when I don’t want help and someone helps me I’ll ignore them everyday I want to kill myself I’m just scared to commit suicide I don’t think I could do that to everyone who loves and cares about me and if one day I can’t take it anymore I think I’ll actually kill myself I feel so lonely I just want someone to be there for me so I can know […]
Tomorrow I start my fifth year of college.
Yikes.
This year I finish degree #1. I student teach in the spring, and in the fall I do…everything else. I’m overwhelmed to say the least. I’m saddled with things I have to do and missing opportunities that I wanted to have due to factors I have no control over. I feel as if I’ve lost control of my life, but I don’t know if I was ever in control to begin with.
This summer has felt like a blur. I’ve let people down and felt the world crumble around my feet. I’ve spent days upon days in bed, feeling […]
I don’t know whether to cry or laugh. I’m so god damn done. I’m done with living and feeling like absolute shit.
Yet, I can’t even kill myself. Or cut myself. That used to be my escape and now it doesn’t help at all.
Today, I kept jerking the car, knowing my step father would feel pain. And I wanted him to. I wanted him to feel a fraction of what I feel everyday.
And my half sister wouldn’t just shut up. I screamed at her. And I would’ve kept screaming at her but my step dad told me to […]