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Before I start my post, I’m apologising for the lack of replies to the comments on my last post. I wasn’t in the right frame of mind the other day, so I thought it was best to not reply at that time.
The last two days have been particularly awful. My moods have been so irregular I’ve had to leave rooms because everyone is utterly pissed at the lack of stability. And the voices are so frequent I feel like my head is going to explode. I can’t cope with the constant noise.
The figures aren’t much better. I see things everywhere now; I can’t look […]
so I’ve been thinking, what I said before is true but, I couldn’t end my life for the sake of my mother. I know she hurts and I couldn’t put her through anymore. I want to tell her everything. I want to talk to her and help her. I made a promise to myself last night that I will always be here for her. no matter how much pain I have to go through. I have enough as it is but for my mother I would do anything. she’s the strongest person I’ve seen in my life and my hero. I’ll absolutely do anything for […]
My mind is blank I want to write but can’t I’m physically here but mentally gone
think I really did die last year but my soul just not accepting to leave the body
Last week someone said I’m here for a reason what reason that what’s my purpose ?
Mkay. I made it official last night that “Let’s Chats” were a thing now especially when it comes to me. Its early as fuck 7:15am to be exact and I’m like super tired I have the power to control my niece and nephew XD (I put my hand on their faces and I was like sleeeeeep)
Remember embrace your inner weirdo
Note I’m on my mobile phone so I probably won’t reply as quick….
-Suicide
Dear friends,
This is the last one. I was held up until today, getting my will finalised. I do so appreciate it if any of you feel moved to pray for the repose of my soul. This is a great group of people, I wish I could have been more a part of it. Please continue to support and love one another. Be kind to yourselves and others. Keep the faith, in whatever way you see fit. Blessings to you all, Amy
so last night I posted that nights have been hard and days were fine with me. This morning I woke up feeling just as bad as I did last night and I’m upset that a good sleep didn’t help 🙁 also wondering how someone can cry for nearly 2 hours straight without running out of tears. Couldn’t manage to get myself out of bed for class so this sucks.
we seem to have a lot of new people with us I was just wondering who new and are some of the old people still with us I no Iv only been here a few months but iv seen a few posts about people last days would like to know who still with us and who passed on ?
But I really do like all u guys even if it’s only been a few weeks I’m glad I joined the
suicide club
Hi guys. It’s been a while since I was last here.
It’s 8:16pm and I’ve been at work for over 13 hours. My concentration is fizzing. I’m trying to get these drafts out before tomorrow, but I’m fighting the familiar thoughts again.
I feel like I have so much to tell everyone about what happened in the time I was gone from this forum, but I don’t have the energy right now.
I’m contemplating leaving now and coming back early tomorrow to finish this off before work starts. I’m not being very productive anyway.
At the same time, I find myself thinking “If I’m going to do this, […]
So today I found out that I got a parking ticket last month and I had no fucking idea. Like I’m attentive I would’ve seen a piece of paper on my windshield telling me that I got a ticket. I WOULDVE FUCKING SEEN IT IF IT FLEW OFF MY CAR WHILE DRIVING. I never got a first notice and I’m being charged almost double the fucking ticket because they say it’s my second notice. This is shit. I’m calling them tomorrow. I am willing to pay the original fine, because I did park illegally, but I am reluctant on paying the late charge because I […]
well last nights plan didn’t workout to well waking up in hospital on a drip I need to think of a different method because I don’t think things will get better and iv lost the will to live so I don’t like the idea of crawling though life
15 hours left.
I didn’t sleep last night. I laid awake on a couch. I didn’t want to sleep. I was afraid to sleep. Now all I want to do is sleep as I get ready for that pointless test. I’ve realized. This is my last day on earth. Everything I do today is the last. From eating, to pretending like im going to be alive the next day. In about 2 hours I will be back to it. I might sleep for a while. I might stay up for the next 13 hours. I don’t know. I’m tired. I’m so tired. Not just in a […]
This will probably turn into a rant or something, oh well.
I’m terrified of everything. The voices won’t leave me alone. They want me to do things, and I know I’m going to end up doing them. They want me to jump from a bridge, or a building, now. They say bad things will happen if I don’t. I don’t want to hear them anymore. They scare me.
I still haven’t saw my doctor, there weren’t any appointments last week. I don’t know when I next see my therapist, and I see my psychiatrist on the 12th (the Angels haven’t been saying she’s much of a threat […]
My Heart And Other Black Holes is the book that led me to this site today… Last month I overdosed twice and ended up in hospital. I still want to die. I am scared. I don’t even know why I am posting this on here. I guess I am just getting my thoughts out.
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I have experienced abject suffering for the last four years, and I expect to do so for the rest of my life.
I literally have nothing left to live for. My last hope for my future is gone now. My clock is ticking down to the last seconds. I want this pain to just leave me alone, just for a little while. I’m so tired of being in pain… If there was ever a shot at happiness for me, it’s long gone now. It’s gone, just like my dreams.
Many of you were here for one of the most amazing romances ever known to man… i was notified last night that my true love kaylee bush took her life… It was ironic because i told her our love was like romeo and juliet except we were going to save each other from suicide instead of cause it.. in her note she notified family that we would be eternally NUTBUSH, hense the name change… the last time i talked to her she said she wasnt sure if she was strong enough to make it.. i should be happy for her and i guess i am, […]
So, I’ve made it clear I’m leaving. I’ve been attacked from every angle. It’s relentless. I’m holding my ground. I won’t back down. I’ll burn this fucking world to the ground.
Where’s this strength coming from? I’m not sure. I will use it as long as it last.
I theorize I’ve never been more serious about suicide. I don’t want to die. So human-drive.
Here’s a poem I wrote through my sons eyes:
Watching out the windows,
Looking out of doors,
Scanning the horizon,
Gaze up to the stars.
Searching for that something,
That has gone so far away,
I don’t remember why I’m waiting,
I’m not to sure what I feel but the longer I go on I think I’m less likely to act on my suicidal thoughts again I attempted twice but wasn’t really planned like don’t get me wrong I think about it most of the day and the last few days have been rather smooth in reality but things keep going smooth il see how things go not to say WHEN and that when will happen at some point thing will get bad again or something will happen that will get me thinking to act again but I hope I get the strength and courage to […]