Its days like this I feel almost human, almost visible, almost a part of life. Days like this, although its too early & I’m on a crowded bus, I don’t want to die. I want to live & enjoy life. But I have to remind myself that this is only a fleeting glance. I am cursed, in pain, unlovable, poor & soon to be homeless. & that is not gonna change.
” We little knew the day that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn’t go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories.
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you
You are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken
and nothing seems the same,
but as God calls us one by one
the chain will link again. “
I’m not posting this as an encouragement or a deterrent, nor is it meant to prove or disprove evidence of a life beyond death. I simply found it to be very interesting within the context of things I am familiar with.
– peace
i hold the blade
It casts a shade
Over my life
That is filled with so much strife
I think a lot of people approach the whole meaningless life and suicide thing incorrectly.
I think people who are suicidal can be the most courageous because they realize that life is meaningless and so have nothing to lose.
Why not create “The Suicide Gang” and use this state of mind to do crazy things. Things that will make a difference just because they breathe life into a boring world. You can consider it stupid or pointless but so is life.
Ideas:
1) Buy a costume and walk around town in it – just wave at traffic. They don’t know who you are so have fun with it. Who […]
The landscape was dry and dead. The roses that had grown in giant bushels were wilting and grey…the bee’s, once so full of life and sound, were silent and still…as were the other animals. The babbling brook that normally sang its cheerful melody in its beautiful voice had disappeared…leaving behind a trench of much and slime. The grass had turned brown from lack of rain and sunlight. The sky was over cased and dark, not one ray of sun had a hope of peeking through the dense clouds. The air was thick and hard to breath, it felt like it clung to your insides after […]
I know the word “cope” implies that there is a method in which we can deal with our problems but I am really just asking what is it that you use to help ease the pain of life with?
For me I suppose it would be Anime & Manga, music too of course. There really is no coping though, just small moments of reprieve…
School is like literally stressing me out and making me feel alone and depressed. I’m not gonna graduate High School, im about a semester behind, my counselor said it already, maybe there is hope for me to graduate, she said, maybe. I’m wasn’t born in the U.S. and I got all the permits from the Dream Act and if I don’t graduate, then they’ll strip them away and throw me back to the country I was born in, although, I was born in Mexico, The U.S. is my home, I was raised here, I came here when I was 4, im 16 now (17 in […]
The standard advice for suicidal people is to reach out to someone. And yet it is our relationships with those we care about most that seem to steepen the slope of our depression. Girl problems, boy problems, family problems. It really really pains me how many children are depressed and suicidal. When I was a teenager I could at least tell myself i was young and that there was time and life would get better. But it didn’t. I just have more pain and more guilt and more cynicism. I. just can’t seem to relate to anyone. Some time back i promised myself I […]
“Selina Kyle”
There is no escape
I need to roll out
Here in Gotham City
The suffer of hell
I already died
Walk to go die
Will I ever live
The nightmare that I am
Who can it be
That can save
Here at the end
My hero, the middle
Almost forever
Take me to life
Today
Life is death my loves and as soon as you embrace that, you’ll know that your freedom is in death. The will to live and the will to die are both in the same. Choosing to die is the bravest thing one has ever chosen. No need to fit in the masses or walk with the herd. Knowing that you only exist because you want to and you can be gone when you want to is true liberation and beauty. Those who try to stop you are seeking validation and a divine purpose. Your death is a choice, your life is a choice. Don’t be […]
I always lose. No matter what the situation I will always lose. I don’t know what winning feels like. It’s destroying me. All my major life stages have been marked by serious catastrophic events. It’s soul destroying. My use by date is coming up.
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/10/096-Daughtry-Life-After-You-www.SongsLover.com_.mp3t hang out with outside of school. And to the people that are in this same situation that i’m in i feel your pain you feel emptyness and just a waste of space on earth, but let me tell you, you were meant to do something great with your life and right now your probably thinking im not meant to do anything great i am nothing, but you are something. I have thought about suicide myself allot actually people think i have […]
How can I be alive if I’m barely breathing? I’m lying on the cold floor and trying to cry, but no tears are coming out. You’ve made me lose my mind. You broke my heart, drained my tears and destroyed my soul. For what? Is it that nice to hurt someone? To wreck a perfectly normal girl? Huh? Does it make you feel better about yourself? Does it help with your self esteem? Tell me, darling. Make me understand why you did this to me. It’s all I want. To know why. Then I can die in peace. I’m begging you. Tell me what I […]
As we all know, plenty of aspects of life aren’t very easy to handle. But I learned that through difficulty there is greater strength to gain alongside experience and maturity. Sometimes I wonder why is it that if you are in the middle of one of life’s struggles, it becomes difficult to believe in looking at that bright side. How come the obvious light at the end of the tunnel becomes so faded and unbelievable when one is basking in depression?
It’s quite scary because during this dark time it’s so easy to forget that everything will be okay. What if I become so convinced […]
I’m freaking out about not having enough hours at work, not having a place to live, not having money to pay my bills, not being able to find a second job, and having to do all this shit alone.
This is too much shit for one person to handle. Enough is enough. I seriously feel so freaked and panicked and anxious about everything that I wanna just go jump off a bridge and be done with this shit.
You win, Universe. You wanted to see how much fucking shit one person could really take, and this is it. I’m fucking done, you win, I’m not playing anymore.
Thank […]
Imagine your mother going upstairs, into your room and finds you dead, hanging from the ceiling fan. There is no going back. You just wanted to end the pain not your life. You hurt everyone that ever knew you. You didn’t just end your pain, you gave it to some els. It’s not just you that are wanting to end your life. Now it’s your younger sister or brother that you have passed these thought down to. They start to cut.. last week your mother found your goodbye letter, she unfolds it carefully while tears are running down her face. After she reads the letter […]
I honestly cannot find the words anymore, nothing to comfort others. I’m just blank, more or less like something that’s been erased. As i sit there constanly with the thoughts of suicide, it moves down my spin.. hurting more and more, like ice onto an ocean. I technically cannot classify myself from an ocean. Because in my mind: I see an Ocean as peaceful, full of life, moving to keep the life going. It’s like we are here to be here? If that makes sense, but unlike others we feel it all, we feel it more and more & it dwells in our minds that […]
I couldn’t keep up with a fast-paced job for even a week.
I can’t even find a good job at all.
I can’t make my boyfriend laugh the way I used to. I can’t tell him anything that will give me more than “yeah well” or “baby”. When he says he loves me, the only thing I can think is that he doesn’t really mean it. He doesn’t ask me how my day is or try to talk about things with me anymore. But God knows he has plenty to tell his friends on his computer game.
I came to New York a month and a half ago […]
You know that saying, in the end no one dies a virgin because life fucks us all? Well, why don’t we think of it this way, in the end, your not really that important to human life like thomas edison or albert einstein, we are just parasites clinging to the crest of the earth trying to live, and yet, we still try to be someone we’re not, we try to be one of those popular people even though we like nothing the other popular people like, we try to make our mark on the world even though we don’t even know how. So, think of […]