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“& I’m still In love cause when It’s that real,It doesn’t fade”

by lifeishorrible 2/7/2014

written by lifeishorrible

Good thing-I feel like I’m starting all over.Time to do things right.

Bad things-Sure there a lot of beautiful girls but none of them are you.None of them have your eyes,none of them have you voice.I thought my first love had a beautiful voice but then I heard you and now sometimes before I go to sleep I hear the voicemails you left me just to hear you.I have yet to meet a girl that’s like you.You were everything I looked In a girl and more.I’m not young anymore.I want to settle down.I could honestly see myself settling down her.She used to always worry about her […]

2/7/2014 15 comments

Nothing

by creeper tales 2/7/2014

written by creeper tales

Iâ€™m not here,
Iâ€™m not there.
You canâ€™t find me anywhere.
I have left,
I have gone.
Cause everyday
made my life wrong.
What people do,
what people say.
â€ I hate uâ€,
â€ Go away.â€
I tried to keep calm,
and have no fear.
But it got too much,
so i disappeared.
I took a rope,
and made a bow.
Put it around my neck,
and just let go.
For a second there was pain,
but soon there was no more.
As the life in me left,
my body went limp and poor.
Nobody knows,
nobody cares.
Iâ€™m transparent,
as thin as air.
Peopleâ€™s […]

2/7/2014 4 comments

Irish?

by Procel 2/3/2014

written by Procel

anyone left here from ireland?

2/3/2014 6 comments

The woes of living with my parents

by Anabanana 2/3/2014

written by Anabanana

I live a life that’s not really mine. My mother has been emotionally and physically abusing me since I was a young girl. My father left when I was only seven years old, and lives with his fancy girlfriend. He doesn’t care what happens in my life. I acheive high grades, I have friends, and I seem like a normal girl externally. Internally, I am forever suppressing an intense desire to put an end to my life. I only find comfort in dance, music, poetry, and for some strange reason, science. However, I dread every moment I spend at home with my mother. I live […]

2/3/2014 2 comments

First time at Lakeside Behavioral Center

by ahannah123 2/1/2014

written by ahannah123

I was at school and theÂ counselorÂ wanted to talk to me. So I started talking to her about being depressed and she asked me if I had a plan to kill myself. I said I’ve been thinking of killing myself and if I were to I would use sleeping pills.Then she started crying and said it was because she cared and called the school’s police officer guy and he came in and asked if I was suicidal and I said yes and then I
had to confirm it with anotherÂ counselorÂ then he searched my bag and then I went in the back of theÂ deputies’Â car (without handcuffs) he […]

2/1/2014 2 comments

Everyday I’m suffering.

by nothingmore 1/29/2014

written by nothingmore

I don’t exactly know why I’m posting this. I don’t believe that I will kill myself, at least not yet. Although the thoughts are there. Constantly. I have thought about how I want to go, why I want to go, and the impact it would have on those who love me. It will be painful for them, I understand that. They will however live their lives. Without me. I’ve become a burden, a failure of a man. A failed marriage, failed fatherhood, failed life. I have no dignity left. No hope for the future left. No hope for happiness. My story is rather simple, and […]

1/29/2014 11 comments

What’s next?

by irefusetosink 1/29/2014

written by irefusetosink

I’ve had depression for a number of years. My parents work all the time and I wouldn’t consider my family to be close anyway so i’ve always been independent. When I was 11, my dad left my mum because she was an alcoholic but came back after 3 months. My mum lied to me for years about how he had left for another women but no..it was because of her and I was only told this 4 months ago. I’m not really close to anyone. I literally don’t care about anything anymore. It makes me laugh how even my dad thinks I’m not depressed, he […]

1/29/2014 3 comments

soon it will be over

by zerokarma 1/27/2014

written by zerokarma

So im 33 and have hoped my life would get better…the past week or so has proved me wrong and there is nothing left to be hopeful about.I have several health problems any of which could kill me at anytime.I have 3 girlswhoi lovemore than anything even tho only one talks to me anymore.Within a week or so after i postthis i plan on taking my life,i know its a selfish act but there really is no other choice.It feels good just to write this down thanks to anyone who reads.

1/27/2014 4 comments

Maybe It’s For The Best

by LetItGo 1/25/2014

written by LetItGo

Maybe itâ€™s for the best
That we no longer talk
Itâ€™ll break us both
Into a million pieces
Well at least for me
But then maybe your life
Wouldn’t be so dramatic
Maybe if I left you
The annoying thorn in your
Side would be finally gone
Maybe itâ€™s for the best
That I leave you in peace

1/25/2014 1 comment

I hate this

by the black widow 1/24/2014

written by the black widow

I cant live with myself anymore after he left ,i just hate myself so much for not being good for him ,i hate myself for having an ugly personality and ugly face and ugly body and i hate myself for being stupid and not being good at anything! I just hate that im not one of his sexy smart pretty friends ,i hate that he left me ,i hate that i cant rewind ,i hate that i cant get over him and i hate how much i miss him!.

1/24/2014 4 comments

Why?

by the black widow 1/24/2014

written by the black widow

I still remember how boring and empty my life was before i met him , and how when we started getting together it was just for fun ,wasn’t planning to ever fall for him or think the way im thinking right now ,i fell so hard i was ready to do anything literally ANYTHING ,and then he slightly started to back off ,its like he did that in purpose he just had this need to kill someone mentally for no reason ,he just left me without saying anything after he started to act mean ,i know he’s not mean i just dont know why! He […]

1/24/2014 2 comments

Passive Aggressive Roommates?

by deathismyonlyoption 1/22/2014

written by deathismyonlyoption

Why are people so unfriendly to me? Do I give off some vibe that says donâ€™t talk to me? My roommate gives me dirty looks. I will call her Sandra from here on out. I am not sure if this is just how her face normally looks or what but she never says hi or good morning to me, I want to say those things to her but the looks she gives me make me stay silent. I live on campus this semester, it has only been a few days but it has been very hard. I feel like I am constantly sick to […]

1/22/2014 3 comments

I’ve lost all that I ever needed, I always end up feeling cheated

by khajiit 1/10/2014

written by khajiit

the frost of frozen thoughts do stay

where hidden creatures tend to lay

among the canyons of my brain

where ice has festered in my veins

this vacancy begins to curl

and thoughts begin to twist and swirl

where heat and fire once had burned

but nothing ever lasts I’ve learned

how could you be lost again?

I wonder just how long its been

I bet youre fleeing, running fast

and making sure its me you pass

my hearts a bowl of pain and glass

where emptiness has now amassed

carved hollow from the thought of you

but you never even had a clue

shes […]

1/10/2014 3 comments

You’re tearing me apart.

by hellblau 10/2/2013

written by hellblau

You’re tearing me apart,
When I can’t stop thinking and lock myself in my mind.

You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re always on my head and You’re forcing me to stop thinking of myself.

You’re tearing me apart,
When you want me to stop living, and concentrate on your feelings.

You’re tearing me apart,
Cause while time passes, flowers are dying and so am I.

You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re giving me reasons to not fight and give up on myself.

You’re tearing me apart,
All I can feel is the pain that you left and is keeping me by your side.

Without being there with you, but in your […]

10/2/2013 0 comment

The Caged Canary

by khajiit 12/31/2012

written by khajiit

Curled tightly in its iron womb
Forthcoming almost certain doom
an infant bird respires last
wretched secrets mere and vast

“To die!” it shrills “I beg you please
Take my breath and let me cease”
A chilly, silent, cheerless air
secreted by this bird’s despair

Restrained by ageless ferric bars
adorned in grisly, gaping scars
from strife and discord with its cage
and self-inflicted fiendish rage

Withered and replete of wrath
its essence walks a lonely path
Phantoms, voices beckon so
and warn of hells it dares to go

what happened to this bird I know
a tale of endless pain and woe
left in its cage to rot […]

12/31/2012 5 comments

Time’s up

by BrooklynBoxx 12/29/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

Just called a suicide hotline.. they guy i talked to .. he just kept saying uh well you need to look at it from a better point of view.

I lost my 2nd oldest brother cause my oldest brother raped me! and you exspect me to look on the bright side. I look at his facebook everyday, hoping to get to know him. I DONT EVEN KNOW MY OWN BROTHER. And i hate it.. i hate it so badly. I only found out last week he’s graduated highschool.. i never knew.. i didnt know..

I miss him so badly, we would stay up reading the hungry catapillar, […]

12/29/2012 3 comments

My Voice

by BrooklynBoxx 12/9/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

The truth I hold, took years to unfold, locked up andÂ never told. Now I speak, for I am done being weak. A story I will tell,Â awakening the pits of my hell.
Â Pinned against the wall, being six a littleÂ small. Tongue against my chest, you can imagine the rest. Touching,Â feeling, my eyes rolling to the ceiling. I push away, forced down, screaming, but i was never found.
Â Day and night, always full of fright kissing, sucking,Â nonstop fucking. Crying, weeping and always pleading.
Was I that bad […]

12/9/2012 20 comments

What now

by BrooklynBoxx 12/6/2012

written by BrooklynBoxx

.. Have i ever thought i’d get to this point no.. im only 14 why am i here. What did i do to deserve this. I guess this is the time i’d share my story right? Exsplain it all get it out, wipe my slate clean. But im sure none of you care to hear my story. So if you dont stop reading, its not gonna be a happy one.

I was 3 when my mom kidnapped me, she abused me every day tried to kill me once out of jealousy, cause after i was born no one gave her attention anymore. Great mom right? after […]

12/6/2012 3 comments

You left without me

by lostchild445 3/13/2012

written by lostchild445

… I just got a call.. From my best friends brother… She died at 10:48. They couldn’t save her. They said she lost too much blood… That there was no hope to save her… Amanda…my best friend…you promised me..that we were both stuck here with each other… and you left.. Without calling me, without telling me.. without taking me with you… You alone got me through my hospitalization. You gave me hope. You were the only one that could make me laugh anymore… Whose gonna make me laugh now? Whose gonna tell me it’s ok? Whose gonna remember the times we had at the unit? […]

3/13/2012 5 comments

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