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Last Friday

Anyone familiar with this vicious cycle?

by Matel 10/5/2015

written by Matel

I have been feeling alright for the last 2 weeks, didn’t have any massive anxiety or worries, I was able to enjoy the things that I usually enjoy. For people who knows the feeling it is a signal that your depression is away/lessened 🙂

Last Friday and this weekend was especially good, I even enjoyed food and considered doing some sports. Didn’t have any suicidal thoughts, which I have several times every day normally. So, lets say I was feeling good.

But of course it doesn’t stay like that does it, everything came back with full force again today. Anxiety again, worries again, writing here on SP […]

10/5/2015 11 comments

This is my story.

by unconvention4l 6/14/2013

written by unconvention4l

Hey guys, my name is Fabienne, I’m 17 and from New Zealand and I have been at war with myself since I was born. Literally. Mum said ‘you came into this world not really wanting to live’ so I guess life-long depression is my diagnosis. I’ve been bullied for having eczema since I was 5, being called names like “Scabby” and things like that, then was ostracized from age 6 through till age 14 at school.Â I moved schools in Spetember 2009 and started to get boys attention for the first time and ended up giving my body to them so I could feel ‘normal’ […]

6/14/2013 3 comments

living a double life

by hereWithoutme10 6/8/2013

written by hereWithoutme10

Last friday my oxy script ran out so I had to go 3 days without it, those three days were hell all I could think about was getting high again. I just dosed up on about 9o milligrams of oxy. I dont wanna go through this again ive relapsed hard and I dont wanna go threw this again. I met the girl of my dreams and I know if she finds out im screwed. I live a double life my friends hate drug users yet im high as a kite everytime im around them and I dont wanna lose anymore friends. At this point these […]

6/8/2013 4 comments

On drugs and life

by Ford 4/14/2013

written by Ford

Oh well, life has been… well, life has been life lately. I am posting here because I feel the need to after some crazy weeks. Still trouble with education and law, basically everyone is endlessly procrastinating. I couldn’t care less. I have been taking insane amounts of benzos for a few days until I ran out. Life is quite a lot more bearable when you are unconscious, surprisingly. Alcohol helps too, the combination is good too. Until you run out and you have to withdraw. I had been taking the benzos on prescription as a sleep aid on-and-off for a few years, so withdrawing from […]

4/14/2013 3 comments

I like schedules.

by christina-- 11/1/2012

written by christina--

I always make schedules.

According to my schedule I had to have readen all three books I needed to read for the two exams I had. According to my schedule I had to finish them last friday. Which was possible if I wasnt just a complete ****.

I already decided to do only one exam because I thought that would be easier and I would at leats get to finish reading for 1 subjct. And I cant. I cant get to finish it. And its not even that hard.

According to my schedule I was supposed to start studying an hour ago. And I didnt do it. Because […]

11/1/2012 0 comment